My tire sucks

Don't know what to talk about today. I still feel like a fatass, even though I need to buy new shorts. Even with a belt on the tightest notch they keep falling off. I guess that's a good sign. It's my fat gut that I hate. And my double chin that I've had for years. Can't wait to get rid of that fat. I was kinda bad today, this morning I had poptarts before bed and i had some lite ice cream after my spanish rice and grilled chicken for breakfast/dinner this evening. Right now I'm drinking some cinnamon spice tea. It kicks ass. I just gotta keep up the good work. I got nothing accomplished today. I was supposed to go with Cathy to have my tire looked at, but she decided to hang with her boyfriend. I filled my tire with air at the gas station and it looked somewhat better. Ill check it out in the morning. If it still looks way low I'll take it to Wheelworks after the gym in the morning. Later that night I'm supposed to go see Christy's new baby with Noelle, I'm gonna have one busy day.

Whew that was some paragraph.

Frustration + fun photos anyway

Oh lordy.. I just don't know what I'm gonna do with him. He is driving me fucking bananas. Pardon my french, folks. I try to talk some sense into that boy and he just goes on about all the bad stuff that has happened to him. He just needs to overcome his obstacles. I even suggested that he go to a church or something, to talk to a pastor. Maybe he's not religious now, but at least a pastor can listen to his problems and try to get him some help that he needs. Maybe he will see the light and realize that God does love him. Unfortunate stuff keeps happening to him, but God is REALLY testing him. Seriously. I told him in 10 years he'll be writing his autobiography and telling his rags to riches story, just like Oprah. That kind of helped him feel better. I'm just at my wits end. All I can do is pray for God to step in and lead him down a better path. Anyone that's reading this, you probably know who I'm talking about. Even if you don't like the dude, send God a shout out for him. Please.

Other that that crap, life has been okay. I met my parents and Michelle for dinner today at Dennys. When I walked in the waitress was like, "Lisa, why are you late? Your parents are here."

So funny. You know, I'm gonna post some funny pics on here just to lighten things up.

We like lighting stuff on fire.


Me and my Cathypoo


This is Cathy's ass.


Cathy the crackhead.


Cathy on wheels.


Amy peekin on Stuart at the gas station.


Crazy Sean


Turbokitty with his brand new collar. He's so proud of himself.


Turbokitty having fun with his toys. Little spoiled brat.

I lost more weight!!

I am down to 216 lbs!! That's 14 lbs so far!!! In 2 1/2 months that aint shabby. All I did was eat smaller portions, drink more tea and water, and not eat as much bad crap. I'm not eliminating the foods I love.. if I do that I'll probably go insane. Just moderation is my key. :)

I slept too damn much

Today I've been a lazyass. I slept 10 hours. 10 HOURS!!! That's a lot for me. Then I got up, took a shower, did some dishes and made dinner. I had no one to hang out with and I didn't feel like leaving the house so I watched VH1's I Love The 70s II all evening until I got ready for work.

When I got to work, there was a styrofoam cup I kept here with a teabag and I told Brad a few days ago that I was going to use it when I got back. When I got here, it was gone. Made me kinda pissed because now I can't have my nightly cup of tea. Oh well, Diet Pepsi it is.

I hope tommorrow I can hang out with Cathy and Amy. We haven't hung out in weeks. I love living alone, but sometimes Turbo's company is not enough. See, on weekdays I love spending time with friends, since I'm well rested. On weekends, I'm busy working both jobs and everyone wants to hang with me, and I'm hella tired. It sucks how that works out. I enjoyed being alone this evening, but I wish I could have gotten drunk. Too bad I had to work. :(

Other than that the last few days have been fine. I got to the gym on Tuesday morning finally. I'm probably going again right after work. I was gonna go do my 80s show but screw it. I'm not paying the college to do my show. I get paid 50+ hrs a week to work in radio, why waste my hardearned money to do a show at a crappy college station? I feel much better now. I'm sure I'll feel better after I hit the gym and go hang with my buddies tommorrow. :)

I need to get right with God and stop being nasty

Today I went with my parents and sister to Dennys. I had sirloin steak, green beans, rice pilaf, and a side salad, and an iced tea. Later I took Michelle and my mom to Petsmart and Turbokitty finally got a new collar, his was getting way too small. He's a big boy now. He also got a cute little mat to put his food and water dishes on. He's such a spoiled little kitty friend.

Later we went to Borders Express @ Southland and my mom got me a copy of The Message//Remix by Eugene H Peterson. It's supposed to be really good, and I'm trying to get back into the swing of things by reading the Bible more often. I am so straying away from God and it's not even funny. Especially over the last year or so. I don't have time to go to church like I should, but I should at least try to get right with God. This is a first step.

I've done so many bad things, like the whole fornication thing. Also, I do cuss like a sailor and so does everyone I know, well almost everyone. I think the whole sex thing is probably the worst. Besides my very liberal thoughts on homosexuality and all that.

See, I see myself as a stuck in the middle Christian. All the hardcore Christians I know seem like aliens to me. Seriously. Not to put any of you down. I just don't feel I belong with them. I'm like way too human. It's like they're faultless. I know everyone is sinner, everyone is. But sometimes it's like "Whoa man, these Christian folks have such great willpower, and are so nice, it's scary!"

I'm not nearly as bad a person as lots of folks I know. Only God can really judge me on that anyway, but many of my friends have a lot more drug/alchohol use, promiscuity, and horrific language just in their day to day lives.

I have a great relationship with my parents, I'm pretty much abstinent for the time being. I try not to talk smack about others. BUT..... I have sex on the brain a lot.. I've had sex on my mind since I hit puberty at age 12.. LOL. How can I just stop thinking about sex? I'm not like a sex addict. I don't have sex 24-7. I just think about it at least once a day. I can be nice, I can read my Bible, memorize verses, quit cussin, stop drinking... but giving up my nasty thoughts.. oh man... How do I give up these thoughts?? Any suggestions??

Had an okay weekend so far...

I've some interesting experiences the last few days:

Good stuff:
Got to meet real life Tinkerbell.
She gave me a free autographed picture, and was HELLA nice.
Trish Bell said I did a good job on my first daytime airshift.
Jheri Stewart said I also did great.
Got to watch Beethoven's 3rd and 4th, and Ruthless People, all starring the sexyass Judge Reinhold.

Bad Stuff:
I accidentally overslept after a nappy and got to work 8 min late.
I was a bad girl and had lunch at IN and Out with Cathy.
I ate a Chocolate Poptart and some banana cream pudding, bad Lisa.
Think I'm starting to get sick with what Stinky had, I've been hacking green crap and I have a headache.
I haven't been to the gym in like a week, I'm awful.
My car insurance company sent me some notice saying I didn't make my payment, but it was recieved last Wed and posted on Friday. They can't say shit. I'm gonna have to call and be an asshole on Monday morning.

Had a good day

The last few days have been pretty okay, let's see the good and bad stuff...

Good Stuff:
Had a great shift at KKIQ yesterday morning.
Cute guys called in with requests, like Backstreet Boys.
Found Beethoven 5 pack of movies at Borders, had to buy due to Judge Reinhold in it, cuz he's so damn hot.
Had fun with Cathy, Amy and Sean this evening lighting sparklers and tormenting Turbokitty.
Finally got 9 hours of sleep yesterday, believe me I needed it.

Not so good stuff:
Yuriy can't switch with me so I'm not sure if I can permanantly do those overnights at KKIQ. :(
Johnny the janitor dropped something off his roof on my car and scraped it.. he buffed most of it out, but it still sucks booty.
I think I may be coming down with what Michelle had last week.. I'm overdosing on Vitamin C and drinking lots of green tea, trying to boost my immune system.
Still way nervous about Saturday morning.

How it went...

This is how my day went:

Positive stuff:
Finally met Joe from Traffic.com, he boardops at Max now, LOL.
My boss here is hella juiced because I'm staying instead of moving.
The new board op at KDFC looks like the dad from That 70s Show. LMAO
I get to do an airshift at KKIQ tommorrow night!! Yay!!

Negative crap:
I got one hour of sleep in the morning, and 4 hours in the evening. Not much.
Had weirdass dreams while sleeping, had me waking up trying to see if I really was awake.
Kept having to poo way too much at KDFC, must be those damn carrots I ate.. lots of em.

Don't wanna be a boob

I had a pretty okay weekend. For many this is a holiday weekend, but not to me, I'm in radio. LOL I'm already kinda tired, and I had a shitty day yesterday, well sort of.

Positive things this weekend:
Got new stereo for car
Did some serious housework
Got drunk on Friday night, watching Beverly Hills Cop II
Learned lots from Tricia about fill-in I'm doing this Saturday morning at KKIQ.
I may get to do overnight shifts on a regular basis there if I can rearrange things. :)
Added more music to Itunes finally.

Negative Things:
Internet didn't work at MAX FM yesterday. 5 hours of reading Time Magazine and texting folks out of boredom. UGh
Woke up late for work tonight.
Turbo's litterbox was NASTY!
Stupid Manny really ran up the phone bill the last few weeks he had his phone and now I have to pay the extra fees. Asshole!!!
Kinda nervous about Saturday's airshift, hope I don't sound like a boob.

I'm such an asshole

I fuckin hate myself right now. My friend is totally pissed at me. I was seriously considering moving to Sactown, but now I'm having my doubts. Actually, I've been having my doubts for about a month now. I totally want to help my friend and solve the problem, but I don't know how. I went to a job interview near Sactown today. It went okay, but the testing was very tough. The work environment looked like NASA Mission Control or something. Awesome looking, but a little over my head.

I'd love to get this job because of the great opportunity of advancement, plus the benefits. At the same time, I love all 3 of my jobs here where I'm at. And I love my family and friends. I think I may have just lost a friend over some stupid shit that I started. I hate myself so much. What should I do?

He needs help...

Have you ever been in that situation when you just don't know what to do? Someone who was close to me needs lots of professional help, and keeps calling depressed and sad. I keep telling him to grow up and not feel sorry for himself, and he doesn't listen. I told him he needs real help, a professional to talk to about this. He can't act like an adult until he gets his fucked up childhood behind him. ARRRGH Any advice?

Fun with photoshop

I had fun the last few days workin at KKIQ. I love playing Abba, Huey Lewis and the News, and Prince at odd hours during the night. LOL Some drunk guy called and sang me a Faith Hill song, so it wasn't that bad. I've also been learning photoshop courtesy of Noelle. Look what I did yesterday morning out of boredom.




Just for kicks, here's a pic of me looking like I'm constipated and selling fiber.

Gettin funky!

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Gettin funky while drunk, I got some moves for a white girl!!

My party was off da hook!!!

Oh man, I had a fun weekend. Friday I went bday shopping with my mommy, and I got 3 new shirts, new shorts, a new belt, new "nice" pants, and 2 new bras. Oh yeah, and I got a new pair of sneakers and new flip-flops. We also went to lunch at Fresh Choice. Good Eats.

That night was my party, and it was off the hook. I got giftcards for Target, Rasputins, Blockbuster, Starbucks and Itunes. Sweeeeet. I also had a bootyload of pizza and like 2 birthday cakes. It was lovely. We had oh so much fun, I'm gonna post lots of pics so look below!!!

I hate myself today

I'm just really frustrated with myself today. No I'm not frustrated with possibly moving, I'm looking forward to that actually. It's not that.

Good lord I'm fuckin fat. You don't realize how humongous you are until you see yourself. It's like, good lord. What happened to me? See, people see large folks like myself and they go, "Man, she's a slob. She doesn't take care of herself, she probably sits around and eats all day, doesn't exercise."

Okay I don't exercise nearly as much as some people. I only go to the gym 2-3 times a week and do 40 min of walking and 25 min of conditioning. I'm only eating 1400-1500 calories a day, and trying to watch my carbs. I'm down to one diet soda a day and lots of water and tea. What does it get me? Nothing.

I just broke up with a boyfriend of one year. Yes he has lots of issues and baggage. But he loved me and still does for who I am inside. It took me 24 years to find someone like that, and he's still a loser. Will I ever find someone who isn't a loser who loves me? Probably not. I have plenty of friends but if they saw me walking down that street and didn't know me, they probably wouldn't be my friend.

Speaking of friends, why does everyone try to offer me freakin food all the time? Does being overweight mean I have an invisible sign that says FEED ME on the back of my shirt? It sure feels like it. Today my friend stuck a cookie in my mouth when I picked him up from the airport. I'm sure he meant no harm and he's innocent as a child, but still, it made me feel awful. Like I'm some animal at the zoo. The other day my friend's mom gave me a sugary coffee drink, a giant bag of cookies and some chips in a matter of 10 minutes. Do I have some look of hunger in my eyes when I sit down? Lordy lord. I admit, I grabbed two extra cookies later that night at the smorgasboard so to speak, but I ate them the next morning. I'm not the pig that I look like.

I'm ordering a lot of pizza tommorrow for my party and I'm gonna try not to have more than maybe 2 slices. I'm gonna be good. I just wish I could be like everyone else and eat what I want and not gain weight. Dammit now I'm depressed.

Sorry for ranting, just sometimes I feel so terrible about myself. :(

Progress

Well I have some good news.. I have a face to face interview near Sactown on the 27th. I'm hella stoked. I'm also hella stoked about my party on Friday night!! Whoohoo! I love birthday time!! Also, I'm really tired for some reason. I'm probably going straight to bed when I get off work later. Ugh.

Staying awake

Well, I'm a few steps closer to getting the new job in Sactown that I've been after. I have a phone interview this afternoon at 1pm, I can't wait. This morning I'm gonna hit the gym and come home and do some housework. Then I'll snooze for 3 hours or so and wake up about 10-15 min before I'm expecting the call.

This past weekend was pretty darn fun. I went to the BFD concert on Saturday and had a blast. I got a gnarly sunburn on my arms, but oh well. I sat in the 11th row!!! (well, most of the time :)) Awesomeness. I got lots of exercise walking around all freakin day and literally running for a bit. Sunday I spent working, going to dinner with my folks, helping them grocery shop, and doing housework. Fun shit.

Okay I'm gonna try to keep myself from falling asleep here at work. Wish me luck. :)

I'm a weirdo

Nothing really new to report today.. I ate like a fuckin pig over the weekend, and I'm ashamed. :( I won't divulge into how much crap I really ate, but the breakfast bowl and pancakes I ate at Denny's on Friday with Davina did me in royally for Fri and Sat's caloric intake. I actually think I ate more calories on Sunday, but then again I only slept about 5 hours total that day. My schedule has been kinda crazy the last week or so, have I mentioned that?

Today I haven't eaten that bad, but Michelle brought over 3 leftover mozzerlla sticks from Dennys and shoved them in my face earlier. How nice. I got a Tazo Tea from Starbucks instead of a Crappuccino (no that ain't a typo), and that's a good start. I did something hella funny to pass the time at work on Sunday afternoon.. think I'll share it.


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Is there a chance??

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get a guy again. Maybe I'm just depressed. I don't like dressing all girly, and never have. I'm not gay though, I know that for sure. The only serious boyfriend I had is pretty much a loser, everyone can agree. So when will I find a guy who likes me, that isn't a loser? Is there such a thing? I'm not a blond baywatch babe lookalike like my sister, so the hot guys won't like me. Do I have any hope? I hope so.

:(

I lost 5 lbs!

I don't have a whole lot to write about today. I did my show but lost interest about halfway through, and tracked CDs for the last hour or so. I finally heard from Manny, thank god. The last time I had spoken with him he sounded kind of out of it, and I wanted to make sure he was okay. Just because we're not together doesn't mean I don't care about him.

I've been working out 2-3 days a week and I have lost 5 lbs over the last 3 weeks. Pretty good work for me. I've been eating a lot more salad and drinking more tea and water, and less soda. I'm not turning this into a huge weight loss deal, because then people start asking me how I'm doing and giving me their own advice on how to lose weight. Then if I don't keep losing weight they will keep asking about it, and its embarrassing to tell them I'm still the same size. Ugh. I've been there, done that.
I work 50 + hours a week, and my body has been craving lots of sleep lately. If I go to the gym more than 3 times a week, it's gonna wreak havoc on my body. I've been getting 6-8 hours of sleep a day, but it doesn't seem to be enough. Does this happen a lot when people work out constantly? Hmm...

Also, I can't go to the gym everyday even if I was crazy enough to do so. I have a busy social life outside work, and I also need sleep. So yeah, arrrrgh. Maybe it's because I just went through a rather stressful breakup, and my finances suck right now. That could explain my need for extra sleep. How intriguing.