includes a magical disclaimer

• Magical disclaimer for readers: Last Friday morning I did two blogs, as several of you noticed. One was public, one was for preferred readers. There were only 2 preferred readers. I'm going through some stupid drama right now that I don't want to disclose with the entire universe. Therefore, I didn't include most of you on my preferred list. 99.9% of my blogs are public. I'm sorry to make any of you have frowny faces this weekend but this is one of things I needed to vent about but not broadcast. Sorry for your reading inconveniences. Now on to writing my usual blog to my dead mother. :-)
  
• Okay Momma, I'm back from my weekend. It was pretty darn fun. Friday morning I took Dad and Michelle to Costco, and we all got membership cards. I also got a lot of pineapple, and many bags of carrots. Oh and a chicken Caesar salad, very tasty. I spent Friday evening at home relaxing, and it was great. I watched Kicking And Screaming on TBS, Will Ferrell is insane.
  
• Let's see Saturday I did my usual work thing in San Francisco. Then I came home and actually relaxed for a bit and watched some TV. Then Cathy and Alisha picked me up. We hung out at Alisha's for a few then went to Jason's house to watch a Metallica concert on DVD and watch the boys design and race cars on his Xbox 360. It was pretty fun, just chilling out. Then I went home and fixed a rum + diet coke ( I haven't had any drinks for like a month.. yay) with a bigass hunk of pineapple in it. Boy that was yummy.
  
• Sunday morning I went to church. Yes I got there on time, I did set my clock forward before I went to bed Saturday night. Afterwards Davina and I went to Berkeley to see Leslie and The Lys. That girl is insane, it's awesome! What an experience. I bought one of her shirts and snagged a promo poster, and she signed both and took a crazy pic with me. Davina's pic looks even better than mine does, but that's because Davina is crazier then I am. We walked around Telegraph and got pizza beforehand for lunch, forgot to mention that. We did other shopping and split a crepe as a snack. Then we drove through downtown Oakland and paid a surprise visit to Davina's grandma. She seems nice, Shuki was cutting her hair. I felt so white in her house. Very cultural. Moving on, we got back to San Leandro and picked up Michelle and went to my house where we copied some of the pictures from Davina's camera to my computer. We went to dinner at Carrows ( I had coupons, and still do.. I belong to the E-Club!!) and browsed at Target. Oh I forgot to mention, Cathy did A LOT of cleaning at my house, she says it was out of boredom. I think she just wanted to pitch in since she practically lives there. She even cleaned the front window, swiffervac'd everything, did dishes, and baked a cake. It's like WOW. Domestication. She refused to scoop Spencer's stinky litterbox though, I gotta do that in the morning. All in all I had a great weekend.
  
• Tonight I'm working in San Fran then coming here, so my schedule's going to be interesting. I'm so blessed/thankful that Cathy did a lot of the housework so I don't have to do tons of it. I've been up since 8:30am yesterday with a one hour nap, so I'm kinda pooped. I need to clean my bathroom and I may mop the floors, depending on my level of exhaustion at 7:30am when I get home. Okay talk to ya later. Love ya.
  

i got new shoes, cheap ones

• Howdy Momma, the weekend is here. Thank God. Week wasn't too rough, but I love weekends just the same. Michelle and I have gone walking all week, and I even went on Sunday. So that's like 5 days in a row. Dad got me new walking shoes at Walmart the other day. My ankles have been hurting a lot, and I figured it was due to improper footwear. Well um my right ankle still hurts like a biatch, but there may be other factors. Right before that time of the month *cough cough* my feet and ankles tend to swell up. Also, I'm fat so that could be it too. But I've been fat for years so you'd think my ankles would be hurting for a while now. Oh well, maybe I'll take some Tylenol or Alieve next time I go. I think we're skipping the walk today since both of us have aching body parts and I promised I would take her and Dad to Costco later in the morning to get/renew a membership.
  
• This weekend should be nice and relaxing for once. No impending plans just yet, and that's fine. If someone wants to hang, cool. If not I'd love to actually catch up on movies at home and actually be able to veg out in front of my TV. Well the only plan I have set is seeing Leslie and The Lys at Amoeba in Berkeley on Sunday afternoon. She is freaking awesome!
  

Yeah she's just up my alley. Anyway.. ta-ta for now!

im pooped

• Hello there Momma. Oh dear I am so pooped. I haven't gotten enough sleep the last few days, I guess. I went walking Monday and yesterday morning, and I'm going again today. Yay. I'm still not losing any weight. Boo. It's about time to put on my wizard hat (Kimmie get it, message me if any of you are confused). That's probably why some of my body parts have doubled in size. Yes I do talk about them on Myspace. LOL
• Anyway yeah, Monday evening I did karaoke again with Davina and this time we drug Michelle along, since she wanted to go to the bookstore after. So much fun, I love singing 80s love ballads and pop songs. Earlier tonight I got to board op the symphony over at KDFC, filling in for Dane. It's pretty easy and I need the dough. I got less than 6 hours of sleep, since I was running errands with the family in the morning. Oh well I guess. Now today (Wednesday), I am going to get some freakin sleep. Nice restful sleep. I am not answering the phone. Probably won't be in bed until like noon, but when I do hop the train to sleepytown, I do not want to be interrupted by anyone. Unless the house is on fire and there's some hunky fireman rescuing me, I don't want to hear it.
  
• Oh yeah, finally got my refund. Thanks Uncle Sam and the Governator. I also bought my camera online. Used Bizrate.com and saved about $40 as compared to Best Buy. This is the one I picked, Cindy. Kinda an upgrade from what you suggested.
  

I think 7.1 megapixels is OK, I think my old one was like 5MP. I just wanted a small point and shoot. I don't remember each and every feature, but all the reviews I've read have been positive.

Ok I'm gonna go now, back to watching more stuff on Youtube to pass the time at work.Love ya mom!

my friends are awesome

• Hellooooo Momma. Back from my weekend. It was awesome! Friday morning I went to breakfast with Leeanne, then went walking with Michelle at the marina. I saw Shuki, Davina's mom doing tai-chi. Haha. Friday evening I met up with Sandi in Tracy and we ate at Wally's Drive-In, with the biggest freaking cheeseburgers I have ever seen. After that we went to see Definitely Maybe over in Dublin. Fun times.
  
• Saturday I worked my part-time gig, then went to Joey's 1st bday (Fernando's son). It was lots of fun. I reunited with Michael and Tony (who smelled great by the way.. hey baby.. you're 18 now I can flirt), and we played in the inflatable jumper thing. There was also tons of food and a pinata for the kids. I saw several people I hadn't seen in a long while. It was fun. After that excitement I ate dinner at home, and took Michelle to Southland so she could look at bras. We window shopped for a bit and some hot guy with a french accent did some nail demonstration on me trying to sell me some manicure stuff. He was hot and I got tingles down my spine while he massaged my cuticle, so I didn't mind. Later on that evening I hung out with Cathy, TJ, and his friend. I forget his name. James, Jason? Starts with a J. Okay when I barely got home from that guy's house, Davina picked myself and Valeria up, and we went to a karaoke place in Hayward. So much fun! They even made a CD of us singing, Valeria's making us copies. I can't wait for people to hear it.
  
• Sunday was pretty normal. Got up, went to church, came home, did some housework, went walking to the duck pond, went home, watched some TV while eating a spinach bacon salad, then took a LONG nap. Then I got up and made dinner, and came here.
  
• I am so blessed to have great friends to make my days special. Seriously. All of you guys rock. Even those who I only see on Myspace, or those who I only see once in a blue moon. Just wanted to let you guys know that. Okay gotta go do some surveys here on Myspace. Later!
  

jesus and all night dance parties

• Howdy doody Momma. What's shakin? Do they have all night dance parties up there? They should. I bet Jesus can really get down with his bad self. Anyway, nothing too thrilling going on down here. I went walking yesterday, and I'm going walking today. I'm glad Michelle likes to walk, both of us need all the exercise we can get. I made an AWESOME dinner last night. Sauteed some onions and chopped up potatoes, grilled a piece of bratwurst and chopped it up (we got it free a few weeks ago from Lucky.. lol), scrambled some southwestern eggbeaters in there, added some avocado and salsa.. it was GOOD. Wrapped it up in some tortillas and made some tapas.. out of sight! I haven't had a meal that grubbin in ages. Michelle said it looked like something I threw up but she's weird anyway. As you are very well aware.
  
• This weekend should be cool. Tonight I'm hanging out with Sandi and going to some place with awesome burgers, then we'll maybe hit a movie after. Haven't seen her in ages. Saturday I have work in the morning and Joey's 1st bday party is in the afternoon. I think Cathy's going. I can't believe that kid's almost a year old. WOW. That reminds me Fernando and I have been playing phone tag forever. Okay Michael I know you read my blogs, first of all I need to call you and second of all why does your profile say married? Did you and Irma elope? Maybe I should just call you instead of broadcasting it through my blog. Hahaha. Hope I catch you on Saturday. Okay Mom gotta go, I'm like hella farting up a storm in here. I feel bad for Brad in the morning.
  

hyperactive lisa

• Hello Momma. It's the middle of my lovely work week here. The past few days have been okay. Monday was a little crazy. Took Dad to the eye doctor, Starbucks, Longs, paid off my dentist, went home and took an hour long power nap, then went for an interview in the city. (City = San Francisco) I think I did well, but the PD is factoring in that I already work a lot and if I get this job I'd literally be working 7 days a week. My gut says I didn't get it, but I won't know for sure until later on today. No biggie. I think God's telling me to manage my budget a little better, and I'm trying. Not my fault I'm popular. Everyone wants to go out every single weekend. I get booked. I also feel guilty right now since I made plans to go to Kimmie's niece's birthday party in May and forgot about it when I bought front row tix to Spring Celebration at Great America on 5/10. Family Force 5, front row!!!! WOOT! Okay I'm a bit juiced. I know that night I'll go out to Lodi and hang out with Kimmie and Joyce the next day, make it up to them. I still feel awful though. I always buy daily planners but never use them. Now I have an excuse. LOL
• Yesterday I went walking with Michelle and got my taxes done. I am getting money back!! Enough to get my new camera with a sturdy case and put the rest in my savings where it shall remain until the end of time. (Or I'd like to promise myself that anyway.) Today is grocery day, and like Dad said in the car yesterday, "I'm so happy I could just s*#t." Yes Dad lovely sentiments. I also am going walking this morning, and hooray for that. I'm hoping to get more rest the remaining days of this week, since I'm tired. As usual. Okay Momma gotta go, Kimmie is IMing me about her weird relatives and discussing her even weirder dream about Joanna Kerns attacking Alan Thicke on the set of Growing Pains. Like my dream about her being in her kid body pushing me across her carpet while Judge Reinhold was trying to fix the floorboards wasn't odd enough. "Kim! Kiiim!"
  

i think i'm insane

• Hey there momma. How was your weekend up there? Do you even have weekends, keep track of time? Probably not, no need really. I am so exhausted. I think it's more stress and emotional exhaustion than anything else. My schedule is so insane lately, especially doing stuff for Michelle and Dad this week. I also have an interview for a possible third job this afternoon, I don't wanna get into details since I don't want to jinx myself. I know what you'd say, "Don't go in over your head, slow down." I would love to mother, but since I gotta pay for medical now and I've had unexpected expenses the past 4 months (since I got let go from KKIQ) draining my checking account, it has gotten to the point where something has to be done. Don't worry, it's in radio and I love radio. We'll just have to see.
  
• This weekend was okay for the most part. Friday night I went out with Noelle to Claimjumper for dinner, then to Walmart, my house for a bit, and then her house where I fell asleep during some episode of Family Matters.
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then met Noelle at BART, where we walked over to the Moscone Center to Wondercon. That's a sci-fi/comic book geek fest they have every year. David Duchovny and Gillian Anderson were there to talk about the new X-Files movie coming out in July. Now you remember how big of a crush I had on David back in the day. Well just breathing the same air as him was exhilarating. Noelle took some pics for me since my camera is on the fritz again. I also took pics with Batman, Superman, and Oompa Loompa, Darth Vader and a few troopers. It was so fun. We went back to San Leandro and picked up Michelle and went to La Pinata for dinner. Man I love their chicken famoso burritos. I make 2 meals out of em. Afterward Michelle needed more underwear so we went to Mervyns. Noelle bought more bras. I was making a joke about her wearing a teddy to the Saddlerack sometime and I think she took it literally. Oh well, still fun.
  
• On Sunday I went to church in the morning, then came home and did tons of housework. Even mopped. Afterward I went for a walk over by the duck pond, then came home and took a LONG nap. I mean like 6 hours. I felt guilty for sleeping that long, but I know I work and do a lot of stuff and don't have much down time. Although I'm here at work being paid and I'm blogging, so I dunno. Okay well I'm going to go drink some diet wild cherry pepsi and get hyper, maybe do some surveys. Love ya!!
  

no one said life was easy

• Heidi ho there Momma. Again, not too much excitement going on down here. Today I've just been kinda stressed out about money, Dad getting progressively worse, stuff like that. I'm seriously considering getting another 3rd job. I applied for a board op job at another station in San Fran for weekend work, crossing my fingers on that one. I know God will open a door when the time is right. It's like financially I'm barely making it, I'm paying for medical insurance now, and everyone wants to go out every weekend. It's insane. That and Dad forgot that he buys my groceries and I almost had a panic attack in the middle of Walmart before I reexplained my whole situation. Ever since I got laid off from my on-air gig back in October I've been $200 short a month. It's like good lord, man.
  
• Also I've been having some issues with temptation and sin, all the lovely stuff. I live in the Bay Area, which to me seems like the sin capital of the world. Maybe besides NYC and Las Vegas. I'm saturated with bad stuff 24-7. You know I'm probably exaggerating and everyone is bombarded with it. It's like most of my close friends aren't believers, and my friends that are live kinda far or are pretty scarce. Everyone has sex on the brain 24-7. Everyone says awful things about one another. Everyone cusses. This includes me. I know it's in our nature to be awful and sin and all that, but man it's insane. It's so hard to put all that aside and start over. This is crazy.
  
• Besides all this nonsense it's so hard to sleep lately. I have you on the brain totally, and the whole situation with you in the hospital plays in my mind like a bad movie, and you laying there dead. This is probably some common grief mechanism or something, but yeah it sucks. I'm sure someday I'll get over it. Cathy and I were talking earlier about how rough it's been in the 2 months since you passed on. No one ever said life was easy for anyone, though. I'm taking good care of everyone, and I'm so glad I have a great family and friends to lean on. I think I've aged about 10 years in the last 6 months, seriously. I'm so old. My priorities are totally in another place now. Crazy, huh?
  
• Okay well off to enjoy my weekend, well I can in like 4 1/2 hrs when I leave work. Michelle and I are going walking again, and that's a good thing. I hate it because for the first 1/2 mile, I always feel like I'm gonna pop the big one since I'm so outta shape going slightly up hill. It's worth it in the long run. Okay talk to ya later. Taaa-taaa!
  

same ol crap

• What's crackin, Momma? Not too much down here. The last few days have been pretty uneventful. Dad had a fever the other night, but it went down so we didn't take him to the doctor. He's going grocery shopping with us in the morning so I hope he's feeling better. I went to the gym yesterday morning. Yay for me. I'm going again this morning too, gotta get that exercise. Not like it helps me any, but it's worth a shot. I keep losing/gaining weight like a yo-yo, it's quite frustrating. Such is life, I guess. Kinda hard when Cathy comes over and makes a ton of pig-in-a-blankets and fudge walnut brownies for TJ. They were yummy. I made some scrambled eggbeaters with sliced bell peppers and salsa too, so I ate a little healthy. Freakin sodium filled wieners probably are why I'm retaining water today. Grrr.
  
• Well that's about all that's going on, really. I work, go to the gym, sleep, watch TV. That's life in a nutshell this week. Hope you're having fun up there. I still miss you so much it hurts. Can't ever go to sleep without you on my mind. Later Momma. :-)
  

weekend fun

• Hey there Momma, what's shakin up there in heaven? I had a pretty okay weekend. Quite a bit of glutenous eating, and I'm picking at the leftovers as we speak. Friday night I went to dinner at Mimi's with Noelle and Michelle, then we went shopping at Newpark Mall. Your favorite, I know. I got a cool new shirt at Hot Topic with the giftcard Amy gave me for Xmas, and I got a few things at Target.
  
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then all 3 of us girls plus Dad went to go see Kim's new baby. Joshua is sooo cute. So is Caden, she loved my Oscar the Grouch shirt. She got in trouble for throwing a tantrum and had to go in the naughty spot. Haha. We took lots of pics. My camera has been gay for a while but Michelle and Kim took enough, believe me. Shelly got hers developed yesterday so I'll probably be scanning them on the computer later this morning. Later that night Cathy, TJ and I went to dinner at Claimjumper in Concord. I had a mudslide, it was yummy.
  
• Sunday I got up like a good girl and went to church. Later I went home and did some housework, then Davina and I had lunch at La Pinata and ice cream at Clancy's. We tried to counteract the guilt by taking a walk to the duck pond. Oh well. Still was yummy, and we had fun as always. You remember Davina, she's always funny as hell. Not that hell is a riot, but it's a figure of speech. My rambling continues.. Anyway after that I went home and took a nap for like 5 hours, then got up, grabbed food and came to work. Here I am now. Yay.
  
• Today Michelle and I are going to go walking too. She's got bread for all the ducks and geese. You'd love the duck pond, Mom. Wish I would have taken you there. Talk to you soon.
  

it's friday.. woot woot

• Hey Momma, what's shakin up there in heaven? Nothing too thrilling going on down here, I guess. I didn't get much sleep today, I'm pretty pooped. We took Happy to the vet since it looked like he had something stuck under his gums. It was a ton of his hair, guess he was chewing himself again. I got a few hours of sleep in the morning than took him, went home and slept 4 hours, then went to pick him up with Michelle and Dad. He's a great little dog, but he deprived me of sleep, man.
  
• When I got home I tried to get more sleep, but didn't succeed. TJ caught Alf peeing on the couch for the last time, and chased him around the house yelling. He chased him into my room and woke me up. I wasn't exactly pissed.. well maybe I was a little bit. TJ made the decision to get rid of Alf and Cathy took him back to the shelter. Yes I know to a lot of you this seems mean, and my heart is slightly broken myself. My heart goes out to all kitties and doggies in shelters, especially the older ones. I was actually brought to tears. Mostly because Spencer's friend went away. It was either that or TJ losing his temper again, and um from the looks of it I don't wanna see that again. Alf meant well, but he peed on the couch every single day right in front of us. We tried spraying water at him, vinegar, smacking him with a newspaper. We encouraged him to go outside and he wouldn't budge. I know this seems to make TJ a bad guy, but I guess he did the right thing. His sister gave Alf to him since he was peeing all over her apartment, and after 4 months of him destroying my couch well it was the last straw. I'm just too nice. Anyway, Spencer will probably be sad for a while and I'll be sure to give him lots of extra love and attention for sure. He's very resilient, I know he'll be okay.
  
• Oh yeah, I'm finally getting real health insurance. Well if I get accepted. *crossing fingers* A good Myspace friend of mine (who is a former child actor.. lmao) is gonna get me the hookup for $73 a month. Deductible is kinda high but hey I just need this stuff for emergencies and my work covers 80% of what insurance doesn't. Essentially my doctor visits would be $6 and generic drugs would be $3 after the insurance/work reimbursement. Mom I saw what your original ICU bill was and almost popped a coronary. I need something just in case. (Note to readers: if any of you are California residents and need lower cost health insurance, gimme a holla.. I'll give you Jeremy's contact info)
• Well this is about it. Went to the gym on Wednesday morning, and I'm going again today. This weekend should be okay. I'll give the full report Sunday night.
  

starbucks= yuppie crack

• Hey there Momma. How's heaven these days? Pretty amazing I'll bet. Earth is the same ol thang. Nothing too eventful the past few days. I've worked a lot of overtime due to Victoria being sick. Worked 12 hours last night and 12 hours the night before. I was going to work another 12 hour shift tonight but Brad covered some extra hours which was nice.
  
• I went to the gym yesterday morning. I'm so glad to get back in the swing of things. I'll probably go this morning too, since I bet Michelle will go "my ankle hurts" when I call to see if she wants to go walking.
  
• I hung out with Cathy and Amy yesterday. We got Starbucks and drove down Palomares in Cathy's car. It was cool just to get out for an hour or so and talk, listen to music and stuff. I got a nice 2 hour nap in after that, and I needed it. Ya know I had Starbucks three times in a 24 hour period. I swear Starbucks is yuppie crack. I'm semi-addicted but not really. I can go weeks without it, but my family can't. Last night Cathy and Michelle brought me a skinny iced hazelnut latte here at work. (Yes they both were in a vehicle together without killing each other, shocking but true.) Then yesterday morning after the grocery run I had to take Dad and Michelle through the drive-thru Starbucks and I got a skinny iced cinnamon dolce latte. Earlier tonight I had a skinny iced mocha. It's like good god, man. Whatever.
  
• Oh on Saturday we're going to visit Kim and see her new son Joshua. He was born 4 or 5 days after you died. His pics look so cute. I'm sure we'll take more pics while we're there. Today I got some picture Aunt Brenda took of us right after the holidays, and Dad's wearing my sparkly Santa hat. Date says the 28th, but I stopped wearing that after Xmas. Oh well. I gotta scan that in on my computer soon. It's cute.
  
• Okay that's about it for now. Gotta do more Myspace surveys and eat some broccoli. :-)
  

i can only imagine

• Hey there Momma. Here at work again, doing a nice 12 hour shift. Victoria's sick again, she caught my cold from last week. I don't mind, I need the overtime. Like you remarked often, the economy plain sucks. All my money goes to bills and a small amount for entertainment. Oy vey. I'm considering getting a third job, but I've really been enjoying having most of my weekend to myself. Everything just costs so damn much, it's nerve wracking. Speaking of high prices, Cathy got a new car. She and Amy went to Tracy Honda and traded in her craptastic Ford Focus for an 08 Honda Accord. It's really pretty. God knows how much it costs though.
  
• Here's how my weekend went down. Friday I had to run some errands with Michelle and Dad in the morning. That evening I went to dinner at Mimi's Cafe with Noelle and Michelle. Then we went to Walmart. Not too eventful, but I was still having girl issues anyway.
  
• On Saturday I worked in San Fran, then picked up Michelle and Dad. I drove to the duck pond to show it to Dad and we walked around for a bit. Then we went back to my house to relax and watch Scrubs. Afterwards we hit up Hometown Buffet and back to my place to meet Cathy and get a ride in her new car. We dropped off Michelle and Dad, then picked up TJ and went out for a bit. We got Starbucks, drove down Palomares, visited with Naphtali and her mom, and then dropped by Barnes and Noble. Then I went home and watched Are We Done Yet? with Ice Cube and John C. McGinley. He plays Dr. Cox on Scrubs, it was a dorky family movie but seeing him in booty shorts was worth a laugh.
• Sunday I got up on time and went to church. Good sermon about not trying to be one way at church and another way in the outside world. Just be yourself and be a reflection of God always. Well try to live like Christ all the time, not just on Sundays. That's it. After church I went home and walked to the duck pond for some exercise, then did most of my housework. I took a nap, then hung out with Davina and Valeria. We drove around looking for this karaoke place on Mission in Hayward and finally found it, but they only open in the evenings. We ate dinner at Rigatoni's, then went to the duck pond (again.. lol) and had a nice little walk. Now I'm here at work.
  
• Life is thrilling, isn't it Momma? I would say you probably miss it, but you probably only miss us. I know it's gotta be a hundred times more exciting up there than down here on plain ol Earth. Ya know that song "I Can Only Imagine"? I wonder what you did when you saw Jesus. I bet you cried like a big baby and gave him a hug. That's what I'll probably do too. Or get all excited and jump up and down like a huge retard. I do that when I have too much sugar. You're up there nodding and smiling, saying "Yes Lisa I know". Okay that's all for now. :-)
  

anemia sucks

• Hey there Momma. I'm still having girl probs. It doesn't hurt as much today, but I've lost way too much blood. Been feeling woozy the last 3 days or so. Today especially. Yeah I took my iron pills, and yes I'm eating.. well trying to. There's not a whole lot to report, not much excitement going on this week. I've been dragging myself to work, and getting off an hour or so early (don't worry I should be using sick pay for it). Michelle and I took Dad to the chiropractor yesterday, and I'm almost done with my Criminal Minds book. I was reading it in the car. I haven't been to the gym all week, but I don't think I'm in much of a condition to go. I've gotta take Michelle somewhere today, I think it's the hospital to get something signed for your insurance and a medical supply place to get Dad a better cane. Tonight I'm going to dinner with Noelle, then probably going back home to rest. I need it. That's about it. Hopefully when I blog again on Sunday night/Monday morning I'll be back to my old self full of energy. Being anemic sucks. BLAHHHHH
  

giant unicorns in my uterus

• Hey momma. Life isn't exactly peachy right now. My body seems to hate me. Okay I still have that cold thing I mentioned last time. And now I have major woman problems. I mean major. Remember back in August when I was in the emergency room for 7 hours? Yeah it's back. I think there's a unicorn in my uterus trying to burst forth. Not a good feeling. My thighs are burning. I'm trying not to puke. I think I'm investing in some Tylenol Women's Menstrual Relief and a heating pad at Walmart today. I just want to crawl back into bed and go sleepy for a long time. A long, long time. After work today I'm going to breakfast with Leeanne at Carrows, then doing the grocery shopping with Michelle and Dad. That reminds me I need to make a list. Ugh. Sorry this blog is so short Momma, but I feel like crap on a stick.
  

oh ca-ca

• Well Momma I'm back from my weekend. I think I'm getting sick again. I was sick the week you died and that carried on through New Years. Like a month later.. surprise! Sick again. I feel like I've been hit by a truck and I think I have a fever. My immune system sucks booty, but I think maybe it's stress related or something. Ugh.
  
• Anyway, the weekend was fun. Friday night I went out with Noelle and Michelle. First we had dinner at Quinn's Lighthouse in Oakland. I had lasagna, salad, and shared some nachos and bread pudding. I guess I am a fatass, huh? Anyway.. then we went to Target and Barnes and Noble in Newark and Fremont. Then Noelle and I hung out at her house and watched Criminal Minds.
  
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then went out to Lodi to hang with Kimmie. We had an awesome time, as usual. We watched like 3 behind the scenes documentaries about the Wizard Of Oz, Head Office (with my 80s man Judge Reinhold and a Rick Moranis cameo), The Amityville Horror (which I napped during), New Kids On The Block Hangin Tough Live (we did our own videos to this and I'm hoping my camera didn't delete them from the memory card, my camera's been really retarded lately and after I get my refund I'm buying a new one.. moving on), a Miami Vice TV movie from season 2, and some home movies of Kimmie in preschool. Oh yeah we had Papa Murphy's pizza for dinner, and some cheesy bread. I also drank like 3-4 mudslides and lots of Diet Cherry Chocolate Dr. Pepper. Tastes like a cherry tootsie roll. Sunday we got up at like noon and watched most of Sybil and had McDonalds for lunch (I had mcnuggets and a side salad), then went off on an adventure to Walgreens, Blockbuster and Starbucks. I got a skinny hazelnut latte. Yum. We came back and watched the rest of Sybil (freakin long movie good god), and had KFC for dinner (I had a chicken BLT salad). We watched a movie called Downtown with another 80s boyfriend Anthony Edwards then I headed on home to get ready for work.
  
• So yeah, I had fun this weekend. I was thinking about you a lot, as I always do. This one hot guy in the Sybil movie was singing that "Hushabye Don't You Cry" song to his kid, like you sang to us when we were little. Made me tear up a bit. Oh and when we arrived home the sun was setting, and the clouds were purple. It just made me think of you, since Kimmie mentioned how her cousin Mandy was probably up there riding her unicorn through those clouds.. haha. Okay talk to ya next time.
  

life is hard

• Good news Momma, Dad doesn't have cancer/tumors. He has emphysema and lots of scarring like we thought. Thank God. Okay emphysema isn't good, but we knew he had that before. His oxygen levels are great and I'm going to try to take him on walks when I can during the week.
  
• I'm really pooped, I didn't get much sleep today at all. Well I did, but it was in 2 hour increments. Got more teeth filled on Thursday, slept, then took Cathy's car to be worked on, then came home and made dinner and watched TV, then slept a bit more. Oh yeah, we were having issues since Cathy's car repairs are gonna be like $1000. I'm paying for it and Dad's paying me back. I really had to twist his arm though. Wish you were still here, you would have handled things right away like you always did. Cathy's been really upset lately, she asked me how I deal with all this crap that goes on in my life. Before I could answer her she was on the phone with Amy again. Anyway yeah, I just pray a lot, try to fill my time by helping out others and hanging out with friends. That's all you can do, ya know. It ain't easy. No one said life would be. Cathy and I did agree that you're probably somewhere in God's version of Hawaii (which is indeed heaven on earth) relaxing on the beach with Grandma and everyone. Drink a mai-tai for me. I wonder if they have booze in Heaven? Hmmm.
  
• This weekend should be fun. I'm going to dinner with Noelle and Michelle tonight at Quinn's Lighthouse. I think I told you about that place before, I went there last year with Brad and Victoria. After dinner we're probably doing a little shopping. Saturday I'm working then going to Lodi to hang out with Kimmie. I wish you would have gotten to meet her, she's really an awesome person. Okay I'm outta here for now.. not physically but I'm done with my blog. I almost wrote blob. Hahaha. I'm such a nerd, huh? Love ya!!
  

more worries

• Hey there momma. Not much going on here, my usual midweekly blog. The past few days have been okay, not a whole lot of excitement. I went to the gym both Monday and Tuesday morning, and I may hit the gym again today. Dad's got a doctor appointment this afternoon so I don't know how much sleep I'll be getting. I'm really nervous about it since the doctor's supposed to discuss the results of his CT scan last week. I'm hoping for the best. Even if it's not the best, we'll deal with it step by step. Dad doesn't deserve to get sick right after losing you, it's just not right. You didn't deserve to get sick and die either. *sigh* I know it's all part of God's plan and all, but he sure is testing us right now.
  
• I've been having bad dreams lately, mostly about what happened to you and bad stuff happening to Dad. It's all part of the psychological process I suppose, but it still sucks. God's forcing me to face my fears head on, both in my subconscious and in real life. It's part of maturing as a Christian and a human being, but man this is tough. But I still save face and play the funny person to everyone, can't let em know I'm hurting. Well I kinda am by writing this and they read it, but oh well. I express myself so much better in writing than talking about it. Cathy's the same way.
  
• Well I'm gonna get going now, say what's up to God and grandma and everyone for me. Send a prayer request for me for Dad, I know you're watching over us and maybe you can pull some weight on his CT results. If not, well God does what he does. Okay talk to ya later. :-)
  

stuck in the middle

• Hey there momma, back from my weekend. It was pretty fun. On Friday night I went with Davina to the Edwardian World's Faire in San Francisco. It was raining pretty hard and we had to run 6 blocks, getting soaked all the way. I had a fun time. There were hot dudes on stilts and kids doing acrobatics. I took a few pics, I need to load them on Myspace. Davina made me look like some early 20th century schoolmarm. Haha.
  
• On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then Cathy picked me up at Bayfair BART and we headed off the Jenny and Mikey's house for their son Chayse's birthday. It was cool, we saw Cliff and his mom so we had someone to talk to. Oh by the way, the alignment on Cathy's car is wonky again so she has to get it fixed, she's borrowing your van. I'm sure that's okay with you. Anyway after that we got Wendys and went home to watch TV. I was in bed before 10pm but I was exhausted.
  
• Sunday I took Dad and Michelle up to your gravesite in Sebastopol. They don't have your marker yet, but we put roses there and on Grandma's grave too. Michelle got emotional, but that's just how she is. Then we had lunch at Foster's Freeze and got coffee at Starbucks. It was funny since it rained on the way up there and again when we left, but while we were in Sebastopol, no rain at all. Thanks Mom. Later on I came home and did more straightening, then took a nice long nap, got up, made dinner, and went to work.
  
• I will hit the gym after work today. I usually don't go on Mondays but Tricia asked if I was going, and I ate way too much crap over the weekend. So I'll do that for 40 min or so and then go home and mop the floors. Oh my god my life is so exciting, huh?
  
• Well I do miss you as always. Michelle and Cathy have been bickering about money and crap, wish you were still here to yell at both of them. Now I'm the one stuck in the middle. "Tell Cathy blah blah blah.. " "Oh yeah.. well tell Michelle this!" (flips me the bird) Oh well Momma, such is life.
  

oh poopy

• Hey there Momma. TGIF. I'm so glad the weekend is here. The last few days have kept me pretty busy, but that's okay. Makes life interesting. Wednesday morning I went to Walmart, Kinko's, Luckys, Starbucks and Longs with Michelle and Dad. Usual errands and groceries, like we always do. By the time I got my car loaded with groceries and almost home I had to drop off some extra food at Uncle Jim's house. That guy can talk forever. Kept me there for like 30 minutes. Not his fault, I think the talking and wackiness factor has to be genetic. Anyway, I got in bed by like 1pm and got up at 9pm in time to do dishes, make dinner and watch Criminal Minds. It was the last new episode for a while. I don't know if you remember that a month before you passed the Writer's Guild went on strike. Well they are still on strike and there aren't any new episodes of most shows. If they reach an agreement soon we may get a few more this season. This even threatens the pilots for new shows in the fall. Craziness
• On Thursday morning I went to the gym with Tricia. This was her first time at Bally in San Leandro. I had a lot of fun and got more of a workout since I was showing her stuff and wanted to show off my muscular bod. Hahaha. After that I went to Fernando's house and we watched Balls of Fury with Grace and Joey too. I've noticed that Fernando has been the most supportive friend ever, both him and Grace. He's becoming almost like a guidance counselor. Helping me look at my finances, giving me self help and spiritual advice. God truly gave me a gift to have him as a friend. And no I'm not saying any of you others are not great friends, just right now he's standing out more than others. Oh yeah, he and Grace gave me a stuffed Alf doll. So awesome. Later on Thursday night TJ bought 3 pies and got a banana cream one just for me. I love pie. I know you'd love to hear about that one.
  
• I do feel good about myself because I went to the gym three days this week. I also feel like a fattie (yeah the normal fat rant coming.. ) since I've gained like 6 lbs for no reason. Okay the pie factor don't help, but in general I try to eat healty. Lots of veggies, barely any salt. But it's like ARRRGH. I want to live and not restrict myself. Diets make me miserable. Why does my body keep doing this? Oh poopy. That's my usual fat rant that I go on at least once a month. I know what you would say Mom. "At least you're trying, but you need to eat, are you getting enough meat?" I don't know why Mom but you always thought I didn't get enough protein. You also would probably interject with .. "It's cold outside for God's sake put on that heavy jacket I bought you last year." I remember you oh too well.
  
• This weekend will be pretty fun. Tonight is the Edwardian Festival thing in San Francisco. Davina is going to give me a bit of a makeover and we're going to see what interesting things can be found there. I'll take some pictures. Saturday morning I'm working then I'm going with Cathy to Antioch for Jenny's kid's bday party. Sunday we're going to the cemetary in Sebastopol (we meaning myself Michelle and Dad) to bring you flowers since your bday is on the 29th. So I'll have an interesting report on Sunday night. Talk to you later, say hi to Heath Ledger if you see him.. he's kinda hot.