Mom's home now

• I'm feeling a lot better today than I've felt in a while. Mom's back home, where she belongs. Yes she's still sick, but at least she's with family and not in the dreaded hospital. She had the most annoying roommate ever, too. Now at least she can get some sleep. She also has plenty of doctor appointments and such next week, and I'm taking her to all of them. We're gonna try our hardest to beat this thing, man.
  
• I had fun on Thursday night/Friday morning, because I brought my kitty Spencer to work with me. That really brightened my day, and everyone else's here. He is such a cutie. Leeanne and I went to breakfast yesterday, so she got to meet him too.
  
• I hope to get to the gym today, I did go on Monday, which was good. Next week I'll try going on Monday and Tuesday since I'm pretty busy after that. I'm eating generally healthy lately, but I've eaten strawberry frozen yogurt most of this week as dessert at home. Dessert is my weakness, man. Thank god I don't have any cheesecake or oreos laying around. Haha.
  

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• Well today is another day. Nothing too thrilling to report, I guess. Today's one of those ho-hum kind of days. I was feeling good for a day or two, then whammo I'm sad again. All part of the process, I know. I've been getting an okay amount of sleep lately, but I still feel really exhausted. I'm also having my infamous woman issues, so that may be another reason for exhaustion since I'm anemic. Oh well.
  
• I did go to the gym on Monday morning, so I have to pat myself on the back for that one. Probably won't get back to the gym until Friday, I'm pretty booked all week. Later this morning is groceries with Michelle and my Dad, and we're stopping at the hospital to make sure Mom gets her breakfast. Yesterday it took them forever to get my mom fed. Geez. I'm bringing Spencer to work with me this evening (not now, but tomorrow, whatever it is), everyone wants to meet him. He is the cutest spunkiest kitten ever. God has truly blessed me with this kitty.
  
• I'd like to thank you all again for your kind words and prayers during the difficult time for my family. It really means a lot to me, every bit of it. I'm so glad that I have a great support system to lean on. You all know if you need help, you can count on me. Thanks again. :)
  

keep on praying, guys

• Well I survived another weekend. Not a monumental weekend, but it turned out okay. Friday I worked in San Fran, then visited Mom, then watched movies and ate pizza with Cathy, Amy and TJ. I needed that break. On Saturday I worked in San Fran again, visited Mom, came home and did some housework, visited Mom again, then came home and watched more movies with Cathy and TJ. Both nights I had a few rum + pepsis. Yes I know drinking is bad, but it helped me forget about things for a while. I also slept 11 hours on Saturday night/Sunday morning. I needed that sleep. Sunday morning I went to church, and it felt so good. I cried a little, and I did a lot of self reflection, praying, and praising God. I have so many things to be thankful for, even when things aren't going so well. God is letting my mom's illnesses happen for a reason, it's all part of the big picture, the big story. It won't make any sense now, but someday it will. I'd also like to thank my friends again for helping me with prayers. You all know who you are.
  
• Mom is still in fantastic spirits. She had been having problems eating on her own the past few weeks because of her hands shaking, but we had thought it was because of her "mini-strokes" and "parkinson's disease". Since she's been on the steroids this week, she is barely shaking, and she was able to eat lunch today all by herself. I consider that a small miracle. Also, she doesn't need oxygen anymore, at least right now. She is breathing perfectly fine. We still don't officially have the biopsy results back yet, so we don't know the whole game plan on chemotherapy, steroids and radiation. I will keep you guys posted.
  
• I'm still bummed, but I'm doing much better emotionally than I was doing last week. I am thinking positive, because when you think positive thoughts, good things happen. My mom is thinking positive too. She wants to get out of there so she can go Christmas shopping, if that tells you anything. I'm hoping they will let us do her treatments as an outpatient. I don't care about losing sleep, I'll take her to every single appointment. So everyone, keep praying for my mom and my family, if you can. Let the holy spirit touch her and heal this awful cancer in her body. In Jesus' name. Amen. Thank you all again for your prayers.
  

Please continue your prayers, I love you guys

• Well, I think I need to get things out in the open now. A few of you really know what's going on. My mom is still sick in the hospital. It's not just a foot infection. She has brain cancer, and there's a spot or two in her lungs. This isn't officially confirmed until her biopsies, but the doctors are pretty sure. She started on steroids today to reduce the swelling so she can get a biopsy done. She'll be using steroids and getting radiation treatment, a lot of radiation treatment. Her kidneys are holding up okay for now, they're giving her a double dose of her regular kidney medicine to make sure things are working. At the moment all any of us can do is pray and ride out the storm. This just seems so unfair because my mom doesn't deserve any of this. Name an illness and she's had it in some form, it seems that way. I know that everything happens for a reason, and God has it in his plan for this to happen. Still, it seems way too unfair. Especially around the holidays.
  
• Mom seems to be holding up okay. She was really positive when I came to visit her earlier. She was so happy to see me, as if it had been years, not just 3 days. I've been so busy working and trying to get in sleep that I haven't had much time to see her. Since starting on the steriods she seems a bit more coherrent, and a lot happier then she was when I last saw her on Monday.
  
• Today was Thanksgiving and it's the second year in a row I spent it at a hospital. This time last year Dad was in ICU on a respirator with a really really bad case of pneumonia. This year it's Mom's turn, and it's a lot more serious. Miracles can happen, maybe Mom can get better. And maybe she won't, I'm just so happy to spend as much time as I can with her and remember the happy times we've had over the past 27 years.
  
• A few of you have called with Thanksgiving well wishes, and I either didn't answer the phone or cut the call short. I wasn't meaning to be rude, and I love you. Right now I'm just getting the strength to blog about this and I didn't feel like being a weinee and crying over the phone. I also didn't want to put a damper on anyone else's Thanksgiving with bad news. I love you all, and I have the best most supportive friends ever. No matter what happens, I have a great bunch of people to help me through this. And Jesus Christ of course. Please pray for me, and my family at this really rough time, and have an extra leftover piece of pumpkin pie, just for me. If you don't like pumpkin, eat apple pie. Even ice cream, I'm not picky. I love desserts. See, that made me feel a little better.
  

I am thankful

• I'm pretty upset right now. On Monday morning my mom was complaining of chest and stomach pain and we took her to San Leandro Hospital. She's still there right now. They are doing all kinds of tests, and even more tomorrow. I don't know all the details, but it doesn't look too good. I don't want to get into it. Right now I don't really feel like talking to anyone. I just wish I could go home and curl into a ball and sleep. For a long, long time. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. That's why I'm not online on AIM right now. I'll get the usual "How are ya?" and I'll have to lie and go "Oh I'm fine" when I'm really not. I haven't been able to eat much all day, well maybe part of a Lean Cuisine sesame chicken dinner. I feel nauseated, upset, worried, angry, and depressed. Christmas music makes me cry. I just want to close my eyes and forget about all this crap for a while. I have a deep faith in God and I know that he's only throwin what I can handle to me right now. I may not think I can get through this now, but I will. I don't know how, but I will. Yes tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I am thankful, for having the best family and friends a person could ever wish for. I'm thankful for having great parents, even if I won't have them here with me forever. I'm thankful for Jesus dying on the cross for me and for all of us. If you aren't religious, then sorry. Big wow. See how much I care. Anyway, that's my anger popping out again. All I can say is, thank you all for being the best pals ever, and please pray to whatever God you pray to today, for my mother. Thanks.
  

Crazy work week ahead

• Back to work. Yay. Here I am, working 12 hours again. Victoria should be back tomorrow, so today is the last OT day. Which is good since I'm working like 23 hours in San Fran this week on top of the 44 hours here. Oh yeah baby, can't wait for those paychecks. I need the dough.
  
• My weekend was pretty fun. Friday night I took Michelle shopping at Kohls over at Bayfair and then to Southland Mall. We had fun, I got a few cute t-shirts. And a strawberry cheesequake at Dairy Queen. Sorry, couldn't help it. Saturday I did my San Fran gig and met Davina there in the city. We did lots of shopping, browsing, and eating. We had pizza at Blondie's then a few hours later we went to the Cheesecake Factory and split some chicken marinara with pasta, and split a brownie cheesecake thing. Hey, least we split it man. Then we went back to the east bay, picked up Michelle and went to Stoneridge Mall for a little more shopping. I picked up a copy of Nine Months for like $5.. hey it has Jeff Goldblum what can I say? Today was a kick back day. We were supposed to go to church. I was tired, Michelle had cramps. So I slept in and ate pancakes. Then I watched a lot of Trick My Truck on CMT with TJ. Now I'm at work. I'm a bad girl. Why do I like goodies? Why does my body hold on to every pound I eat? GRRRR. I know positively that I won't make it to the gym this week, maybe on Saturday. I'm working almost 70 hrs. Sleep is a little important I think. I'll try not to go overboard on Thanksgiving but I'm working 13 hours that day, visiting both my family and Noelle's, and sleeping in between. Good luck to me.
  

yay holiday time

Here I am on a Thursday evening, blogging a little earlier than usual. I'm here at work doing another 12 hour shift, making some extra dough. It seems like I was worried about hours and money, etc. Then Victoria went on vacation and I caught extra hours here this week and a little next week. KDFC gave me TONS of hours in the next week or so, especially since they're upgrading stuff on Monday night and they need a board op over the Thanksgiving holiday. Least I don't have to worry about going broke while buying Xmas presents. Speaking of that, I'm all done buying my sisters' presents, got one of my dad's gifts, one for Fernando's kid, and another special friend who's into insanely bad 80s movies will be happy this holiday season as well. I love giving gifts, some say I'm a little too generous. Oh well. I even got my kitten a gift already. I think I need to load Xmas music onto my Zune player. I'll try to do that over the weekend. Yay!!

I haven't worked out since Tuesday morning, and that sucks. I will be going walking tomorrow morning, I'm hoping. If Michelle wimps out I'll hit the gym instead. Gotta burn off some of these holiday yummies. Oh yes, and my new official holiday drink of choice is a decaf iced egg nog latte from Starbucks. Oh man I had one today, it was so awesome. Second choice is a decaf iced peppermint mocha. MMMMMMMM

This weekend should be nice and laid back. At least I'm hoping. I've been working so much this week, and I know I'm working even more next week as well. I need time to chill out, watch some HBO, do something lazy. Oh here are a few videos. First up is another installment of my insane sleepover at Kimmie's last weekend. Um yeah WARNING.. explicit language!!!


kimmie and i crazy

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And here's the world's cutest kitten.. SPENCER.. who hates cameras..
Spencer hates papparazzi

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I'm starting to feel like a fatass again. I've been like really bloated over the last few days. I know I've eaten a lot of crap lately, but I shouldn't be this big. I'm sure once Aunt Flo comes to visit and leaves, I'll feel so much better.

Nothing too eventful going on the last few days. Today I'm working killer hours. 3 hours in San Fran followed by 12 hours here. Yes I'm insane. As Dusti Rhodes told me earlier, "Lisa, you're an animal!"

I did work out on Tuesday morning. I probably won't get back to the gym until Friday. Today I'm going to bed at like 11:30am and I gotta get up by 6, since I have to be back here at 7pm. Well maybe I can squeeze in the gym on Thursday morning before I do the grocery run. Sounds like a good idea. In other exciting news, I just ate an apple. It was tasty. Oh yeah, here's one of several videos Kimmie and I shot on Saturday night, I'll be posting more as I have time.


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my mullet will deflect the bullets!!

• My weekend was jammin. It was, for real. Friday I didn't get much sleep until later in the day. I took my dad and Michelle to his doctor in the morning, and it took forever for the stupid doctor to see him. Meanwhile I took Amy to drop off her car to get her alarm installed, and gave her a ride from there. I ended up hauling my sister and dad in the back of my car. It was interesting and I got free coffee out of it. Then Amy and I went to Fresh Choice for lunch. Then I went home and pretty much slept the rest of the day. I woke up at 10 pm and watched Zeus and Roxanne, then went back to sleep. Thrilling, yes I know.
  
• On Saturday I worked my parttime gig in San Fran first. I actually had work to do, it went by fast. Then I hightailed it to Lodi and got there before 4pm. Kimmie and I had a blast. Let me try to remember what movies/TV shows we watched. La Bamba, Ruthless People, Police Academy 4, like 3 episodes of Highway to Heaven (over both days), Summer School, Teen Witch, Hangin Tough Live (hahaha), Night Shift, Superman IV, and Mommie Dearest. Man it was 80s tastic. We were bad and got IHOP for dinner on Saturday, and drank way too many winecoolers. We taped several weird segments, I'll try to get them posted in the next day or so. Kimmie's mom came over on Sunday, and we had a FEAST. Turkey, mashed potatoes, squash, deviled eggs, crescent rolls, pumpkin pie, apple pie, cherry pie. Oh and lemon cheesecake bars and pumpkin bread. I am so stuffed. And fat.
  
• This week will be busy, lemme tell ya now. I'm working an extra shift at KDFC on Tuesday evening, and overtime on Tues-Thurs nights.. like 12 hour shifts. It will be one long week, but lots of money will be made. I need it to buy xmas gifts and get my bills paid. I'll be exhausted, but it will be worth it.
  

I've been lazy

• Ok you know what I'm going to say. Yay it's the weekend again. Well, yes indeed it is. I should be having a fun one. Today I won't be getting much sleep. Gotta take Dad to the doctor to get some jury duty thing signed this morning. In the early afternoon Amy and I are hanging out while she's getting her car tuned up. God knows when I'm going to bed. Saturday I'll be working in the city, then going straight to Lodi to kick it with Kimmie for the rest of the weekend. 80s movie marathon here we come! I bought some wine coolers, so we might drink a few and get buzzed.
  
• The last few days have been okay. Haven't made it to the gym since Tuesday, but oh well. Wednesday morning was grocery day, and yesterday I was just plain tired. I won't have time this weekend either. Next week I'll be working A LOT. (thank god, I need the money) I will try to squeeze in the gym on Tuesday morning, and Friday probably.
  
• Spencer is still a giant ball of energy. Yesterday he grabbed my nose and got a claw stuck in my nostril. It hurt. A lot. I tried to get angry at him but he yawned and began purring. A 9 week old orange tabby with a cute little pink nose is hard to be angry at. Oh well.
  
• Well of course I'll give you a lovely update of my weekend early on Monday morning while I'm here at work. I'm sure I'll have a blast.
  

Fun times..

Well here I am again, the middle of another week. Things are going great with Spencer. He's a little ball of energy. Only gets frustrating when I'm trying to sleep, and he's attacking my feet. But he's so cute, so what can I do? I was a good girl and went to the gym yesterday. I would go today but we've got groceries to buy, and mom might have to go to the doctor. Fun stuff. Other than that, nothing highly thrilling going on. Before ya know it it'll be Thanksgiving, and I have tons to be thankful for. God has blessed me so much. I have a great family and awesome friends. I've had some interesting trials over the past year, but that's only made me a stronger person. Now I'm taking the time to post some videos.. first is my dad at the mall a few weeks ago.. pretty random..

Dad rambling in the mall

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Here's me dancing at Fernando's house yesterday morning.. haha
Me shakin my booty

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And Fernando dancing like a retard..
Fernando dancin ghetto

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i got a new kitty!

• Dude, I am like SOOOO tired right now. I had a pretty cool weekend though. Awesome one. Let me warn you I am exhausted so if this blog is somewhat incoherent, my bad. On Friday night I went to Rasputins with Michelle and picked up Family Force 5's album.. "Business In The Front.. Party In The Back". They're rockin, and they're Christian, and yeah it's jammin. Then I went home and relaxed, and went to bed. On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then went to Petsmart since they were having an adoption fair. The animal rescue group had a kitty who looked EXACTLY like Turbo as a kitten on their website. I filled out an adoption application for him online, and now I don't need it whatsoever. Why? Well if you haven't noticed by my default, I did find an orange 8 week old kitten whom I named Spencer. Noelle and I went hunting at the Oakland SPCA after I finished at Petsmart, and I fell in love with my Spencer (who they called Sebastian??) instantly. I adopted him, and stopped off at Noelle's house to show her mom, then my parents' house to show them and Michelle. He is the cutest kitty ever. Alf is starting to get used to him. He hisses at the poor baby, but that's about it. They both slept on my bed yesterday morning, a few feet apart from each other. I'll post that pic on Myspace soon, it's cute since Alf is huge and Spencer is a tiny thing.
  
• Oh and yesterday (Sunday), I went to a rockin concert in Modesto at Calvary Temple. Mercy Me played with Monk & Neagle and Aaron Shust, and it was off da hook. These are Christian rock bands, if you didn't know. Oh man I had so much fun. We were hoping to meet Mercy Me after the show but they had a plane to catch. I did meet Aaron Shust and get his autograph. I look like a total idiot in the picture.. actually I look frightened. I was probably talking as Sandi took it. I do that a lot. That pic'll be up on Myspace later today, I think. I got to work an hour late, but boy it was worth it dude.
  
• Hmm what else is goin on? Not too much. Today dad has to have a blood/urine test so Michelle and I are taking him to the lab right after I get off work, then probably Starbucks of course. Later I'm going home and doing plenty of housework. Eventually I'll be in bed. I'll probably go walking or go to the gym on Tuesday, though. I need that exercise.
  

same ol same ol

• Well another work week is over. Nothing too thrilling going on. I have a new coworker being trained for weekends, his name is Eric and he looks like Tim Meadows from SNL. He's cool. I've called two different people inquiring about kittens they are adopting out. Called this lady on Monday and she never called me back. Called a guy on Wednesday, he told me to call back the following day after 5pm. I did and no one picked up, so I left a message. Still haven't heard back. Oh well, God's saving the best kittycat for me I guess. I mean Alf is a nice kitty, but he's not mine. Although he has adopted me and sleeps on my bed everyday.
  
• I should have a fairly cool weekend. Tonight I'll probably chill out at home, or maybe I'll call Amy I haven't hung out with her in ages. I'm working in San Fran on Saturday morning, and I may do more kitten hunting with Noelle later in the afternoon. Sunday afternoon I'm going to Modesto. Sandi and I are attending a Mercy Me concert. It should be awesome. I work later on that night, but oh well.
  
• Exercise wise.. I went to the gym yesterday morning, and I will try to stop by today as well. I'm working a little overtime so I don't get off until 8am, so I should have time to hit the gym before taking Dad to the doctor. Fun stuff. I know some of you don't care that I go to the gym.. but hey man at least I try to stay in shape, and I'd like to shed some pounds. The holidays are coming up and I can't resist treats, so I don't see that happening too soon. Hahaha.