lisa's awesome weekend

• Hey Momma. Boy did I have an exciting weekend. Let me sum it up for ya. I'll try my best to do some good recaps and I hope I don't miss much. I should have blogged earlier on but I was exhausted so I kinda half dozed for a little over an hour. Well I tried to, but I had two phone calls and *Linda* coming in convinced that we had a burglar downstairs and it was really Zack from programming. Okay anyway, here goes.
  
• Friday afternoon I worked a half shift here until 7pm. I really need the OT badly so I didn't mind. Then I went home for a bit and grabbed all my Corey Feldman DVDs/VHS tapes to take the Goonies screening. Fernando had texted while I was at work and invited me over for tacos, so I came over. We hung out, and played liars dice with Grace and Mary. Then Tony came over too, and we talked about our various relationship problems. I left Fernando's house a little after 9 and went to pick up Stuart, my date. Some of you know him as my "husband". We call him that because one of my parents' neighbors at my mom's viewing thought he was my husband. She mistook him for my ex boyfriend. LMAO Moving on, I picked up Stu and we went to Castro Valley Cinemar or whatever it's called. It took a while to get everyone in and seated, and eventually Corey showed. Boy is he awesome. He did a little Q and A, then we all went up row by row to meet him and get autographs. Due to time constraints the theater management said he could only sign one thing and no posing for pictures. So I gave Stuart my copy of the Goonies and I had him sign Stand By Me. This movie means a lot to me since it was one of my mom's favorites. When we got up there, I was nervous but surprisingly did not lose my ability to talk. We snuck a pic together and he even squeezed my hand. He seemed nice. Genuinely nice, not fake nice. It was so cool of him to come to Castro Valley and make an appearance like that. He said during the Q and A that he came because he supports small businesses and that the theater is fighting hard against cineplexes, stuff like that. If I find a video on Youtube maybe I'll post it in the Mandy's blog, I'm doing one a little more detailed later on. I'm sure someone taped it. Overall, it was a great experience meeting Corey for those glorious 30 seconds or so.
  
• Saturday was a great day as well. You know everyday on earth is a great day, if you think about it. Enough waxing philosophical. I worked that morning, like I do almost every Saturday. Then I went back home for an hour or so to freshen up and upload Corey pics onto Myspace. Big shocker, huh? Then a little before 4 I went to Davina's house. Jennifer and Kristin were already there. Then the "party van" as I call it went and picked up Ana, Valeria, and then Lorie. We drove to San Francisco, and boy California Street is steep. I hate stop signs/stoplights when you are stopped and when you take your foot off the brake to go you still roll backwards, even in an automatic. I had my foot on the imaginary brake the whole time, Kristin thought it was hilarious. So we went on this "vampire tour" on Nob Hill. I thought it was okay, but personally I don't think it was worth as much as Davina paid for it. It was educational, but most of our 2 hours were spent freezing our butts off in various locales while the goth lady with a candelabra told us about the history of various buildings and the relation to some local vampires. I give her props for memorizing that much of a script though. We did go inside the Fairmont Hotel for about 10 minutes or so. Most of that time was spent in the potty since some of us had to pee. I wish we had visited the inside of more of these places instead of just hearing about them. That's just my two cents though. It was fun and I'm glad Davina invited all of us to go. After that we had dinner at the Nob Hill Cafe, then we drove over to the Mission District for organic ice cream. I forgot the name of the place we went to, it was right by Mission High School. Yummy. Then we drove back to San Leandro, and called it a night since everyone was so pooped.
  
• Sunday I missed out on church but I had a great excuse. I went to the A's/Giants game at AT&T Park in San Fran with Sandi. We met at San Leandro BART and took the train to San Fran, then caught the Muni down there. The seats were awesome. The snooty couple on the other side of me were not so awesome. They were dressed like it was a business lunch, not a ballgame. The guy was remarking about how the American League sucks, blah blah blah. Eventually they left to go find "decent Asian cuisine" and never came back. Good for them. It's like dude this is a ballpark, not Rodeo Drive. Rich people make me wanna barf. I was being as obnoxious as possible and even farted a few times. Maybe they were overcome by the fumes. I hope that's what did the trick. The A's scored like 6 runs in the top of the 7th inning, and we decided to go walk around after the 7th inning stretch. We found the giant Coke bottle slide, and of course slid down it. Then we found the lovely cable car and took pics on that too. So touristy. After the game we walked up 3rd street and I showed Sandi where KDFC was. I took her on a tour of that station, as well as 95.7 The Wolf and KOIT. It was fun. Then we walked back towards The Embarcadero and caught a streetcar to Pier 39. I hadn't been there in ages. Our driver was pretty entertaining. Some guy broke the fair box so she just let everyone on board and kept yelling about how "That guy in the back broke the fair box, just get on!! Hurry up, blame him!" Anyway, we had dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. Not as expensive as it could have been, and they subbed out my fries for broccoli. I had a pulled pork sandwich. Yum. Oh yeah, I had a meatball sub at the ballgame. Not too good for me, but hey I ate an apple I had brought from home. So ooooh. Okay so after dinner, we did A LOT of walking around. I was good and didn't spend extra dough, only on a Nutella crepe for dessert. It was awesome. I took lots of video though, as you'll see at the end of this blog. It's a compilation of the whole weekend. I had a great time, but boy am I pooped out.
  

3/30 weekend fun

im gonna have a cool weekend

• Hey there Momma, the weekend is here. Lemme tell ya what went on the past day or so and then I'll elaborate on what I'll be doing in the next 3 days. Wednesday morning I hit the gym, then took Michelle and Dad grocery shopping. Nothing too thrilling on Wednesday sorry. Thursday evening was awesome, though. Sandi and I went to see Tyler from Audio A play an acoustic set at a really small church that I can't remember the name of in Merced. Sandi you need to refresh my memory. In case any of you don't know who Audio A is, look up Audio Adrenaline, 3 time Grammy award winners. He was/is the lead guitarist/second vocalist. I do remember that the opening act was some youth band of teenagers that sounded awful. Sorry kids. Singer was offkey, drummer offbeat, bass player looked bored. Then the youth pastor made me stand up in front of everyone since I traveled the farthest to be there. 2 hours.. oooh wow. That was a bit embarrassing. Anyway eventually Tyler came on and he was amazing. He looks amazing too, I might add. He's happily married with kids, but yeah he's easy on the eyes, boys and girls. Now I sound like Robert Culp, if he were gay. Okay only Kimmie got that one. Anyway, after his set was over Sandi and I went over and talked to him for a bit. He is so nice, and makes excellent eye contact. Of course I'll have my pic with him up on here in a while. On the way back we listened to more Audio A in the car while Sandi did interpretive dances and farted. Well she waited to rip em until she got in her driveway. Still fantastic.
  
• So I'm going to have a fun filled weekend. I just know it. Later today I'm working an extra half shift here since I need more dinero. Then, I'm going to a special screening of The Goonies, and Corey Feldman will be there to do autographs, etc. I have reserved seats and am bringing copies of Stand By Me, The Goonies, Gremlins, and License To Drive. I hope I don't pass out.
  
• Saturday should be fun too. I'm working my gig at KDFC, then staying in the city an extra 2 hours or so. Then I'm meeting Davina and the gang for a vampire tour on Nob Hill and dinner. It makes no sense to take BART back, and get back on BART another hour later, that's why I'm just chilling at work. I'll take a nap in the "chill-out" room that sales people go when they're ready to jump out the window.
  
• Sunday I'm going to an A"s/Giants game at Pacbell Park. I've never been to a game there. I'm bringing some of my own water and snacks since I'm a cheapass. Haha. I am so grateful that I'm able to have a working camera. This weekend I sure will need it.
  

oh lordy

• Heidi ho there Momma. Nothing too thrilling going on lately. I hit the gym yesterday morning. Michelle wants to go walking today, and if not I'll just go to the gym again. This will pretty much be my last chance this week because my schedule is so insane. Also today is grocery day. I am so blessed that I have a dad who will help me out with groceries. I'm telling you if I didn't I'd HAVE to work a third job, no doubt about that one. If things continue they way they are, I'll get one after May. I have a few things going on in May on the weekends, and most part-time gigs want folks to work on Saturday/Sunday. I may have to stoop as low as retail again, but alas someone has to pay the bills.
  
• Anyway, I did finally upload a video I made of random stuff from Easter weekend. Not to thrilling except for the Funkytown soundtrack I added. God I'm weird. I am so jammin to Billy Joel right now. Doesn't surprise anyone does it? "In the middle of the night.. I go walking in my sleep... " If you don't know the words to River Of Dreams then you suck.
• Okay here's the video.. talk to y'all in a few days.
  

easter weekend

happy day after easter!!

• Hey Momma. Happy Easter!! Okay Happy Day After Easter!! I hope you like the flowers and random stuffed bunnies we put on your gravesite. Headstone ain't there yet, and we're mad. Other than that Easter was fantastic. Actually the whole weekend was.
  
• Friday night I worked here for a half shift, since I needed the extra dough. Then I went home and had a yummy relaxing dinner. Brad and Victoria stopped by for a minute since I left my Zune at work and Brad knew where it was. Long story there. Anyway, Good Friday was indeed pretty good. Except that I didn't get much sleep. Oh well.
  
• Saturday I did my parttime gig as usual. Then I picked up Michelle and my dad since he wanted to get me something for Easter. We went to Newpark Mall and he paid for my haircut and 2 new pairs of shorts. Doesn't sound like much to some people, but I don't take stuff like that for granted. Oh yes, and I saw my friend Magical David and his baby David there as well. Then I finally got home and prepared a homecooked meal, downloaded tons of music, made a new christian rock CD and went to bed. Oh yeah wait.. Davina picked me up at like 9:30 and we did a Walmart run since she was afraid of getting robbed while shopping at night. It was fun. Then I went home and went to bed.
  
• Easter Sunday was off da heezy, as the homies would say. I picked up my cousin Kim and we went to church at Chabot College, that's where Faith Fellowship has their Easter services. I loved it. Good to see Pastor Gary preaching again. Then we picked up Michelle and my dad and went to my Uncle Jim's house, and had fun watching the kids. Very cute. I want one, just need a husband first. Then we loaded up the car and headed up to Sebastopol to leave flowers and stuff on Mom's grave, or where the headstone will be anyway. Cathy met us up there with Amy and Stuart. I took lots of pics. I don't know why I don't find it too morbid to take happy pics in a cemetery, but I don't. Then we dropped Dad off at home and went to Mimi's for dinner. Then picked up pie at Bakers' Square. Then I went home and uploaded pics and took a nap before work. And here I am.
  
• I am so blessed to have great family and friends to make this an awesome holiday. Jesus died on the cross for you and me, ya know. Don't forget that. It was definitely sad since Mom wasn't there, but my sisters and others did their best to spoil me rotten with candy. Okay gotta go do some surveys or something. Later!!
  

did a funny blog on the Mandys site

• Helloooo Momma. I always address these blogs to my mom even though I doubt if she reads them wherever she is up there. I know you guys read them, but oh well. Okay then. Last few days have been pretty darn cool, nothing too thrilling going on. I hit the gym yesterday morning, and I plan on going today and tomorrow. Yippee. Oh yes, I wrote quite a humorous blog over on the Mandy's N More Myspace site, which is mostly run by Kimmie. I help her manage the actual Mandys N More site when I can. If you haven't checked it out, we're in the process of building an online store and selling 80s merchandise, with a giant amount of revenue going towards various causes that help victims of sexual abuse. Also towards finding a cure for breast cancer.. let's see and we always try to dispel myths about folks with disabilities and such. I'm probably leaving stuff out. Kimmie feel free to comment with more. Here's the link to the blog if you are too lazy to look at my top friends and find the link to the page. Yeah I use some rough language and yes I need to clean it up, so sorry. I love the picture captions, though.
  
• This weekend should be pretty cool and laid back. I may grab another half shift on Friday afternoon here since I need more dough. Saturday I'm working in the morning, running errands in the afternoon and then relaxing the rest of the day. Sunday is Easter. I'll go to church, then go and visit my aunt, uncle and cousins for a while, then we're going up to visit Mom in Sebastopol and put flowers on everyone's graves. It'll be nice to see the family, for sure. Okay everyone have a great weekend.
  
• P.S. I was trying to upload that video yesterday morning and Myspace was being gay so I'll try that again later. If it works I'll post it ASAP.
  

my awesome weekend

• Whoo what a weekend I had mother. I've been up since like 7:30am yesterday, so I'm just a little pooped. I'm going to try my best to describe the last few days in as much detail as possible. I haven't had a chance to upload any pics since I barely had time to run by my house for 5 minutes before buying gas and heading off to work. I'll be doing a MAJOR blog on the Mandys N More page tomorrow (or maybe later on tonight, whatever) and I'll repost all the pics and stuff in a day or so over here. Oh and videos too, I think I'll try to edit everything into a 10 minute montage.. haha.
  
• Okay so first of all I worked here on Friday night from 3pm until about 8:30pm. I was supposed to get off at 7:00, but no one told the weekend overnight guy he was supposed to come in early. I called him and he showed up like an hour afterwards. That was all overtime, baby. Yay. After that I had a nice late dinner with Michelle at Applebee's.
  
• Saturday morning I ran the board for a live remote from the San Jose Tech Museum for KDFC. It was fun, I love participating in live radio. I love counting jocks down after every single song/stopset. Keeps me on my toes. They even gave me a shout-out during their last break.. John was like "Lisa, you're the bomb!" Okay after that I headed off to Lodi to hang with Kimmie for the duration of the weekend + Monday. We had SO much fun. Just that night we indulged ourselves with such bad cinema like NKOTB's "Step By Step" video, about 2 hours or so of cheesy 80s commercials I had on videotape, A Friendship In Vienna, and Home Team starring everyone's favorite Dancing With The Stars contestant, Steve Guttenberg. (Everyone knows I love Steve Guttenberg, my sister Michelle called while I was driving to tell me he was on TV.. LMAO) We had an awesome homemade dinner that night courtesy of Chef Kimmie. Tasty cheeseburgers with sauteed mushrooms and oven baked french fries. YUM! Oh yes and mudslide milkshakes made with chocolate chip ice cream. We were in binge heaven.
  
• Okay on Sunday we woke up around 9:30am or so, and Kimmie made some awesome french toast for breakfast. The fattening yumfest was continuing. So were the awful choices in cinema. Okay first we saw a bad Family Channel movie made in 1996 called Dad, The Angel and Me starring Judge Reinhold (of course) and Carol Kane. So cheesy, and his hair was awful. I have pics of that coming. Next, a great third season episode of Greatest American Hero entitled Wizards and Warlocks guest starring Bob Saget. Wait till you see those screencaps people. Then I showcased a cheesy first season episode of MacGyver called Ugly Duckling. I swear Richard Dean Anderson and this chick had the same mullet hairdo going on. Then we watched a two parter episode of Highway To Heaven about this blind chick falling in love with some guy with a huge birthmark on his face. Guest starred Ralphie from A Christmas Story and a gentleman Kimmie refers to as "40-year-old Chris".. I forgot to take pics, sorry Kimmie. After this a first season episode of St. Elsewhere guest starring Jeremy Licht (who also is my Blue Cross insurance agent.. lemme know if y'all need coverage, I can get you the hook up). It was so cute, so was Howie Mandel's rockin jew-fro. Next, yet another episode of Highway to Heaven, this one about this fat girl who really seems to love donuts that makes friends with the school jock when she tutors him in algebra. Yeah I think if I was going off the deep end into Krispy Kreme Land and Michael Landon showed up I'd be a bit distraught. Probably more so since he's dead and that would be a whole new set of issues. I can still see this girl's pain, none the less. After this, I threw on Staying Alive, the horrible sequel to Saturday Night Fever starring John Travolta and Cynthia Rhodes. Directed by Frank Stallone with Frank himself and the Bee Gees doing the soundtrack. About this time Kimmie's sister Carol came over since she helps her with housechores and stuff. I think John Travolta gyrating around in tights was a good visual aid for us all. Then, about 5 minutes after Carol left, the toilet started flooding. I mean like water spurting in the air and going everywhere. I took pics and video of that one. Carol came back to help us as we waited for the plumber that management was sending. I was emptying the water out of Swifty's litterbox into the toilet and kinda farted practically in Carol's face. Great moment. Eventually we got things under control and watched about 5 episodes of The Golden Girls back to back. During about the second episode the guy from Rotor Rooter came and fixed the toilet. He was very nice, I think his name was Jeff? Can't remember. By then we were exhausted and hit the hay. Oh I totally forgot, for dinner Kimmie made an AWESOME veggie lasagna from scratch and we had breadsticks as well. So good. Oh and cheesecake for dessert.
  
• Monday, Kimmie actually got up before I did. I got up at 7:30am so all I can say is wow. We both put on rockin 80stastic outfits and I tried very hard to get my hair volumized. I used plenty of mousse, hairspray and gel. Also the hair dryer, a lot. Got kind of an effect. I think with that and the makeup I looked more like a "slut", but that's just me. While getting ready, we listened to my karaoke CDs (and my bad singing) and ate leftover cheesecake. Now that's what I call breakfast. Then we took several buses and ended up at Sherwood Mall there in Stockton. It's right next door to Weberstown Mall. Who the heck builds a mall next to another mall? Anyway, first thing we did was hit the food court. I had a chicken burrito for lunch. Yum. We perused lots of stores, and got our pictures taken with a cheesy lazer looking background. That will definitely be posted. I also saw the Easter Bunny and said hi, and took his pic from afar. Then we went to the mall next door, and did more browsing. I ended up buying a few funny things at Spencer Gifts, said hi to the other Easter Bunny and took his pic, and headed on back to pick up our pictures. Then we went and waited for the bus for about 3o minutes later when an interesting lady came up to ask us about the bus routes and asked if I was Kimmie's daughter. (ROTF) Okay so we were boarding the bus and I noticed the dude in front of me had a swastika tattooed on his arm. I was like "Oh crap". Mostly because the bus driver was black and there were many multicultured folks on the bus already. I'm not saying that because he was a skinhead or whatever that he automatically causes trouble, but still you never know. God was on my side and the ride went smoothly. We got back to Kimmie's place and ordered a veggie pizza from Woodbridge Pizza. They have one called the Slick Dick. I am not lying, I took pics of the menu. We got our order in about 20 minutes, and the delivery guy was HOT. In a college student kind of way. Oooh baby. Oh yes then we watched most of E.T. before I had to leave. All in all my weekend was awesome. Lots of adventure, plenty of weirdness.
  
• Oh yes let me see if I can remember any random quotes from the weekend. "Dude he fuckin goosed Dee Wallace!!"... "If Peter Coyote and Richard Chamberlain could mate, that would be their lovechild. Poor Jenny Lewis."... "If I were a lesbian I would so not do Betty White.... " I'm sure there are more.. Kimmie feel free to list.
  

this weekend is gonna kick some ass

• Howdy Momma. First of all I know some of you will think I'm insane. Well most of you that read my blog know that I'm a little loopy anyway. Okay when I was trying to sleep yesterday morning a sparrow or perhaps finch, some kind of small bird was on a tree branch that was pressed against my window. It began tapping incessantly for about 10 minutes straight and I really wanted to shoot it. Then I sat up in bed and looked at it, and it stopped tapping, and stared at me for a full minute, then kept on tapping. Call me crazy, since I am.. but I think this was my Mom's spirit. Some of you may think otherwise but why would a cute small bird choose to tap on my window repeatedly like that? So mother, thank you for keeping me awake an extra 2o minutes or so, and getting Spencer all riled up trying to find a way to attack you through the glass.
  
• Anyway the past few days have been pretty cool. Went to the gym on Wednesday and Thursday mornings. I won't be able to go today, since I'm coming back here to work 3-7pm. I need the extra hours. Did the grocery run on Wednesday morning, and on Thursday I took Michelle on some errands as well. Nothing out of the ordinary. Oh yes mother and thank you for announcing your presence in Walgreens yesterday by randomly playing that Will To Power song you loved so much. Not "Baby I Love Your Way" but "I'm Not In Love".. I just think you always liked that because of the seductive guy whispering at the beginning. I think I am losing my marbles.
  
• This weekend shall be spectacular. I'm working in San Fran on Saturday morning as usual, then off to Kimmie's for 2 1/2 days of pure insanity. I won't be back until Monday night. I'm stoked. We're gonna watch so many movies, take awful pics at the mall, eat lots of crap. It will be great. See, I have tons of close friends, all of you guys are my friends. Kimmie and I have only been friends a few years, but it feels like decades. Seriously. She is the only person that I know who is just as weird if not weirder than I am. Also one of the most generous folks I know. So I love you guys too, but Kimmie is just awesome. She has gone above and beyond what most people in her situation would do, and then some. Check out her page, read her blogs. Oh and the Mandy's page too. You won't be disappointed.
  

jamba juice is my friend

• Hey Momma.. and word up my homie G's reading this!! I'm hyper. Why? I'm drinking some really fruity drink from Jamba Juice which probably has my blood sugar way too high. I thought I'd try it instead of Starbucks, just to be different. I love juice. I know it has calories, and sugar (natural sugar that is). But it's good for you, at least when it's real juice. I still have love for iced decaf skinny lattes too, but I do love the juice. How many times can I say juice in one paragraph? Five apparently.
  
• I got my new camera! I haven't fully read the manual yet but so far it's pretty awesome. I took way too many pics of Spencer earlier and a few videos of him trying to attack and eat my new beloved toy. I'm going to have so much fun with this thing.
  
• Yay for me I hit the gym yesterday morning, just to let you know. I'm pretty sure I'm going walking this morning, or hitting the gym, one of the two. My body decided to gain another 5 lbs, and it can't decide when woman time is coming. It's like "Lisa, this is your body speaking.. its time.. oh just kidding.. " then a week later "it's your body again, prepare.. oh just kidding again". Meanwhile my weight fluctuates like a yo-yo and I feel like Delta Burke must have during the 80s/90s. Also I've got my favorite acne popping up and I think I may be bipolar soon. Just warning you guys.
  
• Okay well off to drink some tazo chai tea and mess around on Myspace and Youtube here at work. I'll post some new pics soon that I took with the camera, so you can all the see the nice quality. It's fantastic!

includes a magical disclaimer

• Magical disclaimer for readers: Last Friday morning I did two blogs, as several of you noticed. One was public, one was for preferred readers. There were only 2 preferred readers. I'm going through some stupid drama right now that I don't want to disclose with the entire universe. Therefore, I didn't include most of you on my preferred list. 99.9% of my blogs are public. I'm sorry to make any of you have frowny faces this weekend but this is one of things I needed to vent about but not broadcast. Sorry for your reading inconveniences. Now on to writing my usual blog to my dead mother. :-)
  
• Okay Momma, I'm back from my weekend. It was pretty darn fun. Friday morning I took Dad and Michelle to Costco, and we all got membership cards. I also got a lot of pineapple, and many bags of carrots. Oh and a chicken Caesar salad, very tasty. I spent Friday evening at home relaxing, and it was great. I watched Kicking And Screaming on TBS, Will Ferrell is insane.
  
• Let's see Saturday I did my usual work thing in San Francisco. Then I came home and actually relaxed for a bit and watched some TV. Then Cathy and Alisha picked me up. We hung out at Alisha's for a few then went to Jason's house to watch a Metallica concert on DVD and watch the boys design and race cars on his Xbox 360. It was pretty fun, just chilling out. Then I went home and fixed a rum + diet coke ( I haven't had any drinks for like a month.. yay) with a bigass hunk of pineapple in it. Boy that was yummy.
  
• Sunday morning I went to church. Yes I got there on time, I did set my clock forward before I went to bed Saturday night. Afterwards Davina and I went to Berkeley to see Leslie and The Lys. That girl is insane, it's awesome! What an experience. I bought one of her shirts and snagged a promo poster, and she signed both and took a crazy pic with me. Davina's pic looks even better than mine does, but that's because Davina is crazier then I am. We walked around Telegraph and got pizza beforehand for lunch, forgot to mention that. We did other shopping and split a crepe as a snack. Then we drove through downtown Oakland and paid a surprise visit to Davina's grandma. She seems nice, Shuki was cutting her hair. I felt so white in her house. Very cultural. Moving on, we got back to San Leandro and picked up Michelle and went to my house where we copied some of the pictures from Davina's camera to my computer. We went to dinner at Carrows ( I had coupons, and still do.. I belong to the E-Club!!) and browsed at Target. Oh I forgot to mention, Cathy did A LOT of cleaning at my house, she says it was out of boredom. I think she just wanted to pitch in since she practically lives there. She even cleaned the front window, swiffervac'd everything, did dishes, and baked a cake. It's like WOW. Domestication. She refused to scoop Spencer's stinky litterbox though, I gotta do that in the morning. All in all I had a great weekend.
  
• Tonight I'm working in San Fran then coming here, so my schedule's going to be interesting. I'm so blessed/thankful that Cathy did a lot of the housework so I don't have to do tons of it. I've been up since 8:30am yesterday with a one hour nap, so I'm kinda pooped. I need to clean my bathroom and I may mop the floors, depending on my level of exhaustion at 7:30am when I get home. Okay talk to ya later. Love ya.
  

i got new shoes, cheap ones

• Howdy Momma, the weekend is here. Thank God. Week wasn't too rough, but I love weekends just the same. Michelle and I have gone walking all week, and I even went on Sunday. So that's like 5 days in a row. Dad got me new walking shoes at Walmart the other day. My ankles have been hurting a lot, and I figured it was due to improper footwear. Well um my right ankle still hurts like a biatch, but there may be other factors. Right before that time of the month *cough cough* my feet and ankles tend to swell up. Also, I'm fat so that could be it too. But I've been fat for years so you'd think my ankles would be hurting for a while now. Oh well, maybe I'll take some Tylenol or Alieve next time I go. I think we're skipping the walk today since both of us have aching body parts and I promised I would take her and Dad to Costco later in the morning to get/renew a membership.
  
• This weekend should be nice and relaxing for once. No impending plans just yet, and that's fine. If someone wants to hang, cool. If not I'd love to actually catch up on movies at home and actually be able to veg out in front of my TV. Well the only plan I have set is seeing Leslie and The Lys at Amoeba in Berkeley on Sunday afternoon. She is freaking awesome!
  

Yeah she's just up my alley. Anyway.. ta-ta for now!

im pooped

• Hello there Momma. Oh dear I am so pooped. I haven't gotten enough sleep the last few days, I guess. I went walking Monday and yesterday morning, and I'm going again today. Yay. I'm still not losing any weight. Boo. It's about time to put on my wizard hat (Kimmie get it, message me if any of you are confused). That's probably why some of my body parts have doubled in size. Yes I do talk about them on Myspace. LOL
• Anyway yeah, Monday evening I did karaoke again with Davina and this time we drug Michelle along, since she wanted to go to the bookstore after. So much fun, I love singing 80s love ballads and pop songs. Earlier tonight I got to board op the symphony over at KDFC, filling in for Dane. It's pretty easy and I need the dough. I got less than 6 hours of sleep, since I was running errands with the family in the morning. Oh well I guess. Now today (Wednesday), I am going to get some freakin sleep. Nice restful sleep. I am not answering the phone. Probably won't be in bed until like noon, but when I do hop the train to sleepytown, I do not want to be interrupted by anyone. Unless the house is on fire and there's some hunky fireman rescuing me, I don't want to hear it.
  
• Oh yeah, finally got my refund. Thanks Uncle Sam and the Governator. I also bought my camera online. Used Bizrate.com and saved about $40 as compared to Best Buy. This is the one I picked, Cindy. Kinda an upgrade from what you suggested.
  

I think 7.1 megapixels is OK, I think my old one was like 5MP. I just wanted a small point and shoot. I don't remember each and every feature, but all the reviews I've read have been positive.

Ok I'm gonna go now, back to watching more stuff on Youtube to pass the time at work.Love ya mom!

my friends are awesome

• Hellooooo Momma. Back from my weekend. It was awesome! Friday morning I went to breakfast with Leeanne, then went walking with Michelle at the marina. I saw Shuki, Davina's mom doing tai-chi. Haha. Friday evening I met up with Sandi in Tracy and we ate at Wally's Drive-In, with the biggest freaking cheeseburgers I have ever seen. After that we went to see Definitely Maybe over in Dublin. Fun times.
  
• Saturday I worked my part-time gig, then went to Joey's 1st bday (Fernando's son). It was lots of fun. I reunited with Michael and Tony (who smelled great by the way.. hey baby.. you're 18 now I can flirt), and we played in the inflatable jumper thing. There was also tons of food and a pinata for the kids. I saw several people I hadn't seen in a long while. It was fun. After that excitement I ate dinner at home, and took Michelle to Southland so she could look at bras. We window shopped for a bit and some hot guy with a french accent did some nail demonstration on me trying to sell me some manicure stuff. He was hot and I got tingles down my spine while he massaged my cuticle, so I didn't mind. Later on that evening I hung out with Cathy, TJ, and his friend. I forget his name. James, Jason? Starts with a J. Okay when I barely got home from that guy's house, Davina picked myself and Valeria up, and we went to a karaoke place in Hayward. So much fun! They even made a CD of us singing, Valeria's making us copies. I can't wait for people to hear it.
  
• Sunday was pretty normal. Got up, went to church, came home, did some housework, went walking to the duck pond, went home, watched some TV while eating a spinach bacon salad, then took a LONG nap. Then I got up and made dinner, and came here.
  
• I am so blessed to have great friends to make my days special. Seriously. All of you guys rock. Even those who I only see on Myspace, or those who I only see once in a blue moon. Just wanted to let you guys know that. Okay gotta go do some surveys here on Myspace. Later!
  

jesus and all night dance parties

• Howdy doody Momma. What's shakin? Do they have all night dance parties up there? They should. I bet Jesus can really get down with his bad self. Anyway, nothing too thrilling going on down here. I went walking yesterday, and I'm going walking today. I'm glad Michelle likes to walk, both of us need all the exercise we can get. I made an AWESOME dinner last night. Sauteed some onions and chopped up potatoes, grilled a piece of bratwurst and chopped it up (we got it free a few weeks ago from Lucky.. lol), scrambled some southwestern eggbeaters in there, added some avocado and salsa.. it was GOOD. Wrapped it up in some tortillas and made some tapas.. out of sight! I haven't had a meal that grubbin in ages. Michelle said it looked like something I threw up but she's weird anyway. As you are very well aware.
  
• This weekend should be cool. Tonight I'm hanging out with Sandi and going to some place with awesome burgers, then we'll maybe hit a movie after. Haven't seen her in ages. Saturday I have work in the morning and Joey's 1st bday party is in the afternoon. I think Cathy's going. I can't believe that kid's almost a year old. WOW. That reminds me Fernando and I have been playing phone tag forever. Okay Michael I know you read my blogs, first of all I need to call you and second of all why does your profile say married? Did you and Irma elope? Maybe I should just call you instead of broadcasting it through my blog. Hahaha. Hope I catch you on Saturday. Okay Mom gotta go, I'm like hella farting up a storm in here. I feel bad for Brad in the morning.
  

hyperactive lisa

• Hello Momma. It's the middle of my lovely work week here. The past few days have been okay. Monday was a little crazy. Took Dad to the eye doctor, Starbucks, Longs, paid off my dentist, went home and took an hour long power nap, then went for an interview in the city. (City = San Francisco) I think I did well, but the PD is factoring in that I already work a lot and if I get this job I'd literally be working 7 days a week. My gut says I didn't get it, but I won't know for sure until later on today. No biggie. I think God's telling me to manage my budget a little better, and I'm trying. Not my fault I'm popular. Everyone wants to go out every single weekend. I get booked. I also feel guilty right now since I made plans to go to Kimmie's niece's birthday party in May and forgot about it when I bought front row tix to Spring Celebration at Great America on 5/10. Family Force 5, front row!!!! WOOT! Okay I'm a bit juiced. I know that night I'll go out to Lodi and hang out with Kimmie and Joyce the next day, make it up to them. I still feel awful though. I always buy daily planners but never use them. Now I have an excuse. LOL
• Yesterday I went walking with Michelle and got my taxes done. I am getting money back!! Enough to get my new camera with a sturdy case and put the rest in my savings where it shall remain until the end of time. (Or I'd like to promise myself that anyway.) Today is grocery day, and like Dad said in the car yesterday, "I'm so happy I could just s*#t." Yes Dad lovely sentiments. I also am going walking this morning, and hooray for that. I'm hoping to get more rest the remaining days of this week, since I'm tired. As usual. Okay Momma gotta go, Kimmie is IMing me about her weird relatives and discussing her even weirder dream about Joanna Kerns attacking Alan Thicke on the set of Growing Pains. Like my dream about her being in her kid body pushing me across her carpet while Judge Reinhold was trying to fix the floorboards wasn't odd enough. "Kim! Kiiim!"
  

i think i'm insane

• Hey there momma. How was your weekend up there? Do you even have weekends, keep track of time? Probably not, no need really. I am so exhausted. I think it's more stress and emotional exhaustion than anything else. My schedule is so insane lately, especially doing stuff for Michelle and Dad this week. I also have an interview for a possible third job this afternoon, I don't wanna get into details since I don't want to jinx myself. I know what you'd say, "Don't go in over your head, slow down." I would love to mother, but since I gotta pay for medical now and I've had unexpected expenses the past 4 months (since I got let go from KKIQ) draining my checking account, it has gotten to the point where something has to be done. Don't worry, it's in radio and I love radio. We'll just have to see.
  
• This weekend was okay for the most part. Friday night I went out with Noelle to Claimjumper for dinner, then to Walmart, my house for a bit, and then her house where I fell asleep during some episode of Family Matters.
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then met Noelle at BART, where we walked over to the Moscone Center to Wondercon. That's a sci-fi/comic book geek fest they have every year. David Duchovny and Gillian Anderson were there to talk about the new X-Files movie coming out in July. Now you remember how big of a crush I had on David back in the day. Well just breathing the same air as him was exhilarating. Noelle took some pics for me since my camera is on the fritz again. I also took pics with Batman, Superman, and Oompa Loompa, Darth Vader and a few troopers. It was so fun. We went back to San Leandro and picked up Michelle and went to La Pinata for dinner. Man I love their chicken famoso burritos. I make 2 meals out of em. Afterward Michelle needed more underwear so we went to Mervyns. Noelle bought more bras. I was making a joke about her wearing a teddy to the Saddlerack sometime and I think she took it literally. Oh well, still fun.
  
• On Sunday I went to church in the morning, then came home and did tons of housework. Even mopped. Afterward I went for a walk over by the duck pond, then came home and took a LONG nap. I mean like 6 hours. I felt guilty for sleeping that long, but I know I work and do a lot of stuff and don't have much down time. Although I'm here at work being paid and I'm blogging, so I dunno. Okay well I'm going to go drink some diet wild cherry pepsi and get hyper, maybe do some surveys. Love ya!!
  

no one said life was easy

• Heidi ho there Momma. Again, not too much excitement going on down here. Today I've just been kinda stressed out about money, Dad getting progressively worse, stuff like that. I'm seriously considering getting another 3rd job. I applied for a board op job at another station in San Fran for weekend work, crossing my fingers on that one. I know God will open a door when the time is right. It's like financially I'm barely making it, I'm paying for medical insurance now, and everyone wants to go out every weekend. It's insane. That and Dad forgot that he buys my groceries and I almost had a panic attack in the middle of Walmart before I reexplained my whole situation. Ever since I got laid off from my on-air gig back in October I've been $200 short a month. It's like good lord, man.
  
• Also I've been having some issues with temptation and sin, all the lovely stuff. I live in the Bay Area, which to me seems like the sin capital of the world. Maybe besides NYC and Las Vegas. I'm saturated with bad stuff 24-7. You know I'm probably exaggerating and everyone is bombarded with it. It's like most of my close friends aren't believers, and my friends that are live kinda far or are pretty scarce. Everyone has sex on the brain 24-7. Everyone says awful things about one another. Everyone cusses. This includes me. I know it's in our nature to be awful and sin and all that, but man it's insane. It's so hard to put all that aside and start over. This is crazy.
  
• Besides all this nonsense it's so hard to sleep lately. I have you on the brain totally, and the whole situation with you in the hospital plays in my mind like a bad movie, and you laying there dead. This is probably some common grief mechanism or something, but yeah it sucks. I'm sure someday I'll get over it. Cathy and I were talking earlier about how rough it's been in the 2 months since you passed on. No one ever said life was easy for anyone, though. I'm taking good care of everyone, and I'm so glad I have a great family and friends to lean on. I think I've aged about 10 years in the last 6 months, seriously. I'm so old. My priorities are totally in another place now. Crazy, huh?
  
• Okay well off to enjoy my weekend, well I can in like 4 1/2 hrs when I leave work. Michelle and I are going walking again, and that's a good thing. I hate it because for the first 1/2 mile, I always feel like I'm gonna pop the big one since I'm so outta shape going slightly up hill. It's worth it in the long run. Okay talk to ya later. Taaa-taaa!
  

same ol crap

• What's crackin, Momma? Not too much down here. The last few days have been pretty uneventful. Dad had a fever the other night, but it went down so we didn't take him to the doctor. He's going grocery shopping with us in the morning so I hope he's feeling better. I went to the gym yesterday morning. Yay for me. I'm going again this morning too, gotta get that exercise. Not like it helps me any, but it's worth a shot. I keep losing/gaining weight like a yo-yo, it's quite frustrating. Such is life, I guess. Kinda hard when Cathy comes over and makes a ton of pig-in-a-blankets and fudge walnut brownies for TJ. They were yummy. I made some scrambled eggbeaters with sliced bell peppers and salsa too, so I ate a little healthy. Freakin sodium filled wieners probably are why I'm retaining water today. Grrr.
  
• Well that's about all that's going on, really. I work, go to the gym, sleep, watch TV. That's life in a nutshell this week. Hope you're having fun up there. I still miss you so much it hurts. Can't ever go to sleep without you on my mind. Later Momma. :-)
  

weekend fun

• Hey there Momma, what's shakin up there in heaven? I had a pretty okay weekend. Quite a bit of glutenous eating, and I'm picking at the leftovers as we speak. Friday night I went to dinner at Mimi's with Noelle and Michelle, then we went shopping at Newpark Mall. Your favorite, I know. I got a cool new shirt at Hot Topic with the giftcard Amy gave me for Xmas, and I got a few things at Target.
  
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then all 3 of us girls plus Dad went to go see Kim's new baby. Joshua is sooo cute. So is Caden, she loved my Oscar the Grouch shirt. She got in trouble for throwing a tantrum and had to go in the naughty spot. Haha. We took lots of pics. My camera has been gay for a while but Michelle and Kim took enough, believe me. Shelly got hers developed yesterday so I'll probably be scanning them on the computer later this morning. Later that night Cathy, TJ and I went to dinner at Claimjumper in Concord. I had a mudslide, it was yummy.
  
• Sunday I got up like a good girl and went to church. Later I went home and did some housework, then Davina and I had lunch at La Pinata and ice cream at Clancy's. We tried to counteract the guilt by taking a walk to the duck pond. Oh well. Still was yummy, and we had fun as always. You remember Davina, she's always funny as hell. Not that hell is a riot, but it's a figure of speech. My rambling continues.. Anyway after that I went home and took a nap for like 5 hours, then got up, grabbed food and came to work. Here I am now. Yay.
  
• Today Michelle and I are going to go walking too. She's got bread for all the ducks and geese. You'd love the duck pond, Mom. Wish I would have taken you there. Talk to you soon.
  

it's friday.. woot woot

• Hey Momma, what's shakin up there in heaven? Nothing too thrilling going on down here, I guess. I didn't get much sleep today, I'm pretty pooped. We took Happy to the vet since it looked like he had something stuck under his gums. It was a ton of his hair, guess he was chewing himself again. I got a few hours of sleep in the morning than took him, went home and slept 4 hours, then went to pick him up with Michelle and Dad. He's a great little dog, but he deprived me of sleep, man.
  
• When I got home I tried to get more sleep, but didn't succeed. TJ caught Alf peeing on the couch for the last time, and chased him around the house yelling. He chased him into my room and woke me up. I wasn't exactly pissed.. well maybe I was a little bit. TJ made the decision to get rid of Alf and Cathy took him back to the shelter. Yes I know to a lot of you this seems mean, and my heart is slightly broken myself. My heart goes out to all kitties and doggies in shelters, especially the older ones. I was actually brought to tears. Mostly because Spencer's friend went away. It was either that or TJ losing his temper again, and um from the looks of it I don't wanna see that again. Alf meant well, but he peed on the couch every single day right in front of us. We tried spraying water at him, vinegar, smacking him with a newspaper. We encouraged him to go outside and he wouldn't budge. I know this seems to make TJ a bad guy, but I guess he did the right thing. His sister gave Alf to him since he was peeing all over her apartment, and after 4 months of him destroying my couch well it was the last straw. I'm just too nice. Anyway, Spencer will probably be sad for a while and I'll be sure to give him lots of extra love and attention for sure. He's very resilient, I know he'll be okay.
  
• Oh yeah, I'm finally getting real health insurance. Well if I get accepted. *crossing fingers* A good Myspace friend of mine (who is a former child actor.. lmao) is gonna get me the hookup for $73 a month. Deductible is kinda high but hey I just need this stuff for emergencies and my work covers 80% of what insurance doesn't. Essentially my doctor visits would be $6 and generic drugs would be $3 after the insurance/work reimbursement. Mom I saw what your original ICU bill was and almost popped a coronary. I need something just in case. (Note to readers: if any of you are California residents and need lower cost health insurance, gimme a holla.. I'll give you Jeremy's contact info)
• Well this is about it. Went to the gym on Wednesday morning, and I'm going again today. This weekend should be okay. I'll give the full report Sunday night.
  

starbucks= yuppie crack

• Hey there Momma. How's heaven these days? Pretty amazing I'll bet. Earth is the same ol thang. Nothing too eventful the past few days. I've worked a lot of overtime due to Victoria being sick. Worked 12 hours last night and 12 hours the night before. I was going to work another 12 hour shift tonight but Brad covered some extra hours which was nice.
  
• I went to the gym yesterday morning. I'm so glad to get back in the swing of things. I'll probably go this morning too, since I bet Michelle will go "my ankle hurts" when I call to see if she wants to go walking.
  
• I hung out with Cathy and Amy yesterday. We got Starbucks and drove down Palomares in Cathy's car. It was cool just to get out for an hour or so and talk, listen to music and stuff. I got a nice 2 hour nap in after that, and I needed it. Ya know I had Starbucks three times in a 24 hour period. I swear Starbucks is yuppie crack. I'm semi-addicted but not really. I can go weeks without it, but my family can't. Last night Cathy and Michelle brought me a skinny iced hazelnut latte here at work. (Yes they both were in a vehicle together without killing each other, shocking but true.) Then yesterday morning after the grocery run I had to take Dad and Michelle through the drive-thru Starbucks and I got a skinny iced cinnamon dolce latte. Earlier tonight I had a skinny iced mocha. It's like good god, man. Whatever.
  
• Oh on Saturday we're going to visit Kim and see her new son Joshua. He was born 4 or 5 days after you died. His pics look so cute. I'm sure we'll take more pics while we're there. Today I got some picture Aunt Brenda took of us right after the holidays, and Dad's wearing my sparkly Santa hat. Date says the 28th, but I stopped wearing that after Xmas. Oh well. I gotta scan that in on my computer soon. It's cute.
  
• Okay that's about it for now. Gotta do more Myspace surveys and eat some broccoli. :-)
  

i can only imagine

• Hey there Momma. Here at work again, doing a nice 12 hour shift. Victoria's sick again, she caught my cold from last week. I don't mind, I need the overtime. Like you remarked often, the economy plain sucks. All my money goes to bills and a small amount for entertainment. Oy vey. I'm considering getting a third job, but I've really been enjoying having most of my weekend to myself. Everything just costs so damn much, it's nerve wracking. Speaking of high prices, Cathy got a new car. She and Amy went to Tracy Honda and traded in her craptastic Ford Focus for an 08 Honda Accord. It's really pretty. God knows how much it costs though.
  
• Here's how my weekend went down. Friday I had to run some errands with Michelle and Dad in the morning. That evening I went to dinner at Mimi's Cafe with Noelle and Michelle. Then we went to Walmart. Not too eventful, but I was still having girl issues anyway.
  
• On Saturday I worked in San Fran, then picked up Michelle and Dad. I drove to the duck pond to show it to Dad and we walked around for a bit. Then we went back to my house to relax and watch Scrubs. Afterwards we hit up Hometown Buffet and back to my place to meet Cathy and get a ride in her new car. We dropped off Michelle and Dad, then picked up TJ and went out for a bit. We got Starbucks, drove down Palomares, visited with Naphtali and her mom, and then dropped by Barnes and Noble. Then I went home and watched Are We Done Yet? with Ice Cube and John C. McGinley. He plays Dr. Cox on Scrubs, it was a dorky family movie but seeing him in booty shorts was worth a laugh.
• Sunday I got up on time and went to church. Good sermon about not trying to be one way at church and another way in the outside world. Just be yourself and be a reflection of God always. Well try to live like Christ all the time, not just on Sundays. That's it. After church I went home and walked to the duck pond for some exercise, then did most of my housework. I took a nap, then hung out with Davina and Valeria. We drove around looking for this karaoke place on Mission in Hayward and finally found it, but they only open in the evenings. We ate dinner at Rigatoni's, then went to the duck pond (again.. lol) and had a nice little walk. Now I'm here at work.
  
• Life is thrilling, isn't it Momma? I would say you probably miss it, but you probably only miss us. I know it's gotta be a hundred times more exciting up there than down here on plain ol Earth. Ya know that song "I Can Only Imagine"? I wonder what you did when you saw Jesus. I bet you cried like a big baby and gave him a hug. That's what I'll probably do too. Or get all excited and jump up and down like a huge retard. I do that when I have too much sugar. You're up there nodding and smiling, saying "Yes Lisa I know". Okay that's all for now. :-)
  

anemia sucks

• Hey there Momma. I'm still having girl probs. It doesn't hurt as much today, but I've lost way too much blood. Been feeling woozy the last 3 days or so. Today especially. Yeah I took my iron pills, and yes I'm eating.. well trying to. There's not a whole lot to report, not much excitement going on this week. I've been dragging myself to work, and getting off an hour or so early (don't worry I should be using sick pay for it). Michelle and I took Dad to the chiropractor yesterday, and I'm almost done with my Criminal Minds book. I was reading it in the car. I haven't been to the gym all week, but I don't think I'm in much of a condition to go. I've gotta take Michelle somewhere today, I think it's the hospital to get something signed for your insurance and a medical supply place to get Dad a better cane. Tonight I'm going to dinner with Noelle, then probably going back home to rest. I need it. That's about it. Hopefully when I blog again on Sunday night/Monday morning I'll be back to my old self full of energy. Being anemic sucks. BLAHHHHH
  

giant unicorns in my uterus

• Hey momma. Life isn't exactly peachy right now. My body seems to hate me. Okay I still have that cold thing I mentioned last time. And now I have major woman problems. I mean major. Remember back in August when I was in the emergency room for 7 hours? Yeah it's back. I think there's a unicorn in my uterus trying to burst forth. Not a good feeling. My thighs are burning. I'm trying not to puke. I think I'm investing in some Tylenol Women's Menstrual Relief and a heating pad at Walmart today. I just want to crawl back into bed and go sleepy for a long time. A long, long time. After work today I'm going to breakfast with Leeanne at Carrows, then doing the grocery shopping with Michelle and Dad. That reminds me I need to make a list. Ugh. Sorry this blog is so short Momma, but I feel like crap on a stick.
  

oh ca-ca

• Well Momma I'm back from my weekend. I think I'm getting sick again. I was sick the week you died and that carried on through New Years. Like a month later.. surprise! Sick again. I feel like I've been hit by a truck and I think I have a fever. My immune system sucks booty, but I think maybe it's stress related or something. Ugh.
  
• Anyway, the weekend was fun. Friday night I went out with Noelle and Michelle. First we had dinner at Quinn's Lighthouse in Oakland. I had lasagna, salad, and shared some nachos and bread pudding. I guess I am a fatass, huh? Anyway.. then we went to Target and Barnes and Noble in Newark and Fremont. Then Noelle and I hung out at her house and watched Criminal Minds.
  
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then went out to Lodi to hang with Kimmie. We had an awesome time, as usual. We watched like 3 behind the scenes documentaries about the Wizard Of Oz, Head Office (with my 80s man Judge Reinhold and a Rick Moranis cameo), The Amityville Horror (which I napped during), New Kids On The Block Hangin Tough Live (we did our own videos to this and I'm hoping my camera didn't delete them from the memory card, my camera's been really retarded lately and after I get my refund I'm buying a new one.. moving on), a Miami Vice TV movie from season 2, and some home movies of Kimmie in preschool. Oh yeah we had Papa Murphy's pizza for dinner, and some cheesy bread. I also drank like 3-4 mudslides and lots of Diet Cherry Chocolate Dr. Pepper. Tastes like a cherry tootsie roll. Sunday we got up at like noon and watched most of Sybil and had McDonalds for lunch (I had mcnuggets and a side salad), then went off on an adventure to Walgreens, Blockbuster and Starbucks. I got a skinny hazelnut latte. Yum. We came back and watched the rest of Sybil (freakin long movie good god), and had KFC for dinner (I had a chicken BLT salad). We watched a movie called Downtown with another 80s boyfriend Anthony Edwards then I headed on home to get ready for work.
  
• So yeah, I had fun this weekend. I was thinking about you a lot, as I always do. This one hot guy in the Sybil movie was singing that "Hushabye Don't You Cry" song to his kid, like you sang to us when we were little. Made me tear up a bit. Oh and when we arrived home the sun was setting, and the clouds were purple. It just made me think of you, since Kimmie mentioned how her cousin Mandy was probably up there riding her unicorn through those clouds.. haha. Okay talk to ya next time.
  

life is hard

• Good news Momma, Dad doesn't have cancer/tumors. He has emphysema and lots of scarring like we thought. Thank God. Okay emphysema isn't good, but we knew he had that before. His oxygen levels are great and I'm going to try to take him on walks when I can during the week.
  
• I'm really pooped, I didn't get much sleep today at all. Well I did, but it was in 2 hour increments. Got more teeth filled on Thursday, slept, then took Cathy's car to be worked on, then came home and made dinner and watched TV, then slept a bit more. Oh yeah, we were having issues since Cathy's car repairs are gonna be like $1000. I'm paying for it and Dad's paying me back. I really had to twist his arm though. Wish you were still here, you would have handled things right away like you always did. Cathy's been really upset lately, she asked me how I deal with all this crap that goes on in my life. Before I could answer her she was on the phone with Amy again. Anyway yeah, I just pray a lot, try to fill my time by helping out others and hanging out with friends. That's all you can do, ya know. It ain't easy. No one said life would be. Cathy and I did agree that you're probably somewhere in God's version of Hawaii (which is indeed heaven on earth) relaxing on the beach with Grandma and everyone. Drink a mai-tai for me. I wonder if they have booze in Heaven? Hmmm.
  
• This weekend should be fun. I'm going to dinner with Noelle and Michelle tonight at Quinn's Lighthouse. I think I told you about that place before, I went there last year with Brad and Victoria. After dinner we're probably doing a little shopping. Saturday I'm working then going to Lodi to hang out with Kimmie. I wish you would have gotten to meet her, she's really an awesome person. Okay I'm outta here for now.. not physically but I'm done with my blog. I almost wrote blob. Hahaha. I'm such a nerd, huh? Love ya!!
  

more worries

• Hey there momma. Not much going on here, my usual midweekly blog. The past few days have been okay, not a whole lot of excitement. I went to the gym both Monday and Tuesday morning, and I may hit the gym again today. Dad's got a doctor appointment this afternoon so I don't know how much sleep I'll be getting. I'm really nervous about it since the doctor's supposed to discuss the results of his CT scan last week. I'm hoping for the best. Even if it's not the best, we'll deal with it step by step. Dad doesn't deserve to get sick right after losing you, it's just not right. You didn't deserve to get sick and die either. *sigh* I know it's all part of God's plan and all, but he sure is testing us right now.
  
• I've been having bad dreams lately, mostly about what happened to you and bad stuff happening to Dad. It's all part of the psychological process I suppose, but it still sucks. God's forcing me to face my fears head on, both in my subconscious and in real life. It's part of maturing as a Christian and a human being, but man this is tough. But I still save face and play the funny person to everyone, can't let em know I'm hurting. Well I kinda am by writing this and they read it, but oh well. I express myself so much better in writing than talking about it. Cathy's the same way.
  
• Well I'm gonna get going now, say what's up to God and grandma and everyone for me. Send a prayer request for me for Dad, I know you're watching over us and maybe you can pull some weight on his CT results. If not, well God does what he does. Okay talk to ya later. :-)
  

stuck in the middle

• Hey there momma, back from my weekend. It was pretty fun. On Friday night I went with Davina to the Edwardian World's Faire in San Francisco. It was raining pretty hard and we had to run 6 blocks, getting soaked all the way. I had a fun time. There were hot dudes on stilts and kids doing acrobatics. I took a few pics, I need to load them on Myspace. Davina made me look like some early 20th century schoolmarm. Haha.
  
• On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then Cathy picked me up at Bayfair BART and we headed off the Jenny and Mikey's house for their son Chayse's birthday. It was cool, we saw Cliff and his mom so we had someone to talk to. Oh by the way, the alignment on Cathy's car is wonky again so she has to get it fixed, she's borrowing your van. I'm sure that's okay with you. Anyway after that we got Wendys and went home to watch TV. I was in bed before 10pm but I was exhausted.
  
• Sunday I took Dad and Michelle up to your gravesite in Sebastopol. They don't have your marker yet, but we put roses there and on Grandma's grave too. Michelle got emotional, but that's just how she is. Then we had lunch at Foster's Freeze and got coffee at Starbucks. It was funny since it rained on the way up there and again when we left, but while we were in Sebastopol, no rain at all. Thanks Mom. Later on I came home and did more straightening, then took a nice long nap, got up, made dinner, and went to work.
  
• I will hit the gym after work today. I usually don't go on Mondays but Tricia asked if I was going, and I ate way too much crap over the weekend. So I'll do that for 40 min or so and then go home and mop the floors. Oh my god my life is so exciting, huh?
  
• Well I do miss you as always. Michelle and Cathy have been bickering about money and crap, wish you were still here to yell at both of them. Now I'm the one stuck in the middle. "Tell Cathy blah blah blah.. " "Oh yeah.. well tell Michelle this!" (flips me the bird) Oh well Momma, such is life.
  

oh poopy

• Hey there Momma. TGIF. I'm so glad the weekend is here. The last few days have kept me pretty busy, but that's okay. Makes life interesting. Wednesday morning I went to Walmart, Kinko's, Luckys, Starbucks and Longs with Michelle and Dad. Usual errands and groceries, like we always do. By the time I got my car loaded with groceries and almost home I had to drop off some extra food at Uncle Jim's house. That guy can talk forever. Kept me there for like 30 minutes. Not his fault, I think the talking and wackiness factor has to be genetic. Anyway, I got in bed by like 1pm and got up at 9pm in time to do dishes, make dinner and watch Criminal Minds. It was the last new episode for a while. I don't know if you remember that a month before you passed the Writer's Guild went on strike. Well they are still on strike and there aren't any new episodes of most shows. If they reach an agreement soon we may get a few more this season. This even threatens the pilots for new shows in the fall. Craziness
• On Thursday morning I went to the gym with Tricia. This was her first time at Bally in San Leandro. I had a lot of fun and got more of a workout since I was showing her stuff and wanted to show off my muscular bod. Hahaha. After that I went to Fernando's house and we watched Balls of Fury with Grace and Joey too. I've noticed that Fernando has been the most supportive friend ever, both him and Grace. He's becoming almost like a guidance counselor. Helping me look at my finances, giving me self help and spiritual advice. God truly gave me a gift to have him as a friend. And no I'm not saying any of you others are not great friends, just right now he's standing out more than others. Oh yeah, he and Grace gave me a stuffed Alf doll. So awesome. Later on Thursday night TJ bought 3 pies and got a banana cream one just for me. I love pie. I know you'd love to hear about that one.
  
• I do feel good about myself because I went to the gym three days this week. I also feel like a fattie (yeah the normal fat rant coming.. ) since I've gained like 6 lbs for no reason. Okay the pie factor don't help, but in general I try to eat healty. Lots of veggies, barely any salt. But it's like ARRRGH. I want to live and not restrict myself. Diets make me miserable. Why does my body keep doing this? Oh poopy. That's my usual fat rant that I go on at least once a month. I know what you would say Mom. "At least you're trying, but you need to eat, are you getting enough meat?" I don't know why Mom but you always thought I didn't get enough protein. You also would probably interject with .. "It's cold outside for God's sake put on that heavy jacket I bought you last year." I remember you oh too well.
  
• This weekend will be pretty fun. Tonight is the Edwardian Festival thing in San Francisco. Davina is going to give me a bit of a makeover and we're going to see what interesting things can be found there. I'll take some pictures. Saturday morning I'm working then I'm going with Cathy to Antioch for Jenny's kid's bday party. Sunday we're going to the cemetary in Sebastopol (we meaning myself Michelle and Dad) to bring you flowers since your bday is on the 29th. So I'll have an interesting report on Sunday night. Talk to you later, say hi to Heath Ledger if you see him.. he's kinda hot.
  

grocery shopping today.. whoopee

• Hey there mama, long time no talky. Okay I talk to you all day long but I mean in my blog, silly. The last few days have been pretty fun. On Monday morning I went to breakfast at JD's in Castro Valley with Davina. I had an egg white omelette with avacado and tomatoes, so good. It came with pancakes and I got a bagel. I had to eat the bagel later that night though, I was too stuffed. After breakfast we went to Trader Joe's since Davina needed groceries and back to my place. I could have gone to the gym but I was pooped. We watched Night Shift with Michael Keaton, Henry Winkler and Shelly Long since Davina hadn't seen it. She slept through most of it.
  
• On Tuesday morning I hit the gym (yay!) and then hung out with Fernando and baby Joey for a few hours. Joey's getting so big and trying to talk. He loves oatmeal, grapes, chicken.. well let's say he has his daddy's appetite. Then I went home and went to bed.
  
• Nothing else too thrilling going on. This morning I'm taking Dad and Michelle grocery shopping and running various errands. I'm hoping to be in bed around noonish. We'll just see. Dad has his CT scan thing on Friday morning, so we're praying for good results. I still think about you everyday before I go to sleep, and dream about you too. For some reason in my dream yesterday you had a bunch of jewelry on and kept trying to make me put it on too. Interesting. Talk to ya soon. :)
  

average weekend

• Hey there momma. Back from my weekend. It was pretty cool, although I feel uber guilty about the food I ate. Let's see on Friday I didn't get in bed until about 11am due to all the errands I was running with Dad and Michelle. I got up at 4pm since I had a dinner reservation with Noelle and Michelle for Claimjumper there in Fremont at 6pm. It was some GOOD food, as usual. I got the pot roast, and we all split lots of garlic cheese bread. I had some kind of english toffee pudding for dessert. You know me, I can't pass up dessert. Then we perused Frys Electronics and Walmart there in Fremont. I was good and only got a white trash mini-action figure thing out of the machine at Frys and a soda at Walmart. Why am I telling you all this in great detail? I don't know. Well anyway, after that we went back to my house and played with Spencer and Alf for a bit, then I finished up My Dad, The Angel, and Me starring Judge Reinhold and Carol Kane, then went to bed.
  
• Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then came home and didn't do much the rest of the day. This was fine with me since I do need relaxation. I did some housework and did take a walk, though. I spent the rest of the evening watching movies like Downtown starring Anthony Edwards and Office Space because it was on Comedy Central. It was pretty fun.
  
• On Sunday morning I was a good girl and went to church. Davina and Shuki (Davina's momma) met me there. The sermon was about resisting the Devil's temptation which is everywhere. I took that to heart, lemme tell ya. After that, I went home and did a little more housework, then went for another walk down to the duck pond. Did I mention I hit the gym on Friday morning? So I've been exercising all weekend. Yay! The rest of my Sunday I spent napping and starting on my Criminal Minds book.. Jump Cut.. the first 20 pages have been good, so far.
  
• Ya know I had a dream about you last night? I had a baby and named it after you, and it was weird because you were right there holding it. Interesting. Well thanks for stopping by my subconscious, and feel free to do that anytime. :) Talk to ya soon momma.
  

thinking happy thoughts

• Hey there momma. Well another work week behind me. Not that I'm doing a lot of work while at work, but you know that already. Actually a while ago I was doing a lot of bible study, catching up for the weekend. I read the last three chapters of Genesis and the first 3 chapters of Mark. My bible study guide likes to switch it up between the Old and New Testaments.
  
• The last few days have been okay. Wednesday afternoon Dad had a follow-up with Dr. Athos, he was being kind of a jerk and seemed to have an attitude. The good thing that came out of it is that Dad's COPD is mild, and is O2 level is high. Thursday morning he went to have a chest x-ray, just as part of the follow up since he was in the hospital with pneumonia just a year ago. A few hours later we went to Dr. Robertson for a check-up and his assistant noticed something in his left lung. She talked to the radiologist who took his x-ray earlier and they said there was a mass there. We're thinking it's probably scar tissue since his lungs got pretty messed up from the serious pneumonia plus all that smoking. We're hoping it's not something else. He has to get blood work done this morning and will probably get a CT scan on Monday. I'm pretty sure this isn't serious and am praying really hard right now. The worst thing we need now is to lose Dad. I'm going to keep thinking positive thoughts. Things are just starting to get back to normal, we don't need anyone else getting sick.
  
• Other than that giant worry looming over me this weekend, I think I'll have a nice relaxing few days. Tonight I'm going out with Noelle and possibly Michelle to dinner at Claimjumper and maybe hanging out somewhere there in Fremont. Saturday morning I'm working in San Fran and then Cathy's dragging me to Jenny and Mikey's kid's 2nd birthday in Antioch. It should be interesting. Sunday I'm going to church and I'll probably go walking and do housework. So yeah Mom that's my update from down here, in case you missed anything. Talk to ya later!!
  

another ordinary day

• Hey there momma, what's up? Okay that was stupid. I know what's up, you're in heaven. Well anyway moving on from that awkward beginning.. life is doing pretty okay. Not a whole lot going on. Monday morning I took Spencer to the vet for shots and a check up. He's doing just great. He has to go for more shots on Feb 11th. Ironic since that's when Grandma died 17 years ago. Oh well. He really likes the Dr. Bridgeport though, he was kinda whiny in the car on the way there but was perfectly fine once we got in the waiting room. He was purring while she was examining him, it was cute. Monday night I came into work early and did almost a 12 hour shift. Victoria was sick.
  
• Tuesday morning after leaving work about 30 minutes early I hit the gym and did some cardio and some ab work. I know my abs are there somewhere under my belly fat. Haha. Anyway after that I picked up Michelle and Dad and we did our weekly grocery run. We actually are learning how to budget. Hallelujah it's a miracle, I know. I got a new bra and more Muppet underwear there at Walmart. I'm wearing Miss Piggy right now. Great huh? Dad just loved being in the women's underwear department for those 10 minutes. Haha. After Walmart we went to Luckys and didn't spend that much like we sometimes do. I got veggies, cereal, milk, ice cream, all that necessary stuff. Then I went home and went to bed. Tuesday night I got up, made some grilled chicken wraps for dinner, did some dishes, watched Scrubs and Coming Unglued starring Judge Reinhold, then took a nap before work. And yeah here I am.
  
• Cathy got an awesome tattoo on her calf with your face on it. It must have cost a lot of money. I'm pondering getting one, but um not that detailed. Looked painful. I think about you everyday, and miss you so much. Sometimes I wake up and wish it was all just a bad dream, ya know. I was like that when Grandma died too. This is going to sound odd but when Grandma died, good came out of it. We would have never become best friends with Fernando and Michael if she hadn't died and we hadn't have moved in across the street from them. Everything happens for a reason. So there was a reason God took you when he did. He didn't want you to suffer anymore of course, but there are other reasons we don't know about yet. That's okay, I trust in God and I know he's got a purpose for everything that happens.
  

finally laid to rest

Hey momma, me again. I had a pretty good weekend, considering the circumstances. Friday night I hung out with Noelle, Michelle, Jolene and Amanda. We went to the Great Mall in Milpitas. I was bad and had Burger King for dinner on the way down there. Then I had a cookie and a brownie mocha thing at the Nestle Toll House booth. I was BAD. We had a lot of fun walking around, though. I got a Bert & Ernie decal for my back window, either TJ or Noelle will help me put it on this week.

On Saturday was your burial in Sebastopol. In attendance were myself, Michelle, Dad, Cathy, Amy, Fernando, Grace, little Joey and of course Jerry led the service. Or is it Gerry? I've always spelled it with a J. Anyway, yeah we cried a lot. I was surprised that Fernando and Grace drove all the way up there. Guess I know who my true friends are. Not that the rest of you are not my true friends. Fernando just insisted on coming and he's one of my best friends ever. The service was beautiful, Jerry did a great job. I showed Fernando where Grandma Joe, Grandpa George, Uncle Walt, Aunt Betty, and our great grandparents are buried. He thought it was pretty neat. I don't know morbid it is that I took pics of everyone's plaque/marker thing. I know Kim and Elaine will probably want to see them. After the service we went for lunch at Subway. TJ got called into work, left early, sped all the way up there, and somehow found us there. He was too late for the service, but the effort that he made getting up there showed he really cares. You meant a lot to him, ya know. After lunch we drove back and I dropped off Dad, Michelle and Uncle Jim. Oh yeah, Uncle Jim was singing some songs from Macarthur Park about leaving a cake out in the rain. Really loud. While I was stuck in traffic. I can see the weirdness is hereditary. Haha. Later on in the afternoon I did a little housework, then Cathy and Amanda came over, so did Jeff. Cathy, Amanda and I played Uno while watching Scrubs, some Lifetime movie about a fat girl winning homecoming queen, and SNL. Cathy made me take like 3-4 shots of rum, so I was interesting. I know you don't approve of us getting plastered, and I'm sorry.

On Sunday morning I went to church. You always encouraged me to go and I'm glad that I went. The music was poppin and the message was great. Talking about how we need to do what God asks us to do. When he speaks, we need to listen and obey even if it doesn't make sense, even if we're afraid. Amen to that. Later on Davina came over and we walked to the duck pond, and around it for a while. Then we went to Rasputins and I got Holy Man (since you know how I love Jeff Goldblum) and Downtown starring Anthony Edwards. He's hot but his hair looked just like TJ's so it's hilarious. I haven't watched that one yet, I will on Tuesday or something. Then I took a nice long nap and went to work. Yay.




Here's all of us at the cemetery. That light shining down on us must have been you. :)


Uncle Jim serenading me with his coffee.

• Hey there momma. Well it's the end of another work week for me. It's been a pretty good one I would say. Let's see Wednesday I didn't get in bed until after noon, then got up around 7ish. Watched some TV, did housework, made food, went to work. After work on Thursday morning Michelle and I went walking to the duck pond over by my house. You would love it there, momma. Especially the mallards. I think one of these days I'll take Dad over there, he loves birds and stuff. After our walk I took Michelle on a few errands then home for sleep. Thursday evening I got up around 6, took a shower, and made a bombass dinner. Scrambled eggbeaters, 2 pieces of bacon (Luckys had a great promotion where they were giving away free food like eggs, bacon, lettuce, carrots if you spent a certain amount of $$. So yeah I got bacon, a head of lettuce and carrots.), sauteed onions, salsa, cheese and lettuce. All wrapped up in some tortillas. So freakin good. Then Davina called and we went to Bakers Square. She had dinner, I just had some apple cheesecake pie and an iced tea. Then we went to Target but I was good and didn't buy anything. We stopped by Rasputins but the close earlier now, major bummer. Also went to Starbucks and I got an iced sugarfree caramel latte. I asked for decaf but they forgot. I hate that. So I was kinda wired for a while. Then we came back to my place and I watched Whos The Boss while she checked her email. And now, I'm here at work. I'm doing more bible study, working on Genesis. Jacob and Esau, good stuff.
  
• I've been in a really great mood and I'd like to thank god for that. I'm truly blessed to have family and friends who care and are helping me through this. I'd also like to note that Michelle has helped SO MUCH lately with the arrangements for you, Mom. Lots of paperwork I don't like dealing with. I'm sure you're proud of her. Your burial is tomorrow afternoon. Jerry's coming up with his wife, Cathy, TJ and I think Amy are going in Cathy's car, and I'm driving Michelle, Dad and Uncle Jim (your bro, not Dad's bro). By the way Dad's brother has gangrene on his butt, have I mentioned that? I know you'd find that amusing. LMAO. Anywhoo, it'll be nice to have some closure you know, to know that you're laid to rest with grandma and grandpa, and Uncle Walt. Dad said he can't wait to be with you again. It wrenches my heart to hear that. I know someday he will be, but not anytime soon hopefully. I can't stand losing too many people at once, dude.
• Well gotta go. I've been watching 80s videos like Toto singing Rosanna. "Meet you all the way.. Rosanna yeah.. " Remember that one? Of course you do we used to listen to that in the car on KYUU back in the day. That and Lionel Richie, Steve Winwood, all the good stuff. Those were the days, when you used a lot of hairspray. And that jammin red/gold striped shirt and your designer jeans from JC Penney. And your white Reeboks. You were stylin. Sometime soon I wanna bombard your room (well you and Dad's) and find more older pics so I can scan them. That would be awesome. Okay well talk to ya later. Love ya.
  

i just keep on smiling

• Hey mom it's me again. The last few days have been pretty okay. Monday I didn't do a whole lot. Just made dinner, watched lots of TV, came to work. After work on Tuesday morning Michelle and I went walking to the duck pond near my house. Sorry I never got to show you where it is. After that we took Happy to the vet to get his nails clipped and pick up some more ointment for his back. I made an appointment for Spencer to get his other shots for next week. Tuesday afternoon my boss at KDFC called and asked if I could run the board for the symphony, and of course I said yes. You know how much I work, I'm insane. So I worked in San Francisco from 7-11pm, then came back to work here in Oakland. I gave Victoria a ride home and here I am now. We're having satellite problems today so it's a little interesting. After work this morning I'm going walking with Michelle again, then it's grocery day. We're dragging Dad with us to Walmart and Luckys as usual. It'll be fun. Speaking of fun my dentist keeps calling for me to make an appointment to get more fillings done. Ugh. It just never ends, as you know. That's why I don't have time for relationships. Working + helping out the family + stuff I have to get done just takes up my time. I never sit at home feeling lonely or sad because I don't have a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend someday since I want to settle down and have kids. All most guys want is sex. I don't want to have sex until I'm married or practically there. Therefore I tend to avoid relationships since I know what most guys are after. It's like I want a relationship (since I want kids hella bad), but most guys don't want to settle down. So confusing. When you were my age you had been married for 9 years. Back in your day people actually did this thing called dating, then married and had sex. Nowadays its like everyone's doing it in middle school, practically. Sex everywhere. It's absolutely awful.
  
• Well Mom I think about you day and night. I have a few friends who are concerned about me since I keep lots of my feelings bottled up inside. I've always been that way. You were that way too. Even on your worst day you always had a great smile and something funny to say. I've always done exactly the same thing. My friend Tricia said something to me at your viewing.. "Whenever I see you, you're always smiling no matter what." That was an awesome compliment, since I know you were always that way too, Mom. I'm going to try and keep living your legacy every single day for the rest of my life. :)
  

had a fantastic weekend

• Hey Mom, I'm back. I had a great weekend. I was thinking about you a lot, as I always seem to do. Friday I didn't get much sleep since I had to take Dad and Michelle to Social Security in the middle of the day. Friday night I went to El Torito with Noelle and Michelle, it was yummy. They charge for extra tortillas now, how horrible. You know I love my tortillas. Afterward we went to Walmart, dropped off Michelle and back to Noelle's to watch TV and stuff. I watched a few eps of Criminal Minds with one of my TV boyfriends Dr. Reid (yeah that skinny dorky guy), and kinda snoozed through some Law & Order: Criminal Intent and Chip And Dale Rescue Rangers. One of the guys on Law & Order looks like Brad from work. Haha.
• Saturday morning I worked at KDFC, then drove off to Lodi to hang with Kimmie. Oh by the way, we are having horrible weather. Three storms this last weekend. On the way to Kimmie's it was raining pretty hard and really windy. But I had Jesus and you watching my back and I got there okay. I drove like an old person, so that strategy helped. Altamont Pass was kinda scary though. Anyway, I did have fun at Kimmie's. We watched the Sesame Street Pilot and The Great Outdoors (starring Dan Aykroyd and John Candy), then I went to Carl's Jr to get our dinner. I had a burrito with rice and beans. Later we watched Superman, National Lampoon's Last Resort (with Corey Haim and Corey Feldman.. we only watched for like an hour since it made no sense whatsoever), Katherine (starring Henry Winkler and Sissy Spacek and looked like an ABC Movie Of The Week from 1981 or something), an episode of Highway To Heaven (say hey to Michael Landon if you run into him), and three episodes of Punky Brewster.
  
• On Sunday we got up around 1pm and I went to Quizno's for our lunch. I had a turkey ranch swiss sandwich and a salad. Then we continued our movie marathon with Superman II. We played The Game Of Life while watching this one. I was an accountant, got married with a son. Interesting. Then I started drawing bad illustrations of various 80s icons that only Kimmie and I would understand. My favorite was Michael Landon trying to be a drug dealer, and the Greatest American Hero. Kimmie's sister and niece came over for a bit since Kimmie had to print something out for them. I bet they thought we were insane. Later I picked up A&W for dinner (I had a chicken sandwich and chili), and we watched Fast Times At Ridgemont High. Judge Reinhold is so dorky and cute. Then I drove back to San Lorenzo and got some food, and here I am.
  
• I still really miss you mom. Dad is still really upset that you're gone. You were his rock, you know. Now all he has is us three girls. He'll get through this. I will too. Love ya.
  

dear momma #1

• Hey mom, it's me. Just thought I'd write a blog here to let you know how things are going. Life is getting somewhat back to normal. I'm back at work, on Myspace 24-7 and talking to friends online. My friends are helping me so much with getting through this. I wake up everyday refreshed lately, happy to have another day. I guess that's a good thing huh? Then I feel guilty, since I'm here, and you're not. Not physically at least.
  
• The rest of the family's trying to cope. Dad's trying to be strong, but lately he's been so depressed. Very understandable, you two were married for 43 years. Now he just has us girls. It's been so hard to see him sit and cry thinking about you. Michelle is so great, she's taking so much responsibility. You know she's always tried to take charge and now it's a good thing. She's trying to fill your shoes in her own way and look after Dad and the household. Cathy is handling it the best way she can. She enjoys her solitude it seems. I love Cathy oh so much.
  
• It was weird at your viewing, seeing you laying there. I swear you looked like you were asleep, taking a nap. We kept carrying on for hours, talking, crying, laughing, hugging. And you just laid there. If only you could hear what some people were talking about, especially certain aunts going on about bodily functions. But I kept looking over at you from time to time, and you were still there.. dead. The finality just sucks sometimes you know.
  
• I only hope that I never ever forget you. I know some folks have lost loved ones, and memories fade. I don't want the memories to fade. The other night we were playing selections from Broadway musicals on KDFC, and all I could think about was you watching West Side Story and Picnic. I just ate a few Christmas cookies, and I remembered how we used to make cut-out Christmas cookies and decorate them, and I'd sneak little pieces of dough. I don't want these memories and pieces of you to slip away. I also remember your fudge you used to make. Oh man that was good. And carrot salad with the pineapple and raisins.. mmmmm. I'm hungry now. Oh yeah and in high school when you used to pack our lunches in the brown paper bags and make little illustrations and cartoons on them. That was awesome. I can write a novel of just the memories of you in my head. Like chaperoning my 4th grade field trip to Pier 39 in San Francisco, and I was the only girl in our group. Mark and Orazio bought that whoopie cushion, and you bought Antonio some little chocolate bottles with the liquor inside for his mom. Oh yeah by the way, Ms. Vollov, Mrs. Gamoso and her son Diony, Miss Pappalardo and Mrs. Siple all came to the viewing. Interesting to see all those teachers at once. They all seemed to mix up Michelle and Cathy but definitely remembered me. Haha. Guess I'm pretty hard to forget. Oh yeah, did I mention I actually wore a skirt? Yeah shocking but true. Even Terry was impressed.
  
• Well enough for today I guess. I have plenty of memories to share in my next blog to ya and I hope to never forget them. Your burial was supposed to be this weekend, but the forecast predicts lots of rain and wind and crap, so it's postponed until the 12th. I've decided to visit Kimmie this weekend instead and have some fun. I love you so much and I hope you're having a blast up there with Grandma, Jesus, and everyone else. Did you say hi to John Ritter yet? You always liked him. Until next blog (and I talk out loud to you all day long, it seems).. I love ya!!

Lisa

P.S. Kim had baby Joshua the day after Xmas, he looks really cute. And no Caden didn't come to the viewing, Terry didn't want her covering everyone in stickers, including you. Ya never know, 3 year olds are a trip.

catching you all up to date...

As you all have noticed I haven't blogged in weeks. Well, in case you aren't reading this on my Myspace page, my mom passed away on December 21st. Complications from kidney failure that triggered heart failure. Oh and yeah she had terminal cancer on top of it so the doctors didn't want to treat her kidney failure and give her dialysis. What really matters right now is that she's not suffering anymore. No more medication, no more doctors lacking bedside manner. Where she is, she can walk again. She can eat what she wants. She's with her parents and brother. So I'm happy for my mom, but I'm so sad at the same time. I'm so selfish, and I just wish she was back here with me. Leaving me voicemails that I wish I would have saved, making faces at my camera, telling dirty jokes to TJ, just random things we take for granted. I'm so blessed that God gave me an awesome mom for 27 years. She taught me so much about life and how to live it to the fullest. Now I just hope my mom's looking down on me from heaven and that she's proud of me.

My Christmas was okay, I survived it. It was pretty emotional since Mom had bought several presents for us months before she died. My dad did a lot of crying. I got lots of things that I wanted. The one thing I did want wasn't there, and that was my mom. I did have fun with the rest of my family and friends though. They made life so much more bearable. Oh yeah did I mention I had like a week and a half off from work because of everything that happened? First time I had Christmas off in like 10 years. Not the circumstances I wanted, but still it was cool in a way. I'll post pics of stuff that I got later on in this monster blog.

>Mom's viewing was last Saturday and it was weird. Weird just seeing her laying there, looking like she was sleeping. Lots of people came, like over a hundred. I spent lots of time introducing people to other people. Folks from work came, many close friends, old school teachers who worked with mom, and plenty of relatives. It was awkward introducing friends to my 3rd, 4th/5th, and 6th grade teachers. Also awkward being hugged/kissed by many friends and relatives that I usually don't get cozy with. I have a few eccentric family members, but I wouldn't trade em for the world. Who else wants to hear about vomiting and other bodily functions during a viewing? Makes life interesting, I'll tell ya. Some of you may think it's odd for me to blog about something as personal as my mom's viewing. If you've ever had someone close to you die, then maybe you can relate to it. Maybe you can't. Someday you will. Believe me.

Life is getting back to normal, my blogs will probably become a lot more ordinary and boring. I think I'll start addressing my blogs to my mom herself, as a weird form of therapy I guess. This may weird some of you out, and I'm sorry. I need to express myself somehow. Oh yes here are the pics I promised.


This is 80stastic Kimmie outside of Longs. LOL


Brad is interesting.


Cathy, Dad and Spencer on Christmas.


A nice big weiner and cheese that Mom had picked out for me from Hickory Farms months before she passed. Thanks Mom! *pointing to heaven*


Tea from Starbucks that Mom had picked out and someone's *cough Cathy cough* Jack Daniels.


This cup was supposed to be for my mom. Now I use it.


Sandi sent these flowers.. thank you girl they are beautiful.


Peppermint scented candle I got.. it smells PURTY..


Michelle gave me this t-shirt.


Part of my tree, I think Santa and the kitties are cute.


Yummy!


Best show ever, dude.


Another one of the best shows.. well crime shows.


These presents were for my mom. Now they're just in a bag in the back of my closet.

I realized that I forgot to take pics of some stuff, so I may post most Xmas stuff I got later on. My bad.. especially Noelle.. oopsies.

Oh yes and I can't express how much all of your kind words and thoughts have helped me the last few weeks. Whether here on Myspace, or texting me, calling me (I'm sorry Dusty dear I need to call you back I'm a weiner), hanging out, or coming to Mom's viewing. Just showing you care is the best thing to do. And you all do it well. I have the best support network imaginable. I love all you guys oh so much.

sometimes im up, sometimes i'm down

• Mom's still in ICU, hanging on as hard as she can. We're all praying and hangin tough, since that's the only thing left to do. Why this has to happen around Christmas, I don't understand. My future Christmases are all going to be hard, but I'm going to get through it. I have the best friends and family in the world, I swear. I love all you guys so much.
  
• I'm feeling so much better today then I was yesterday. Yesterday stunk. All I wanted to do was sleep, and that I did. Like 10 hours on Tuesday, and about 10 hours on Monday too. I did actually wake up at 3:30pm so I had time to get ready and see my mom at the hospital for about 30 minutes, then went to a work dinner at Applebees in Alameda. That was fun and kept my mind off things. I'm apparently the resident network control comedian so folks expected me to fire off wisecracks right and left, and I did just that. I'll try to post pics and maybe a video tomorrow. I know my boss and Victoria also took pics and I'll get em from them in the next day or so.
  
• This morning I'm planning to hit the gym and visit my momma, then go home, start some laundry and hit the hay. Not too thrilling, but I do need the sleep.
  

please keep praying....

Well I'm sitting here at work, feeling pretty down again. Mom's back in the hospital. Her blood pressure was way low yesterday morning so Michelle called 911. She's in ICU, she has a serious bladder infection that has screwed up her kidneys royally. She's also having seizures, I think it's due to the brain tumor since I don't know if she got any steroids yesterday. It sucks. So I need all of your prayers for a miracle, okay? I need positive thoughts from everyone.

On a happier note, my weekend was okay.. well at least Friday and Saturday were. I hit the gym on Friday morning. Friday afternoon we tried to get mom into radiation but their machine wasn't working and my mom was uber upset so we left. Friday night Noelle and I ate dinner at Mimis, walked around Newpark Mall, went to Borders in Union City, then back to her place to watch the latest episode of Criminal Minds. It was pretty fun. Saturday I worked in San Fran in the morning, then spent the rest of the day relaxing at home. Mikey and Davina were both supposed to come over, but Mikey had to help his dad with something. Davina was going to come over later and help wrap presents, but I went to bed at like 9:30 so I texted her not to worry about it. I watched My Girl 2 (with Tj's Dad, he was on a 1 1/2 hr beer break apparently.. lol), Parenthood, and Legend Of Billie Jean. I also put together a video of some of my favorite moments with friends.. I'll post that in a second. I did drink two rum + diet cokes and a rum + eggnog. So I enjoyed myself. So my weekend was great, then it sucked.

Here's the video I made.. it's um interesting..

I was bored

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Here's a bonus video someone made of Jeff Goldblum to Justin Timberlake's "Sexyback".. it cheered me up a lot.