ARRGH

I totally pissed off my homegirl tonight. I blew some steam that I've needed to blow for a while. Whenever I talk to her on the phone, she is always distracted by her mom or TV, and never hears half of what I say. I always get tempted to hang up. She is close to her mom, and tells her EVERYTHING. Sometimes I don't feel like sharing my convo vicariously with her mommmy. I want to talk to her.

Also, I don't have any other friends that ask me where I'm at or what I'm doing everyday. I'm 26 years old. I answer to no one. My parents don't care what I do, because I'm an adult. Adults do what they want. Duh. It just drives me freakin nuts. Lord I'm sorry for goin off on my close friend, but she keeps wanting to hang out and I had to tell her what was on my mind. If she lets me be myself and live my own life and stops buggin, everything will be fine. If we have to run our plans by her mommy, it sucks. Her mom is a great person, but I'd commit suicide if I had to live with her. I really don't think she'd let me listen to music at 3am loudly or drink a few shots of rum on my night off. It makes me shake just thinking about it. ARRRGH