Feeling emo..

I had a really good visit with the dentist on Monday. I really wanted to chicken out, but I didn't. Dr. Nyugen is so nice. I'm getting my front tooth crowned next Wednesday morning. I'm not looking forward to it, but oh well.

Today I've been so damn depressed. I'm excited for my best friend Fernando since he found out he's having a boy. At the same time I'm kinda sad because I wish I could start a family of my own. It seems the only guys I get are stupid irresponsible ones, or ones out for sex. Can't I find a guy who likes me for who I am and treats me decent? Someone responsible and fun loving? I want to find a soulmate too ya know.

Plus some asshole on Myspace messaged me telling me the only reason "the blonde chick" (who is my sister) hangs out with me is because I'm the DUFF (designated ugly fat friend). Don't worry, I blocked his ass. Still pissed me off. What a meanass bastard. I just wish things could go right for me. I'm always the happy goofy one in my group of friends, and if it wasn't for my funnyass facade I think I wouldn't have many friends at all. (sigh)