just another crappy day

• Today is just another crappy day. Some days I'm feeling good, other days I just feel like poo. I'm still trying to think positive, but it's really hard to do so. Why this has to happen over the holidays, I don't know. It's also rainy and cold outside, making my mood even more gloomy. I slept 8 hours today, actually almost 9. I was supposed to get up at 8pm and my alarm went off, but I turned it off and just crawled back in bed for like 45 more minutes. It's like I'd rather sleep my depression away, and maybe if I wake up later it'll all be a bad dream. I honestly don't think I'm getting a tree this year. My first Christmas in 27 years with no tree. I have like no time first of all, and second just hearing Christmas music makes me sad/angry. A tree would make me feel 10 times worse.
  
• Also, I think I have a slow leak on my rear drivers side tire. I kinda hit the curb hard at the Wendys drive thru last Saturday night, and ever since then I've had to fill up that tire three times. So yeah after Mom's doctor appt this morning I'm gonna head over to WheelWorks to get it checked out. It's raining and I'm driving to Lodi on Saturday, so I'd like to get this fixed ASAP.
  
• God sure is throwing me for a loop, huh? I really don't like what's going on right now, obviously, but it's all out of my hands. All I can do is pray. A lot. I am so looking forward to this weekend, a nice getaway from all the crap. Thank you all for your love and support. You guys are the best!!