more worries

• Hey there momma. Not much going on here, my usual midweekly blog. The past few days have been okay, not a whole lot of excitement. I went to the gym both Monday and Tuesday morning, and I may hit the gym again today. Dad's got a doctor appointment this afternoon so I don't know how much sleep I'll be getting. I'm really nervous about it since the doctor's supposed to discuss the results of his CT scan last week. I'm hoping for the best. Even if it's not the best, we'll deal with it step by step. Dad doesn't deserve to get sick right after losing you, it's just not right. You didn't deserve to get sick and die either. *sigh* I know it's all part of God's plan and all, but he sure is testing us right now.
  
• I've been having bad dreams lately, mostly about what happened to you and bad stuff happening to Dad. It's all part of the psychological process I suppose, but it still sucks. God's forcing me to face my fears head on, both in my subconscious and in real life. It's part of maturing as a Christian and a human being, but man this is tough. But I still save face and play the funny person to everyone, can't let em know I'm hurting. Well I kinda am by writing this and they read it, but oh well. I express myself so much better in writing than talking about it. Cathy's the same way.
  
• Well I'm gonna get going now, say what's up to God and grandma and everyone for me. Send a prayer request for me for Dad, I know you're watching over us and maybe you can pull some weight on his CT results. If not, well God does what he does. Okay talk to ya later. :-)