reflections

The last few days have been pretty uneventful. I think my ex finally understands how I feel about him. He always IMs me and says "love u". I love him too, but not the same way. I love him as a friend, he will always have a place in my heart. I want him to succeed in life, and pursue his dreams. I know he will always be willing to "walk through hell" for me, as he's proclaimed his undying love for me. It's hard to find a man with that type of devotion. I just don't think it would ever work out. He needs to do stuff on his own. He's emotionally and financially dependent. I don't want to end up on COPS as they're taking him away and I'm left with like 3 babies or something. I still want to keep in contact on a regular basis though.

Life has been doin okay besides that. Same old stuff lately. Working, going to the gym, hanging out way too much with Michelle. I love my older sister, but I'll be so relieved when she goes back to work on the 15th. I see her like every freakin day, and yes it helps beat boredom at home. Sometimes I just need my alone time.