I am thankful

• I'm pretty upset right now. On Monday morning my mom was complaining of chest and stomach pain and we took her to San Leandro Hospital. She's still there right now. They are doing all kinds of tests, and even more tomorrow. I don't know all the details, but it doesn't look too good. I don't want to get into it. Right now I don't really feel like talking to anyone. I just wish I could go home and curl into a ball and sleep. For a long, long time. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. That's why I'm not online on AIM right now. I'll get the usual "How are ya?" and I'll have to lie and go "Oh I'm fine" when I'm really not. I haven't been able to eat much all day, well maybe part of a Lean Cuisine sesame chicken dinner. I feel nauseated, upset, worried, angry, and depressed. Christmas music makes me cry. I just want to close my eyes and forget about all this crap for a while. I have a deep faith in God and I know that he's only throwin what I can handle to me right now. I may not think I can get through this now, but I will. I don't know how, but I will. Yes tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I am thankful, for having the best family and friends a person could ever wish for. I'm thankful for having great parents, even if I won't have them here with me forever. I'm thankful for Jesus dying on the cross for me and for all of us. If you aren't religious, then sorry. Big wow. See how much I care. Anyway, that's my anger popping out again. All I can say is, thank you all for being the best pals ever, and please pray to whatever God you pray to today, for my mother. Thanks.