I'm such an asshole

I fuckin hate myself right now. My friend is totally pissed at me. I was seriously considering moving to Sactown, but now I'm having my doubts. Actually, I've been having my doubts for about a month now. I totally want to help my friend and solve the problem, but I don't know how. I went to a job interview near Sactown today. It went okay, but the testing was very tough. The work environment looked like NASA Mission Control or something. Awesome looking, but a little over my head.

I'd love to get this job because of the great opportunity of advancement, plus the benefits. At the same time, I love all 3 of my jobs here where I'm at. And I love my family and friends. I think I may have just lost a friend over some stupid shit that I started. I hate myself so much. What should I do?