Mom's home now

• I'm feeling a lot better today than I've felt in a while. Mom's back home, where she belongs. Yes she's still sick, but at least she's with family and not in the dreaded hospital. She had the most annoying roommate ever, too. Now at least she can get some sleep. She also has plenty of doctor appointments and such next week, and I'm taking her to all of them. We're gonna try our hardest to beat this thing, man.
  
• I had fun on Thursday night/Friday morning, because I brought my kitty Spencer to work with me. That really brightened my day, and everyone else's here. He is such a cutie. Leeanne and I went to breakfast yesterday, so she got to meet him too.
  
• I hope to get to the gym today, I did go on Monday, which was good. Next week I'll try going on Monday and Tuesday since I'm pretty busy after that. I'm eating generally healthy lately, but I've eaten strawberry frozen yogurt most of this week as dessert at home. Dessert is my weakness, man. Thank god I don't have any cheesecake or oreos laying around. Haha.
  

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• Well today is another day. Nothing too thrilling to report, I guess. Today's one of those ho-hum kind of days. I was feeling good for a day or two, then whammo I'm sad again. All part of the process, I know. I've been getting an okay amount of sleep lately, but I still feel really exhausted. I'm also having my infamous woman issues, so that may be another reason for exhaustion since I'm anemic. Oh well.
  
• I did go to the gym on Monday morning, so I have to pat myself on the back for that one. Probably won't get back to the gym until Friday, I'm pretty booked all week. Later this morning is groceries with Michelle and my Dad, and we're stopping at the hospital to make sure Mom gets her breakfast. Yesterday it took them forever to get my mom fed. Geez. I'm bringing Spencer to work with me this evening (not now, but tomorrow, whatever it is), everyone wants to meet him. He is the cutest spunkiest kitten ever. God has truly blessed me with this kitty.
  
• I'd like to thank you all again for your kind words and prayers during the difficult time for my family. It really means a lot to me, every bit of it. I'm so glad that I have a great support system to lean on. You all know if you need help, you can count on me. Thanks again. :)
  

keep on praying, guys

• Well I survived another weekend. Not a monumental weekend, but it turned out okay. Friday I worked in San Fran, then visited Mom, then watched movies and ate pizza with Cathy, Amy and TJ. I needed that break. On Saturday I worked in San Fran again, visited Mom, came home and did some housework, visited Mom again, then came home and watched more movies with Cathy and TJ. Both nights I had a few rum + pepsis. Yes I know drinking is bad, but it helped me forget about things for a while. I also slept 11 hours on Saturday night/Sunday morning. I needed that sleep. Sunday morning I went to church, and it felt so good. I cried a little, and I did a lot of self reflection, praying, and praising God. I have so many things to be thankful for, even when things aren't going so well. God is letting my mom's illnesses happen for a reason, it's all part of the big picture, the big story. It won't make any sense now, but someday it will. I'd also like to thank my friends again for helping me with prayers. You all know who you are.
  
• Mom is still in fantastic spirits. She had been having problems eating on her own the past few weeks because of her hands shaking, but we had thought it was because of her "mini-strokes" and "parkinson's disease". Since she's been on the steroids this week, she is barely shaking, and she was able to eat lunch today all by herself. I consider that a small miracle. Also, she doesn't need oxygen anymore, at least right now. She is breathing perfectly fine. We still don't officially have the biopsy results back yet, so we don't know the whole game plan on chemotherapy, steroids and radiation. I will keep you guys posted.
  
• I'm still bummed, but I'm doing much better emotionally than I was doing last week. I am thinking positive, because when you think positive thoughts, good things happen. My mom is thinking positive too. She wants to get out of there so she can go Christmas shopping, if that tells you anything. I'm hoping they will let us do her treatments as an outpatient. I don't care about losing sleep, I'll take her to every single appointment. So everyone, keep praying for my mom and my family, if you can. Let the holy spirit touch her and heal this awful cancer in her body. In Jesus' name. Amen. Thank you all again for your prayers.
  

Please continue your prayers, I love you guys

• Well, I think I need to get things out in the open now. A few of you really know what's going on. My mom is still sick in the hospital. It's not just a foot infection. She has brain cancer, and there's a spot or two in her lungs. This isn't officially confirmed until her biopsies, but the doctors are pretty sure. She started on steroids today to reduce the swelling so she can get a biopsy done. She'll be using steroids and getting radiation treatment, a lot of radiation treatment. Her kidneys are holding up okay for now, they're giving her a double dose of her regular kidney medicine to make sure things are working. At the moment all any of us can do is pray and ride out the storm. This just seems so unfair because my mom doesn't deserve any of this. Name an illness and she's had it in some form, it seems that way. I know that everything happens for a reason, and God has it in his plan for this to happen. Still, it seems way too unfair. Especially around the holidays.
  
• Mom seems to be holding up okay. She was really positive when I came to visit her earlier. She was so happy to see me, as if it had been years, not just 3 days. I've been so busy working and trying to get in sleep that I haven't had much time to see her. Since starting on the steriods she seems a bit more coherrent, and a lot happier then she was when I last saw her on Monday.
  
• Today was Thanksgiving and it's the second year in a row I spent it at a hospital. This time last year Dad was in ICU on a respirator with a really really bad case of pneumonia. This year it's Mom's turn, and it's a lot more serious. Miracles can happen, maybe Mom can get better. And maybe she won't, I'm just so happy to spend as much time as I can with her and remember the happy times we've had over the past 27 years.
  
• A few of you have called with Thanksgiving well wishes, and I either didn't answer the phone or cut the call short. I wasn't meaning to be rude, and I love you. Right now I'm just getting the strength to blog about this and I didn't feel like being a weinee and crying over the phone. I also didn't want to put a damper on anyone else's Thanksgiving with bad news. I love you all, and I have the best most supportive friends ever. No matter what happens, I have a great bunch of people to help me through this. And Jesus Christ of course. Please pray for me, and my family at this really rough time, and have an extra leftover piece of pumpkin pie, just for me. If you don't like pumpkin, eat apple pie. Even ice cream, I'm not picky. I love desserts. See, that made me feel a little better.
  

I am thankful

• I'm pretty upset right now. On Monday morning my mom was complaining of chest and stomach pain and we took her to San Leandro Hospital. She's still there right now. They are doing all kinds of tests, and even more tomorrow. I don't know all the details, but it doesn't look too good. I don't want to get into it. Right now I don't really feel like talking to anyone. I just wish I could go home and curl into a ball and sleep. For a long, long time. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. That's why I'm not online on AIM right now. I'll get the usual "How are ya?" and I'll have to lie and go "Oh I'm fine" when I'm really not. I haven't been able to eat much all day, well maybe part of a Lean Cuisine sesame chicken dinner. I feel nauseated, upset, worried, angry, and depressed. Christmas music makes me cry. I just want to close my eyes and forget about all this crap for a while. I have a deep faith in God and I know that he's only throwin what I can handle to me right now. I may not think I can get through this now, but I will. I don't know how, but I will. Yes tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I am thankful, for having the best family and friends a person could ever wish for. I'm thankful for having great parents, even if I won't have them here with me forever. I'm thankful for Jesus dying on the cross for me and for all of us. If you aren't religious, then sorry. Big wow. See how much I care. Anyway, that's my anger popping out again. All I can say is, thank you all for being the best pals ever, and please pray to whatever God you pray to today, for my mother. Thanks.
  

Crazy work week ahead

• Back to work. Yay. Here I am, working 12 hours again. Victoria should be back tomorrow, so today is the last OT day. Which is good since I'm working like 23 hours in San Fran this week on top of the 44 hours here. Oh yeah baby, can't wait for those paychecks. I need the dough.
  
• My weekend was pretty fun. Friday night I took Michelle shopping at Kohls over at Bayfair and then to Southland Mall. We had fun, I got a few cute t-shirts. And a strawberry cheesequake at Dairy Queen. Sorry, couldn't help it. Saturday I did my San Fran gig and met Davina there in the city. We did lots of shopping, browsing, and eating. We had pizza at Blondie's then a few hours later we went to the Cheesecake Factory and split some chicken marinara with pasta, and split a brownie cheesecake thing. Hey, least we split it man. Then we went back to the east bay, picked up Michelle and went to Stoneridge Mall for a little more shopping. I picked up a copy of Nine Months for like $5.. hey it has Jeff Goldblum what can I say? Today was a kick back day. We were supposed to go to church. I was tired, Michelle had cramps. So I slept in and ate pancakes. Then I watched a lot of Trick My Truck on CMT with TJ. Now I'm at work. I'm a bad girl. Why do I like goodies? Why does my body hold on to every pound I eat? GRRRR. I know positively that I won't make it to the gym this week, maybe on Saturday. I'm working almost 70 hrs. Sleep is a little important I think. I'll try not to go overboard on Thanksgiving but I'm working 13 hours that day, visiting both my family and Noelle's, and sleeping in between. Good luck to me.
  

yay holiday time

Here I am on a Thursday evening, blogging a little earlier than usual. I'm here at work doing another 12 hour shift, making some extra dough. It seems like I was worried about hours and money, etc. Then Victoria went on vacation and I caught extra hours here this week and a little next week. KDFC gave me TONS of hours in the next week or so, especially since they're upgrading stuff on Monday night and they need a board op over the Thanksgiving holiday. Least I don't have to worry about going broke while buying Xmas presents. Speaking of that, I'm all done buying my sisters' presents, got one of my dad's gifts, one for Fernando's kid, and another special friend who's into insanely bad 80s movies will be happy this holiday season as well. I love giving gifts, some say I'm a little too generous. Oh well. I even got my kitten a gift already. I think I need to load Xmas music onto my Zune player. I'll try to do that over the weekend. Yay!!

I haven't worked out since Tuesday morning, and that sucks. I will be going walking tomorrow morning, I'm hoping. If Michelle wimps out I'll hit the gym instead. Gotta burn off some of these holiday yummies. Oh yes, and my new official holiday drink of choice is a decaf iced egg nog latte from Starbucks. Oh man I had one today, it was so awesome. Second choice is a decaf iced peppermint mocha. MMMMMMMM

This weekend should be nice and laid back. At least I'm hoping. I've been working so much this week, and I know I'm working even more next week as well. I need time to chill out, watch some HBO, do something lazy. Oh here are a few videos. First up is another installment of my insane sleepover at Kimmie's last weekend. Um yeah WARNING.. explicit language!!!


kimmie and i crazy

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And here's the world's cutest kitten.. SPENCER.. who hates cameras..
Spencer hates papparazzi

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top this!

I'm starting to feel like a fatass again. I've been like really bloated over the last few days. I know I've eaten a lot of crap lately, but I shouldn't be this big. I'm sure once Aunt Flo comes to visit and leaves, I'll feel so much better.

Nothing too eventful going on the last few days. Today I'm working killer hours. 3 hours in San Fran followed by 12 hours here. Yes I'm insane. As Dusti Rhodes told me earlier, "Lisa, you're an animal!"

I did work out on Tuesday morning. I probably won't get back to the gym until Friday. Today I'm going to bed at like 11:30am and I gotta get up by 6, since I have to be back here at 7pm. Well maybe I can squeeze in the gym on Thursday morning before I do the grocery run. Sounds like a good idea. In other exciting news, I just ate an apple. It was tasty. Oh yeah, here's one of several videos Kimmie and I shot on Saturday night, I'll be posting more as I have time.


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my mullet will deflect the bullets!!

• My weekend was jammin. It was, for real. Friday I didn't get much sleep until later in the day. I took my dad and Michelle to his doctor in the morning, and it took forever for the stupid doctor to see him. Meanwhile I took Amy to drop off her car to get her alarm installed, and gave her a ride from there. I ended up hauling my sister and dad in the back of my car. It was interesting and I got free coffee out of it. Then Amy and I went to Fresh Choice for lunch. Then I went home and pretty much slept the rest of the day. I woke up at 10 pm and watched Zeus and Roxanne, then went back to sleep. Thrilling, yes I know.
  
• On Saturday I worked my parttime gig in San Fran first. I actually had work to do, it went by fast. Then I hightailed it to Lodi and got there before 4pm. Kimmie and I had a blast. Let me try to remember what movies/TV shows we watched. La Bamba, Ruthless People, Police Academy 4, like 3 episodes of Highway to Heaven (over both days), Summer School, Teen Witch, Hangin Tough Live (hahaha), Night Shift, Superman IV, and Mommie Dearest. Man it was 80s tastic. We were bad and got IHOP for dinner on Saturday, and drank way too many winecoolers. We taped several weird segments, I'll try to get them posted in the next day or so. Kimmie's mom came over on Sunday, and we had a FEAST. Turkey, mashed potatoes, squash, deviled eggs, crescent rolls, pumpkin pie, apple pie, cherry pie. Oh and lemon cheesecake bars and pumpkin bread. I am so stuffed. And fat.
  
• This week will be busy, lemme tell ya now. I'm working an extra shift at KDFC on Tuesday evening, and overtime on Tues-Thurs nights.. like 12 hour shifts. It will be one long week, but lots of money will be made. I need it to buy xmas gifts and get my bills paid. I'll be exhausted, but it will be worth it.
  

I've been lazy

• Ok you know what I'm going to say. Yay it's the weekend again. Well, yes indeed it is. I should be having a fun one. Today I won't be getting much sleep. Gotta take Dad to the doctor to get some jury duty thing signed this morning. In the early afternoon Amy and I are hanging out while she's getting her car tuned up. God knows when I'm going to bed. Saturday I'll be working in the city, then going straight to Lodi to kick it with Kimmie for the rest of the weekend. 80s movie marathon here we come! I bought some wine coolers, so we might drink a few and get buzzed.
  
• The last few days have been okay. Haven't made it to the gym since Tuesday, but oh well. Wednesday morning was grocery day, and yesterday I was just plain tired. I won't have time this weekend either. Next week I'll be working A LOT. (thank god, I need the money) I will try to squeeze in the gym on Tuesday morning, and Friday probably.
  
• Spencer is still a giant ball of energy. Yesterday he grabbed my nose and got a claw stuck in my nostril. It hurt. A lot. I tried to get angry at him but he yawned and began purring. A 9 week old orange tabby with a cute little pink nose is hard to be angry at. Oh well.
  
• Well of course I'll give you a lovely update of my weekend early on Monday morning while I'm here at work. I'm sure I'll have a blast.
  

Fun times..

Well here I am again, the middle of another week. Things are going great with Spencer. He's a little ball of energy. Only gets frustrating when I'm trying to sleep, and he's attacking my feet. But he's so cute, so what can I do? I was a good girl and went to the gym yesterday. I would go today but we've got groceries to buy, and mom might have to go to the doctor. Fun stuff. Other than that, nothing highly thrilling going on. Before ya know it it'll be Thanksgiving, and I have tons to be thankful for. God has blessed me so much. I have a great family and awesome friends. I've had some interesting trials over the past year, but that's only made me a stronger person. Now I'm taking the time to post some videos.. first is my dad at the mall a few weeks ago.. pretty random..

Dad rambling in the mall

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Here's me dancing at Fernando's house yesterday morning.. haha
Me shakin my booty

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And Fernando dancing like a retard..
Fernando dancin ghetto

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i got a new kitty!

• Dude, I am like SOOOO tired right now. I had a pretty cool weekend though. Awesome one. Let me warn you I am exhausted so if this blog is somewhat incoherent, my bad. On Friday night I went to Rasputins with Michelle and picked up Family Force 5's album.. "Business In The Front.. Party In The Back". They're rockin, and they're Christian, and yeah it's jammin. Then I went home and relaxed, and went to bed. On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then went to Petsmart since they were having an adoption fair. The animal rescue group had a kitty who looked EXACTLY like Turbo as a kitten on their website. I filled out an adoption application for him online, and now I don't need it whatsoever. Why? Well if you haven't noticed by my default, I did find an orange 8 week old kitten whom I named Spencer. Noelle and I went hunting at the Oakland SPCA after I finished at Petsmart, and I fell in love with my Spencer (who they called Sebastian??) instantly. I adopted him, and stopped off at Noelle's house to show her mom, then my parents' house to show them and Michelle. He is the cutest kitty ever. Alf is starting to get used to him. He hisses at the poor baby, but that's about it. They both slept on my bed yesterday morning, a few feet apart from each other. I'll post that pic on Myspace soon, it's cute since Alf is huge and Spencer is a tiny thing.
  
• Oh and yesterday (Sunday), I went to a rockin concert in Modesto at Calvary Temple. Mercy Me played with Monk & Neagle and Aaron Shust, and it was off da hook. These are Christian rock bands, if you didn't know. Oh man I had so much fun. We were hoping to meet Mercy Me after the show but they had a plane to catch. I did meet Aaron Shust and get his autograph. I look like a total idiot in the picture.. actually I look frightened. I was probably talking as Sandi took it. I do that a lot. That pic'll be up on Myspace later today, I think. I got to work an hour late, but boy it was worth it dude.
  
• Hmm what else is goin on? Not too much. Today dad has to have a blood/urine test so Michelle and I are taking him to the lab right after I get off work, then probably Starbucks of course. Later I'm going home and doing plenty of housework. Eventually I'll be in bed. I'll probably go walking or go to the gym on Tuesday, though. I need that exercise.
  

same ol same ol

• Well another work week is over. Nothing too thrilling going on. I have a new coworker being trained for weekends, his name is Eric and he looks like Tim Meadows from SNL. He's cool. I've called two different people inquiring about kittens they are adopting out. Called this lady on Monday and she never called me back. Called a guy on Wednesday, he told me to call back the following day after 5pm. I did and no one picked up, so I left a message. Still haven't heard back. Oh well, God's saving the best kittycat for me I guess. I mean Alf is a nice kitty, but he's not mine. Although he has adopted me and sleeps on my bed everyday.
  
• I should have a fairly cool weekend. Tonight I'll probably chill out at home, or maybe I'll call Amy I haven't hung out with her in ages. I'm working in San Fran on Saturday morning, and I may do more kitten hunting with Noelle later in the afternoon. Sunday afternoon I'm going to Modesto. Sandi and I are attending a Mercy Me concert. It should be awesome. I work later on that night, but oh well.
  
• Exercise wise.. I went to the gym yesterday morning, and I will try to stop by today as well. I'm working a little overtime so I don't get off until 8am, so I should have time to hit the gym before taking Dad to the doctor. Fun stuff. I know some of you don't care that I go to the gym.. but hey man at least I try to stay in shape, and I'd like to shed some pounds. The holidays are coming up and I can't resist treats, so I don't see that happening too soon. Hahaha.
  

No I didn't feel it

• Happy bday to my sister Michelle!! She's the big 3-0!! Okay it was technically yesterday and she probably won't like me bragging that she's entered a new decade, but oh well. Yesterday Noelle and I took her to Claimjumper in Fremont for yummy bday dinner. I still have tons of leftovers. On the way back, there was a 5.6 magnitude earthquake on the southern Hayward fault centered in San Jose. We were on the freeway, probably in Hayward and didn't feel a thing. My parents sure felt it, so did Cathy. Everyone's okay. I didn't hear of any major damage or injuries on the news as of yet. No other real excitement lately. I did go to the gym yesterday morning, which is awesome. I'm not going to the gym today. We're doing our grocery run instead. Oh yay. Such is life.
  

lisa has new couches

• Well my weekend was pretty cool. Not like WHOOHOOO cool but not horrible. Let's see on Friday night I made a Jack in Da Crack run for my parents, and got myself some chicken pieces, fruit salad and an andes mint shake for dinner. Yum. I stayed home and watched lots of TV, had a few drinks and went to bed. On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, and got back to San Lorenzo by 2pm. I got a nice surprise when I got home, since TJ's sister had given us a cat.. well it's still hers but he's living at our place now. He's a giant orange furball named Alf. He's nice but still kinda skittish, and hides in my room or TJ's. I then should have had time on that afternoon to go looking for kittens, but that just didn't work out. I picked up Michelle from some inservice she was doing for nursing, then had to take her home to help my parents. Then we finally got to the Oakland SPCA and saw only one possible kitten candidate. But some lady that was there first asked to see him, and I was mad. We left to go to the Hayward Animal Shelter, only to find out they are closed the last weekend of the month. GRRRRRRRR. I'm going kitten shopping again next weekend, but only me and Noelle. no one else. Period. I'm slightly mad at Michelle for inviting herself since I wasted an hour and a half of my time. I'm also mad at animal shelters for closing so freakin early. Oy. Okay so on Sunday I should have gone to church with Davina.. but my mom wanted to take Michelle birthday shopping (and dad too.. what fun), so I ended up taking them to Newpark Mall. The trip was kinda cool, I took some video footage of my dad being bored in front of the Hallmark store that I'll post soon. My mom had a hard time getting back into the van (she's disabled), but eventually we got her in... after straining my back. A few hours later TJ and I helped Noelle get her newly purchased futon home from Walmart and took her old loveseats. Now we have 3 couches.. yay! But yeah carrying those couches didn't help my back any. Any yeah that's about it. My weekend in a nutshell.
  

no more retarded phone

• Hooray another weekend is upon us. Mine should be pretty nice. I may be getting more furniture for the living room this evening. Noelle's giving us her old loveseats if we take her to Walmart to pick up a futon. Sweet deal. Saturday I'm working in the morning, then possible looking at kitties in the afternoon. Noelle and I also may visit the Ardenwood Corn Maze in Fremont. Sounds like fun. I need some fun and relaxation, I'm just pooped lately.
  
• Oh yeah I also got my new phone. It's a Blackberry 8700G. I don't know how to use it whatsoever, but I haven't read the manual. I'm going to be doing that after this blog. I also proudly made it to the gym yesterday morning, and I may go today too. Hooray. I wish I had more to talk about, but I don't. I'm tired, although I slept about 8 hours. Went to bed at 1pm yesterday, got up around 9pm. The two days before that I didn't get much sleep, well consistant sleep that wasn't broken into 2 hour intervals.
  

craptastic

• Today has been one craptastic day, lemme tell ya. Went to bed at like 10am on Tuesday, and got up at 1:30pm. I had to take my older sister Michelle to Kaiser Hospital in Oakland since she had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics she was given for a skin infection. It didn't look pretty. Well it took like 3 freakin hours there at the hospital. She had to go see a surgeon to look at her face, see if she needed a procedure done. Meanwhile I was running late for work in San Fran, and Michelle had the parking pass thing. I was actually going to leave, and Cathy was planning on coming to the hospital, to pick Michelle up. Well since I needed the parking thingy, I attempted to find Michelle, who didn't have her damn phone on. Inside the hospital itself all of the information desks were unmanned except for one in the main lobby, run by complete idiots. I asked them to page my sister, they asked how to pronounce our last name 3 times. Okay we're Polish, I gave them the benefit of the doubt. Instead of paging, the lady goes out to the lobby and yells her name. What the hell? Yeah she'll hear that throughout the hospital. Sure. I finally got a hold of Michelle about 3 hours after we had arrived, and we headed home. But traffic sucked. Then I dropped her off, and sped off to my place to change clothes (I had been wearing the same crap for like 24 hours) and grab food for work. I ended up coming to work 20 minutes late. Don't worry I called the afternoon jock and he was cool about it. Still sucked. Oh yes on the way to San Fran I realized an ink pen was leaking in my purse, and the zipper on my backpack broke.
  
• Oh yeah, and my phone is still retarded. It froze 4 times today, randomly. I missed A LOT of phone calls. My warranty expired back in July and I have insurance on the phone but I'd still have to pay $100 to replace it. I ended up buying a Blackberry 8700G, which was about $100 after the rebate. I know the new Sidekick LX is out, but I needed something cheaper but still functional. I think all PDAs and handhelds have issues of one kind or another. But I'd rather risk it with a Blackberry, I just do a lot of texting and like to check my email/myspace a lot. And my phone won't freeze randomly, hopefully.
  
• On a good note, I did hit the gym on Tuesday morning. I would go today but I'm exhausted. And the cable/internet guy is coming this morning too, thank god.
  

I had fun!

• Well here I am back at work for another week of excitement. My weekend was like totally rad, man. Friday morning I hung out with Fernando and baby Joey for a bit, ate Honeycomb cereal and took too many random pics of the cute little bugger. Joey, not Fernando.. haha. Friday night I hung out with Noelle. We ate lasagna and watched many episodes of Criminal Minds, it was fun. I fell asleep again, but her bed is way comfy. I can't help it. Oh yeah, after hanging with Noelle, I met up with Davina for a late night snack at 12:30am, and had some pumpkin cheesecake at Nation's. So good. On Saturday I went to my cousin's baby shower. It was fun seeing my cousin Kim, Aunt Brenda and Aunt Becky. I also saw old school pics of my mom and grandma in Kim's own baby book from back in the day. It was fun. Afterwards I dropped Michelle off at home and headed off to Lodi to hang with Kimmie for her bday celebration. We ate SO MUCH BAD FOOD!! And oh man we saw so many freakin movies. Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's Dead, The Exorcist, A Fine Mess, Supergirl.. and then Sunday evening we saw UHF, First Wives Club and an episode of Highway To Heaven. Before continuing the moviefest on Sunday we went to IHOP for breakfast that morning, then Mervyns, Walmart and Target. This was with both of us in costume, as Supergirl and a Ghostbuster. It was awesome. I'll have pics of this whole weekend up soon, I should get my cable/internet back this week. All in all, I'll give my weekend a 10 out of 10.
  

Me and my nerds..

Well the weekend is here once again. This week went by pretty darn fast, if I can say so myself. The last few days have been pretty normal, nothing too exciting. Wednesday I did the weekly Walmart/Luckys run for the family, didn't get in bed until noon. Thursday I went walking, then took the family to the bank, Target, Petsmart (to look at kitties but all they had were adults and I want a male kitten), and of course the Starbucks drive-thru. Starbucks is like crack, man.. and the Sovulewski clan is addicted. I swear I'm in that drive thru a minimum of 2-3 days a week. Oh freakin well, I get free iced mochas out of it, I'm not trippin. Got in bed by about 1pm, Kimmie called me at 4pm and woke me up (it's all good girl, not like no one else wakes my ass us anyway), and TJ found me sleeping in my Ghostbusters costume, thought it was hilarious. Oh yeah, by the way I'm going to be an Ghostbuster for Halloween, I changed my mind. And I slept in my costume yesterday. And I have my own proton pack. Life is awesome.

This weekend should be pretty interesting. Tonight I'm hangin with Noelle, I hear her momma is makin lasagna. I am so there. She Tivo'd this week's Criminal Minds and I hear it was a tearjerker, so we need to see it. On Saturday afternoon I'm going to my cousin Kim's baby shower then off to Kimmie's for my totally rad 80s weekend. Dressed like a Ghostbuster and Supergirl, scaring Lodi. We may have pictures done at Kmart. Oh god this will be off da hook. Oh yes and my cable should be back on sometime in the next 4-5 days, which means Food Network and internet at home once again. Hallelujah!!!!


And my favorite nerds..

Matthew Gray Gubler





And Egon Spengler.. LOL

randomness

• Life is pretty much back to normal now, no big drama to speak of.. for the most part. Took my mom to the doctor today. She had a mini-stroke last week, but she's okay for the most part. That wasn't her first small stroke either.. I just don't always talk about those things. So she has to have an MRI next week on her cardioid artery.. if there's a blockage they can do an angioplasty to get it out, to prevent future bigger strokes. And she has the beginning of Parkinson's disease, that's why her hands shake. She doesn't need medication for that yet. She has to go back to the doctor before Xmas and if she's still shaking a lot, he'll put her on meds. Seems like my poor momma just can't win. She's kicked cancer's ass, and lives with heart disease, kidney failure and diabetes. She won't let this kick her ass either, believe me. I haven't really talked about my parents' ailments as of late, but I don't like worrying people and I've already had enough drama the past week myself. For now all we can do is pray.
  
• In other less depressing news, I finally went walking again this morning. First time in a week and it felt good. I should go again this morning too, before we do grocery shopping. I'm also getting enough sleep, surprisingly enough. Got almost 9 hours today. I had two dreams, one sad and one just odd. Dreamt that the vet called me and told me Turbo was ready to come home. And there he was alive and happy to see me. So bittersweet. The other dream was that I was at some party, and toasting a muffin. Some white guy with a fro and a porn stache started talking to me and telling me he was the drummer from Toto. (70s/80s progressive rock band.. FYI). Now that was random.
  

kinda back to normal

Life is starting to get back to normal, I'm back on my feet. My weekend was pretty cool. Busy, but cool. Okay let's see on Friday morning I ran errands with Michelle and didn't get in bed until like 5pm. Then I went to dinner with Noelle at Mimi's. Then she checked out my new place, and we went to her place and watched Criminal Minds for like 2-3 hours. I was like 3/4 of the way asleep through most of it and it was interesting. I remember Mandy Patinkin and some small boy. The last ep with Reid and Morgan in high-def was hot though. Whoo baby. Okay I know I was invited to go somewhere else but first of all my phone is retarded and I'm learning that I'm not getting half of my texts and voicemails. I think I will give T-Mobile a call since this could affect my work. So I apologize to anyone I haven't called back lately, my phone is really wonky. Okay I'm digressing once again.
On Saturday I worked at KDFC, then hung out with Fernando for a bit when I got back from San Lorenzo. He had gotten bit by a squirrel earlier, helping out a disabled person who had one trapped in his house. Only Fernando would get bit by a squirrel, dude. He went to Kaiser later and got a shot, so he's okay. Anywhoo, after that I went home and took a nappy. Then I watched about 30 min of The Tall Guy with Cathy and went out with Davina, Valeria and Anna to the mission in San Francisco. The Mission neighborhood though, like 16th and Mission, Valencia.. blah blah for those that don't live in the Bay Area. Anywhoo, we had fun and ate at this place called Fritz that had killer french fries and some recording of a lady talking in japanese and english in the bathroom. I farted in there while the lady was blabbering in japanese then she abruptly said "Thank You" in English. Perfect timing. We had fun though.
On Sunday I worked on my demo with Tricia. It sounds great. For the first time cutting a demo, she kicks ass. If any of y'all wanna hear it, I'll email you an mp3. She also kicks ass for getting up EARLY and buying me STARBUCKS... and giving me a GO GIRL. She deserves five stars and a gold medal, seriously. Tricia you are the bomb. Okay so after that I took Michelle to get a baby shower present for my cousin Kim, not to be confused with one of my best pals Kimmie. If Kimmie were pregnant, that would be interesting. Least right now. Anyway afterwards I went home and took a nice long nap. I had a dream about Turby that I was petting him, then I was in the hallway and Shemar Moore (Criminal Minds, Young and the Restless) came out of my room. So it was a sad then very happy dream. Then I woke up on the floor. One heckuva dream. Oh yes, on Friday morning Leeanne and I went to breakfast at Carrows. I can't forget giving Leeanne props for hanging with me and watching me devour cinnamon french toast. I'd again like to thank ALL of my pals for being so supportive the last 5 days or so, you guys are so awesome!!!!!

thank you all so much!

• Well just when things couldn't get any awful this week.. of course they did. Got laid off from KKIQ. Well all the weekend staff did, not just me. So that's a few hundred bucks less in my bank account every month, and no more airtime, at least for now. I'm not like panicking or anything, since my fulltime gig and my San Fran Saturday morning gig is still there, thank you God. I'm putting together a good aircheck, so when I wanna look for more work I'll have something. For now I think I'll enjoy my Sundays off and get more sleep. Maybe have more fun Saturday nights out with friends and not have to worry about getting up at 4:30am the next morning. Eventually I'd like to get back to church. I'm kinda busy the next few Sundays but yeah, I think God's sending me a wake-up call of some sort.
  
• I would like to thank EVERYONE from the bottom of my heart for all of your condolences the last few days. So many people have expressed their loss for Turbo, and given me emotional support. You don't know what this means to me, really. It means the world. I miss him so much, coming home to an empty house isn't easy. Either is losing my first commercial radio on-air gig. But.. you guys are all the best pals I could ever wish for. I didn't realize how many freakin people paid attention to my bulletins and blogs, honestly. But again, I can't express how much gratitude I have for all of your kind words. Thank you all so much for everything.
  

I'm gonna miss you Turbie

• Well, the inevitable has happened. Poor Turbo is in a better place now. The vet said his condition was actually getting worse. His kidneys were starting to give out, and the circulation to even his front paws was going. When I went to visit and say goodbye his front paws were cold and turning purple. He was having more trouble breathing too. He wouldn't have been able to walk or go to the bathroom on his own again. He was in a lot of pain. I made the toughest decision I've ever made in my life and let him go. It was so hard, but I know he's with all the other kitties and doggies and Jesus. Someday I'll see him again.. someday.
  

I will always love you Turbokitty.. forever and ever and ever.







Turbo likes popsicles

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please pray for Turbo

• It's crazy how a person's life can turn upside down in an instant. As of right now, my cat Turbo is extremely ill. It started yesterday afternoon (Tuesday) when I noticed he was throwing up and lethargic. I just thought he ate something that didn't agree with him, and that he'd feel better by this morning. Well later on in the evening Cathy was over, and she noticed that when Turby got up to move, his legs wouldn't move. He was paralyzed. That's when she woke me up and we took him to the emergency vet. The prognosis is not good at all. Turbo has a heart murmur, and he threw a blood clot to his spine. So he can't walk anymore. They are doing the best they can, he's on oxygen, an IV, the whole shabang. Later today they're going to do one of those electrocardiogram things and hopefully start him on some heparin to thin out his blood, hopefully get rid of the clot. The doctor told me honestly that most cats don't pull through. I don't care at this point, I'm not giving up on Turbo yet. He's only 3 1/2 years old. I also had no fathom that he had a heart defect, he goes to the vet for regular checkups and no one told me a thing. Right now I'm in shock, and I feel like crap. Turbo is more important to me than whether or not I feel shitty. So please people, pray for Turbo.
  
• I'm still going on with my routine, obviously. Since I'm typing this from work. Gotta go to Walmart and buy groceries in the morning and start some laundry. Since I've been through enough crises with people in hospitals and other semi-morbid things, I've learned its best to stay busy and go on with your normal routine. This keeps the mind off of things and helps you not become some comatose crying freak.
  
• Oh yes, still don't have my cable/internet at the new place yet. I have to get written permission from my roomie's dad (who we're renting from) so that they can drill a hole in his wall and run the wire through the house. Oh the joy. So at least another week or so before I get my beloved Food Network back.
• Well thanks everyone for the concern and prayers so far, and please keep praying for Turbo. I love him so much, he's my best friend.
  

BBQ jumbo shrimp motherfu*&er

Boy am I bushed. I had a pretty good weekend, but I am EXHAUSTED, yo. Let's see, Friday morning I went walking, then came home and did a little more housework. Friday evening I took Michelle to Claimjumpers, one of my favorite resturaunts in Fremont. Yes it had an hour wait, but it's so worth it. HUGE PORTIONS. Yummy yum yum!! Then I came home and went to bed like an old lady since I had to work the next morning. Saturday I did my airshift at KDFC, came home and did a bit of cleaning and watched a few movies. Then I went to El Torito with Cathy and TJ. Very yummy, I love mexican food as many of you know. Sunday I worked at KKIQ, a bit longer than anticipated. Usually I'm there from 6am to noon, on air from 6-8am and again from 10am to noon. (Fox All Access is from 8-10am, prerecorded for those of you that don't know) Anyway, Kanya had requested the day off and since someone forgot to do voicetracks for her shift.. I voicetracked and was on air again from 1-6pm.. so I was on for like 9 hours yesterday. So awesome. So weird driving and listening to myself on the radio too. Surreal. So I finally left the station around 2:30pm and went home to wait for my bed to be delivered. I gave up at 4:30 and let my roommate wait for it, since my parents and Michelle needed me to take them on errands. My bed was delivered.. about 30 minutes late but those folks are busy. God I love my new bed. Oh so comfy. Oh and I saw 2 Jeff Goldblum movies today. Watched Hideaway at KKIQ this morning, kinda creepy the way him and Jeremy Sisto were telepathically connected. Any scene with Jeff stabbing some woman is freaky. Then when I got home after my errands, Tj and Cathy were watching Deep Cover again.. "BBQ jumbo shrimp, you motherfucker!!!" Okay pardon my french, but that line is hilarious and random. Lots of sex and violence and a Dr Dre/Snoop Dogg soundtrack.. so what do you expect? That movie's so hella 90s. In fact both movies I saw today were hella 90s. In Hideaway Jeff had some gayass sweaters going on. I'm digressing. All in all, good weekend.



Jeff in his gay 90s sweater, with Christine Lahti. Whatever happened to her after Chicago Hope? Hmmm.

life is thrilling

• Weekend time again! Not a whole lot of excitement planned, just working parttime, lots of cleaning/unpacking, and hopefully some relaxation. I've been busy the last few days as usual, no shocker there. Let's see on Wednesday morning I finally got back to the gym, went home and had breakfast, took mom to the doctor, then Walmart, then did grocery shopping for the week. Thursday morning I went walking at the marina again, home for breakfast, dropped off Michelle and got my teeth cleaned at the dentist. The new hygenist was excited when I told her I was a DJ on KKIQ, they were playing it there. So weird to listen to my PD while having my mouth worked on.. haha. After that I went home and finished organizing my room, at least for now. Once I move to my permanent bedroom I'll have more space to put my stuff. Then I watched Deep Cover with my boyfriend Jeff Goldblum and Laurence Fishburne. Jeffy was a bad boy, sleeping with hoes, snorting coke and killing people. Larry killed him at the end anyway. Bad Jeff. He looks hot as a badass, but due to frightening dreams I'd rather see his bad acting in Cats and Dogs. LOL

busy busy busy

• Hey there again, folks. I've been keeping busy, as always. Working, running errands, hanging out with pals, catching up with old pals, trying to squeeze in housework/unpacking and sleep. Let's see on Monday I did about 30 min of housework, then went to the breakfast at 5th Wheel with Davina, boy was it yummy. I was bad and had french toast, so delicious. Then I ran errands with my folks, came home and collasped into bed. Got 8 1/2 hrs of sleep that day, though. Tuesday morning I had plans of going walking, but I actually ended up having more fun keeping Leeanne entertained. We went to breakfast at IHOP in Dublin, and we then went back to San Lorenzo/Hayward/San Leandro for like 6 hours.. LOL. Got my car detailed at Hutch's, and then we went to Chabot and visited our buddy old pal Chad Mark Glen at the radio station. They moved it and it's coming together nicely. About damn time!!! But yeah it was fun catching up with our favorite Mass Comm instructor. And I saw my homeboy Bernard, oh and Carlos who used to be the NARC at San Leandro High and security at Costco. Guess he's in school now too. Oh the fun. After that bit of fun I showed Leeanne my new place. It's still in disarray, but hello I just moved in. She loves Mr. Turby. After that we went to Rasputins and went apeshit in there.. both Leeanne and I should not be allowed in music stores, especially her.. (just kidding, kind of). Then we went to Jamba Juice and Target. Can you believe neither Rasputins or Target had Earth Girls Are Easy? How sad. Well I'll buy it on Half.com or something, I've got enough Jeff Goldblum movies coming anyway.
  
• My plans for this morning are taking mom to Walmart and the doctor, then doing grocery shopping. I should be home by like noon at the latest, and I'll do a bit more housework before bed. The fun just never ends, does it?
  
• Oh yes and I started watching Cats and Dogs with my Jeffy in it, it was only $5 and he's so cheesy since it's a family film..
  

Hooray!!!!!

• Well, I'm officially a resident of San Lorenzo again. I am now moved. Now I've just gotta finish the long process of cleaning, and organizing, and unpacking. My arms and back hurt like hell, but heavy lifting and stress can do that to ya. I'd like to thank the best friends ever to walk this earth.. Fernando for giving me a bootyload of boxes at the last minute, and helping TJ out with heavy furniture .. Grace for coming over and helping me with mopping the old place, and getting those giant pizzas and beer... Cathy for helping all weekend long with stuff, especially hanging up all the clothes in my closet and the iced mocha she brought me yesterday afternoon... and of course TJ for doing way too much hauling and lifting, and getting things off of tall shelves. Get used to it buddy, your roommate is a midget. So yeah I'm so glad the hardest part of my transition is over.. oh boy.
  
• Aside from that, Friday night was Noelle's bday party. It was pretty fun. We played the game where you kneel on a chair and drop clothespins in the jar.. I did pretty good if I say so myself. We also did karaoke, and that was awesome. I did some B52s, Kool and the Gang, Villiage People, so jammin. I'll have some videos up probably next weekend, once I get my cable/internet hooked up at my new place. Oh and we had catered mexican food from La Pinata, and 2 cakes, and ice cream. Oh my god it was heaven. YUM!!
  
• And, I worked at my parttime jobs too. KDFC was pretty normal, and KKIQ was lots of fun, as it always is. Getting paid to talk is always a bonus, even if the internet connection in the studio takes a crap and you have to get the weather/traffic from the newsroom next door. :)
  

whoo weekend

• Hooray the weekend is upon us. This is gonna be one doozy of a weekend, due to the big moving day on Saturday. I have anywhere from 2-4 volunteers, depending on who shows up. This will be interesting, I promise you. I still will be doing my part-time gigs on top of moving, that's how insane I am. I'm also attending Noelle's bday party tonight and possibly hanging out with Mikey. Sunday I'll be doing my airshift at KKIQ and cleaning my old place (well cleaning as much as I can, anyway. Not expecting miracles) I also have A LOT of laundry to do, probably won't even start it until Monday morning at my new place. Oh the fun.
  
• I got more packing done tonight. Packed all of my nonperishable food, and all of my dishes. I'm probably unplugging the TV and computer, etc tonight before I go to bed. I want everything ready to go on Saturday afternoon. I guess I'm too organized/systematic, but that's how my personality is, I always have a plan.
  
• Other than my moving excitement, life is the same. I'm still fat, my parents are still hanging in there and I'm still taking them places all the time. I'm still working 3 jobs and I still have an unnatural obsession with Jeff Goldblum. That's life in a nutshell. Next time you hear from me, I'll be an official resident of San Lorenzo once again. (I lived there 9/03 - 9/05 in case you guys didn't know that) Hooray!

I like crap! I love crap! I need crap!

• Well here I am on an early Monday morning jammin to Michael McDonald and blogging. Boy am I pooped. I've been up since 4:30am yesterday not counting my one hour nap in the afternoon. My weekend was pretty routine. I got A LOT of boxes moved to the new place, at least 2 vanloads. And a vanload of stuff got dropped off at the Salvation Army. I will be moving the last of my stuff + my furniture this Saturday. Yay.
  
• What else has been going on? Not a whole lot, really. Saturday I worked at KDFC and then did a lot of loading/unloading crap in my parents' van. Then I went home for a Goldblumathon, but Cathy convinced me to meet her at the Iron Horse for a few drinks (I already had started one there at home, but after all that moving I felt I needed it). I had a few more drinks there at the bar, some drunk guy bought em for me. Then he kissed me. Okay he was drunk and I was the only one in there with boobies who was single. Still, least I have something interesting to put on Myspace surveys now. Sunday I did my airshift at KKIQ (good one I might add), hit the gym, and moved even more boxes to the new place. Then I took a small nap, and took the family to dinner. Then I took Michelle with me to Target. Oh the fun. So yeah I'm a bit tired.
  
• On another note.. I have to share this clip.. this is one of my favorite movies ever, simply because it's so retarded. LMAO

im weird

• TGIF folks. I am so glad it's the weekend. Ok so my weekend will be a bit busy, it's getting to be crunch time, only a week or so left to move all my crap. I'm almost done conquering the closet. I don't want to pack ALL my clothes just yet, same as with food, dishes, toiletries, blah blah. I really need to get a vanload of crap over the Goodwill or St. Vincent De Paul or something though. I swear I have like 15-20 bags of stuff taking over my place. I want to give away my bed too but first I need to buy a new one and get it to my new place. So yeah I'm stressing about the little details just a bit. Oh well, least I have 80s Jeff Goldblum movies to keep me happy. Haha. He was so cute in The Tall Guy.
  
• Oh yah, wanna know something funny? Last Friday while at the Grape Festival I signed up with one of these talent agency things just to be spontaneous. I got a call back on Wednesday for some audition in Sacramento, but I had to work in San Fran that evening. Damn man, bad timing. Who knows, when they call back I can at least go in, maybe get a hookup on some headshots or something. Funky Fresh Lisa S., coming to a theater near you. LMAO
• Other than that, nothing truly thrilling going on. I did go walking yesterday, and I plan on going this morning as well. Gotta take my dad to the doctor too. I swear I need a chauffer hat, dude.
  

and so it goes....

• Happy hump day folks. Nothing too exciting going on that I didn't mention a few days ago. I've been busy working and packing, and catching up on sleep in between. I worked in San Fran earlier tonight, and I'm working there again tomorrow evening. Extra hours don't hurt, and they need someone to man the board for the live symphony broadcast and Dane's busy. So it's me. As long as the jocks actually pay attention and listen when I count them down, everything should be fine. When they're too busy schmoozing and miss their cue, yeah it can sound bad.
  
• This morning my exciting plans include grocery shopping and then going home for sleepytime. Thrilling, yes I know. Thursday I will probably go walking at the marina again and work more on packing, that's my main goal since I have like a little under 2 weeks left. Oh yeah, I had a dream that Jeff Goldblum was on Empty Nest instead of Richard Mulligan and I played the nurse lady. LMAO. Those store brand Golden Grahams gave me a sugary acid trip or something.. haha.
  

last weekend was jammin!

• Had a great weekend. Friday I did the Grape Festival with Kimmie in Lodi. I ate so much crap, it was great. Cheeseburger, snickers-flavored iced mocha, funnel cake, and chocolate/vanilla softserve on a waffle cone. Oh the yummy goodness. We met some clown who resembles George W. Bush and a giant parrot. We also took interesting footage asking survey questions.. which will be revealed once the little documentary is done.. haha. All in all a great time. Saturday I worked in San Fran, then took a vanload of stuff to my new place. I have T-minus 2 weeks until I need to be outta there, so the more I move, the happier I am. I think I'll try to conquer my closet later this afternoon. Sunday I did my airshift at KKIQ (a pretty good one I may add), went to the gym, then home for just a little more housework. I'm going to be moving hella boxes/furniture in the next few weeks so I find no reason to mop the floor if it's going to be messy again anyway. Am I wrong to think this way? Plus I have like 10 bags of crap for Goodwill in the middle of the floor, kinda hard to move and mop around it.
  
• I did go to the gym yesterday which is awesome. I plan on walking at the marina with Michelle after work today, and hopefully Thursday and Friday. I'm working a few extra shifts in San Fran on Tues/Wed evenings this week so I'll be kinda busy. The next few weeks will be really crazy.

Okay here's a video of Kimmie and I doing flashdance on Friday night. I get really scary when consuming sugar/caffeine.


Flashdancin

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when will it end?

• Yay the weekend is upon us again. My weekend will be busy, as usual. Friday I'm going to be in Lodi for the Grape Festival with Kimmie and her niece Joyce. I'll be pooped, but it'll be a blast. Saturday I'm doing my shift at KDFC, and I need to move lots of boxes to the new place. I'm hoping to actually get enough sleep on Saturday night, praying that my landlord isn't partying again. Keep your fingers crossed, people. Sunday I have my airshift @ KKIQ, hopefully working out at the gym afterward and a little housework. Then a nice long nap. I need more sleep. Especially since my favorite time of the month is here. I'm not in the best of moods.
  
• Here's another reason I'm not in a good mood. I keep getting more bills from my stupid emergency room visit last month. Hospital billed me over $1400 originally, but due to discounts and my work coverage, I'm only paying a little over a hundred. Praise god. Then I got a bill for $350 from the emergency room doctor himself. The douche who said "Well maybe if you slim down your cramps won't be as severe." I believe I answered with "I've been trying to slim down but my hormones won't let me DAMMIT!!!" then he left the room. I was kinda out of it but that's pretty much what I told the guy. Moving on.. got another $50 bill from the pathologist who ran my blood work. When will the billing end? If you don't have insurance, you get screwed every which way but Sunday. I'm so glad my work covers a good chunk of it, but it still sucks.
  
• Other than that, life is just peachy. Had a work dinner meeting at El Torito earlier tonight, and boy was it tasty. I was chowin down. Do I care if I was stuffing my face while my boss was talking forever? Nope. I'll post some pics next week, I need to email some out, and I'm sure I'll get pics from Victoria and Jon soon. I'm still stressed in the middle of this moving thing. Packing actually isn't too hard at all, I have maybe 70% of it done. I just need to get all my stinkin furniture moved in the next 2 weeks or so. Things will work out, it's just a tiring and stressful process.
  

i dont make any sense.

• Nothing too exciting to talk or complain about. I've been pretty busy lately with life, working a lot. Helping run errands with my folks. Moving boxes over to my new place. I went walking yesterday morning, I'm hoping to go today and Thursday too. Friday I'm not getting much sleep since I'm heading off to Lodi in the afternoon, so no exercise that day. I should be moving more boxes over to San Lorenzo tonight, I'm hoping to borrow my folks' van. I'm also going to take my folks to Dennys, I'm told. Coolness. Thursday night we're having a work dinner/meeting thing at El Torito. Free food= yay. This blog is not making sense, I apologize. Guess I'm just scatterbrained, since there's so much going on. Oh yeah, saw some Faery Tale Theater thing on Youtube with Jeff Goldblum as the Big Bad Wolf.. it's great.. LMAO. And the one with Howard Hesseman looking like the Burger King mascot, that's just grand. I love Youtube.
  

i hate parties

• As always let me begin this with "Dude, I'm tired." Been up since 4:30am yesterday, not counting half dozing here at work the past 3 hours or so. I'm working a 12 hour shift and going home to do a little housework, so I won't be in sleepyland until about 1pm. Oh yes, and I'm guessing due to stress and an abundance of hormones, my face is breaking out. Oh the joy.
  
• I did have a good weekend, though. For the most part. Friday night I went to Baker's Square with Michelle and did a little more DVD shopping at Rasputins. Got Transylvania 6-5000 and Powder. The first was SO CHEESY!!! Saturday I worked at KDFC, then came home and did packing/cleaning for a few hours, and had another movie marathon. I also had the pleasant surprise of finding out my landlord was having yet another party. This time at least three kids (teenage boys actually) tried to get in my place. Even me slamming the door in their faces and locking it wasn't effective since they kept knocking and turning the handle. So damn rude. That and the loud salsa music blaring forever, with random laughing made it virtually impossible to fall asleep. I ended up blasting the classical station on my digital cable almost full blast to drown em out. When I left the house at 5am Sunday morning, the party was still going on. What the hell? Now you see why I want to move. I did my airshift at KKIQ that morning, then went to Kimmie's for a 7 hour bad movie marathon. We watched Return To Oz, Transylvania 6-5000, Mannequin, and Harry and the Hendersons. What a selection. I barely got here in time from Lodi due to stupid traffic in Stockton. Boo. So my weekend was fun, but I hate my landlord right now. The End.
  

hahaha

• I'm so glad it's the weekend, lemme tell ya. Maybe I'll get more sleep. I kinda got enough sleep yesterday. Had to go to a jock meeting (free pizza for lunch and 1 1/2 hrs pay!) and by the time I got home and went back to sleep it was like 2pm. I ended up getting about 7 hours total, between the morning and afternoon. I'm not nearly as stressed out as I was a few days ago. Things are starting to come together.
  
• This weekend should be fun though. Tonight I have no idea what I'm doing, hopefully it involves sleep. I got my new license plate and registration, I need to borrow Cathy so she can put it on my car sometime in the next few days. I'm not too handy with tools. Saturday morning I'm working at KDFC and then I'm going to be moving some things, so I'll be busy. Sunday I'm working at KKIQ then hangin out with Kimmie in Lodi for the afternoon. Sunday night I'm working 12 hours at Family Radio, and by 11am on Monday, I'll be very pooped. Whoo my schedule's a bit cramped. Just slightly.
  

This is for you Cathy...




Oooooh baby. Hahahahaha!!!!!!

I am hardcore

• I am just beyond tired right now. It's so hard to sleep at home. I run errands for my folks and often don't get into bed until noon, and by 4pm there are screaming kids outside my door while I sleep. Well try to sleep anyway. I'm leading myself down the path to another almost breakdown. I won't let it happen, though. In about a month, I'll be living somewhere else. Not too far away from where I am now. I'll still be helping out my parents with errands in the mornings, working the same hours, blah blah. I just need a place where I can actually get sleep, more than 4 hours at a time. I'll have one respectful roommate, who won't be screaming outside my bedroom door at 4pm or having wild parties on the weekends when I'm actually home. Moving is always stressful as we all know, but it'll be worth it when I can actually sleep. It'll also be nice to have more than one room, and not have a washer/dryer in my bedroom/living room/kitchen/you get the idea. Now to a few of you this is a surprise, but oh well I don't like telling everyone everything. I'm at my breaking point where it's either move or go insane.
  
• I haven't really exercised much since Sunday afternoon, but I've been busy working and such. Gotta do groceries in the morning after work then my mom needs to see the doctor, she's sick. Then I'm maybe doing lunch with Lorie. I'm hoping to make it to the marina to go walking tomorrow and Friday morning for sure. I was going to work a 12 hr shift Wed nite/Thurs morning but that got canceled. See how complicated my schedule can be?
  
• Wanna know something else? I actually look forward to work. So I can forget about my stressful life for 8 hours, and have some peace and quiet. Maybe I'm asking for too much in life. I'm not asking God to give me perfection, that doesn't exist. I'd just like to be able to work, help out my folks, and go home and sleep. That is sleep 7-8 hours. Not sleep a few hours and be awakened by screaming children and hammering outside. And like 5 phone calls. And my older sister coming over to bring me cucumbers. I've got to think about it like this, God doesn't give us what we want, he gives us what we need, what we can handle. Apparently I'm hardcore since I'm handling this much shit.
  

Dr. Sexypants.. hahaha

• Boy am I pooped. It's just one of those long weekends. Okay for most people that is a good thing. For me, it means lots of work. Holidays = more shifts. I picked up an extra shift in San Fran later today from 11am-5pm, then I'm going to dinner with Davina and Lorie, who I haven't seen in forever. So when am I sleeping? I may half doze here for a few hours, then sleep a few hours at home after work, then maybe a few hours in the evening. This time tomorrow I will be exhausted. Oh well, I do need the dough.
  
• I did have a good weekend, it's just been busy. Friday night I bought a few crappy movies at Rasputins, and watched Jurassic Park: The Lost World since it has Jeff Goldblum and I'm on a Jeff Goldblum kick lately. Why, I'm not sure. Saturday morning I worked @ KDFC, then home for an hour or so before Noelle picked me up to go to Family Values. That was a rock concert featuring Korn and Evanescence. Luckily Noelle drove and had VIP parking (very worth the $20). I will have pics up in the next few days, right now I'm pressed for time so they'll have to wait a while. So I got home from the concert around midnight, but my landlord was having a FAT party for his 5 year old's bday, lots of music, food and LOUD people. Right outside my bedroom door. *sigh* I did fall asleep miraculously, and got 4 hours sleep. Sunday morning I did my airshift at KKIQ (had to be there before 6am), then went to the gym, and home to do housework. After that I took my parents on errands to OSH, Big 5, and Walmart. Got home around 5ish and of course my landlord was partying again. I managed to mentally block out the loud music and screaming children and sleep for 4 more hours before getting up and making dinner. So here I am at work, kinda tired. Tired is my word of the week.
  

just takin it easy

• I am SOOOO tired right now. Yes I love hot weather, but not when I'm trying to sleep in the middle of the day. I didn't get to bed until noon yesterday since I was walking at the marina, picking up my presciption at Longs, buying groceries, buying another fan for my mother, and making a Starbucks run. I woke up around 5 and TJ came over, we had stuff to discuss. Then TJ, Cathy and I ended up going to dinner at Texas Roadhouse (hella good, FYI). Then I got home, showered, and tried to go back to sleep for a few more hours. Wasn't happening. My place is like a sauna, as some of you know. Ugh. I'm supposed to go to a jock meeting in the morning, but if I'm still pooped I may just skip. I'm the only weekender who goes anyway. Though I would miss the one hour of pay and free lunch. I'll see how I'm feeling. I have to run by the bank and get gas after work but hopefully I'll be in bed by 8am.
  
• My health is okay I guess. No more horrendous woman problems, those are done for at least 3 weeks or so.. haha. I do have awful allergies so I've spent the last 3 days honking my nose. Yesterday I had terrible post-nasal drip and ended up puking in the shower. Thought I'd share. That and I almost puked while we were out at dinner. I'm feeling so exhausted and shaky right now from lack of sleep it's not even funny. I swear I'm not a hypochondriac, but my body just doesn't like me lately. I think I need to SLOW DOWN on things a bit.. God's been giving me hints.. obviously.
  
• Oh yeah, and I apologize for doing like 12 surveys last night. I was catching up from the weekend, and hey my job is boring. Haha.
  

guess who's back, back again

• Yes I am back.. better than ever. In case you don't know.. no I didn't go to L.A. this last weekend. I fell ill on Thursday and spent 7 hours in the San Leandro Hospital ER. Now I won't go on about details of why I was there. Let's just say it was woman issues, I was in lots of pain and lost a substantial amount of blood. Enough to go into shock. A few good things came out of this. I lost 5 lbs over the weekend, and my blood pressure is much lower. I could go on about where I got poked/prodded, and how much it hurt, but that's too much for my male readers. Haha.
  
• I am disappointed that I didn't go to SoCal, but I figure God does stuff for a reason. I got a lot of rest, I'll tell you that. And I'm sick of Dukes of Hazzard, Sunset Tan and MTV's Making The Band with grown 20 something ghettofabulous men crying when they don't make the cut. I also watched Beethoven's 3rd, 4th and 5th. A lot of Judge Reinhold. Oh and the movie Night Shift with Henry Winkler playing a dork, Michael Keaton in a loincloth, and Shelley Long playing a hooker. Now that was lovely. I also learned that Burt Bacharach wrote "That's What Friends Are For". Interesting.
  
• I did spend some extra time with my folks this weekend, which was good. Took my parents and Michelle to dinner at Dennys on Saturday night, and on Sunday I took them to Newpark Mall. My mom got me some new flipflops and sneakers. Nice since I only had 2 pairs of shoes anyway. My flipflops are almost worn completely down. Thanks Payless Shoe Source for your buy 1 get 1 free sale!
• I haven't been to the gym or exercising since last Tuesday, which sucks. I am planning on going walking with Michelle most of this week. I need to get back in the groove.
  
• Oh yeah one more thing. Neither the ER doctor nor my gynocologist could find anything "wrong". Just heavy bleeding. More probs next month may warrant further investigations into the mystery of what I call my uterus.
  

my uterus is being taken over by an alien being

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• This is my last blog before my mini-vacation in SoCal this weekend. I'm leaving on Thursday evening. I'm excited.. not trying to spend lots of dough, but I do need to get away. Sometimes I think I get in over my head with all my jobs and personal responsibilities. So I like to reward myself. Probably too much. Oh well.
  
• So I went to the gym on Tuesday morning. I probably won't be hitting the gym again until next week. Michelle and I plan on doing the groceries right after I leave work today, which is fine. I'm having the cramps from hell anyway.
  
• Things are looking good besides that. I may make an announcement soon about decisions I made, once things are set in stone, and I tell people that need to be told. Nothing scary or traumatizing, I promise. Just some of you are a little overreactive. You know who you are.
  

:(

• Like I mentioned before, I have the cramps from hell. I've never doubled over and seen black spots before, but I did today. In my car. Not cool. I was really tempted to call in sick, but didn't for several good reasons. It is hard to find someone to cover my shift on short notice. No one likes overnight shifts. Also, I'm not a big weinee. Unless I'm physically dying, I go to work. I'm just that way. Now if my boss comes in at 5:30 and I still feel like crap I may go home early and use an hour or so of sick pay. But that is it. I am hardcore. I have never in my life been in this much pain. Except toothaches.. but this is second place.
  

short work week!

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• My work week will be a little shorter, since I'm leaving for SoCal on Thursday evening. I know I'm going to have a blast. I need a getaway, and I love Disneyland. I also have never been to San Diego, let alone Seaworld or the San Diego Zoo, so this will be awesome.
  
• My weekend was pretty okay. Friday night I stayed home and watched lots of TV, and ended up going to bed nice and early. Got 9 hours of sleep actually. On Saturday I worked at KDFC, and that evening I went to the baseball game with Sandi. We lost to Kansas City 7-3. BOOOOO. Still was fun, and afterward we went for ice cream at Clancys. I love their peppermint fudge. Sunday I worked @ KKIQ (kept screwing up, ugh), went to the gym, did housework, and napped off/on. Right now I'm at work doing a 12 hour shift. I'm happy to do it, because I really need the extra dough.
  
• I won't be working out too much this week. Tuesday and Wednesday morning I'll probably go walking with Michelle, that's about it. I'm sure I'll be doing lots of walking over the weekend in Anaheim and San Diego anyway.
  
• I was worried/stressed about crap for the last week or two, but my noggin finally kicked in and I realized that I have nothing to worry about. I'm so silly sometimes.
  

Amen

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• Yay weekend time again! Not too many things going on, I'm trying to save my money since I'm going out of town next weekend, and other things may be transpiring soon too. Saturday I am going to the A's game, so yay!!! The rest of my weekend will be pretty routine. Staying close to home, watching movies or whatever. Lots of time to relax. Oh yeah and working parttime too, that's very important. I need that money. LOL
• I skipped walking at the marina yesterday, but both Michelle and I were exhausted. That and we had to do the grocery shopping/run other errands anyway. And I had to be up in the early afternoon to tend to some business so I wanted sleep. We're going walking this morning, and I'm sure I'll hit up the gym on Sunday afternoon. So I'm pluggin along.
  

:(

• Nothing too excitingly negative to report, really. But I always try to make positive/negative comments about my life. Helps myself and others realize that life ain't perfect. There's always a positive, always a negative. I think sometimes I worry about money and such, and that's a good time to turn to God. Actually anytime is a good time for God. Especially when worrying or stressing about stuff. So ya know what? If you don't agree with Christianity, don't read this section I guess. LOL I'm putting it all on God's shoulders, giving him my burdens and stresses. He always has the right answer. Amen.
  

everyone remembers lisa

yay

• The past couple days have been okay. Nothing too important going on that I can think of. I did walk a few miles at the marina yesterday, and I'm planning on going today, Thursday and Friday as well. It's pretty fun, and beats the monotony of the gym. I do visit the gym on Sunday afternoons, and whenever it's raining or Michelle doesn't feel like walking.
  
• Yesterday I was taking my parents' car to be repaired, and since we had to wait an hour and a half, Michelle and I decided to go to Marina Square across the street for coffee and browsing various stores. I ran into 2 people at Starbucks, it was so funny. Noelle was there with a coworker sitting outside, and Mr. Milo my high school P.E. teacher was behind me in line. He recognized me before I even noticed. "Sovulewskiiiiiii!" Then he gave me a hug. Freakin funny. How he remembered me 10 years later, I have no idea. LOL
• Actually got enough sleep yesterday too. Went to bed at noon, woke up several times for phone calls and Michelle coming over to check email.. but finally woke up a little after 9pm. Man it was refreshing to get enough sleep. Guess my body needed it.
  

:(

• Nothing too bad going on at all. A few of you have questioned me quietly about my "decision", and I have let you know. It's not such a big deal actually. Just I don't want to disclose it yet due to some people who like to overreact. Plus nothing is set in stone anyway.
  

i frustrate myself sometimes

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• Weekend is pretty much here. The week didn't seem to go fast enough for me, anyway. I guess my fulltime job tends to be monotonous, and when I'm not at work I always have somewhere to go, something to do. At least on weekends I can unwind in front of the TV or go out with friends if I want. I've received two offers for tonight (going out that is), and I'm not sure what I'll do. "Hyphy" bowling @ Manor Bowl with Elida and some guy she wants me to meet, or Noelle wants me to hit up the Saddlerack with her. Since I have to get up at 5am on Saturday, I'm not sure about either.
  
• I have been gettin my "exercise" on, don't you worry. I've been walking at the San Leandro Marina most of the week. Okay it was only on Tuesday-Thursday mornings so far. I'll go again this morning, probably only walking a mile or so. Then I have to take my parents van to the dealership.. door on glove compartment fell off. How it did.. I have no idea. All I know is I'm taking it to be fixed.
  

ugh

• Nothing too negative.. I haven't had a weight rant in a while and I don't think this will turn into a rant. This was too funny.. I was at Petsmart looking at the poor kitties up for adoption, and this little lady walks in looking at them with her small kids. There was this one large black/white kitty who was like 15-20 lbs, huge guy. Well she goes, "Wow that is one FAT KITTY!!" then quickly looks over at me and quietly goes "Oh I'm sorry". It took everything in me not to bust out laughing. She was so sincere too, I knew she wasn't insulting. Obviously she thought I was a bigger person (well duh I am), but why she thought I'd be offended by her pointing at some fat kitty, I'll never know. Freakin hilarious though. Why am I putting this in my negative section? Well I guess any acknowledgment of my chunkiness, regardless of humor involved kinda sucks. It's like yes I accept myself, at the same time it's like damn. I thought I was doing good with my diet/wishful weight loss but I'm still thought of as "fat" by the general public. So it still kinda sucks in a way. Does anyone get what I'm saying? Guess I'm just odd the way my mind works sometimes.
  
• Then earlier tonight Noelle and I were having a discussion about my eating habits, and she did note that when I go out on weekends I tend to eat lavish desserts, which throw off my previous good eating during the week. This is true. I try to eat between 1200-1500 cal a day. I have meat and veggies for dinner, lots of fruit/veggies throughout my day (or night rather), a nonfat yogurt, and later after I exercise I eat shredded wheat bran (or occasionally eat a moderately healthy breakfast if I go out with a friend). On the weekends, I don't go nuts, but I live a little. Or I guess I live a lot. I need to stop it. I have nonfat ice cream at home. Restaurants have free bread. I miss bread. So I eat it when I go out. *sigh*
  

i've been a bad bad girl

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• The past few days have been pretty normal. Monday I worked in San Fran and then Oakland, barely made it on time. That was thanks to BART running 10 minutes late and being full of Giants fans. Boo. I really had to fart on the train but didn't since it was crowded and stuffy. Since I don't care for the Giants, I should have ripped a nice ripe SBD. Haha.
  
• Well I did go walking at the San Leandro Marina with Michelle yesterday morning. Walked 2 miles, and saw a good family friend Jerry Pickett. He's been friends with my dad long before I was born. Real nice guy. I'm planning on doing more walking this morning, probably only a mile since Happy has a vet appointment kinda early. (he's my parents' dog) Yes I still go to the gym, but for the past week or so Michelle has wanted to go walking, and I'm encouraging her 110%. Might as well keep up the momentum as long as possible.
  
• I was kind of a bad girl last night and went to Outback Steakhouse with Amy. There was bread, and a bloomin onion appetizer, and I had chicken with wild rice, veggies, and caesar salad. So I ate carbs galore. I'm still exercising, and I think I'll just eat lots of veggies tonight, do lots of exercise and pray for the best. Oh yeah we went to the 99 Cent store too.. I got a few cow drinking glasses, alphabet magnets, an Arthur plate (the cartoon on PBS, the anteater.. anyway), sugarless chewing gum, sugarfree mints, and ice cream. Don't worry it expires next year. Not exactly lowfat ice cream but it was $1. If I die from eating 99 Cent store ice cream, someone sue Breyers. Thanks.
  
• I still have that freakin Tim Curry song stuck in my head, so it's my profile song now.. in case you didn't notice.. hahaha.

fun weekend!

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• I had one heck of a good weekend, dude. I am beyond tired, but what else is new? Let's see on Friday night I stayed home, chilled out and watched TV, and went to bed at a relatively decent hour. Saturday was pretty interesting. I worked at KDFC, then took my parents to Walgreens and KFC. After that I went to Grace's brother Stephen's house and watched baby Joey while Fern, Grace and Stephen worked on a ramp for his porch. Afterwards we went out for korean BBQ with Grace's parents. It was really good, and it's like 30 sec away from my house. I'm going to have to go to that place again soon. Later on I took Michelle to Clancy's for ice cream. Yes I'm bad. Oh well it was the weekend. On Sunday morning I worked at KKIQ, then went to Lodi. Kimmie's friend Tony had a little pingpong thing going on at a bar called Mojos. Didn't have many people, but we got free tacos and chilled there for a few hours. Afterward I got us ice cream from Coldstone Creamery. At her house we watched Breakin, then went for Jack in Da Crack for dinner, then we watched The Worst Witch starring Mrs. Garrett from the Facts Of Life and Tim Curry. So hilarious. Dude this is the best part of the WHOLE MOVIE..

look out weekend, here I come

yah

• The weekend is upon us once again. Is it me or are the days just going by much faster? Friday came outta nowhere. This is good. In general I've been okay lately, just exhausted. Thursday was pretty interesting. Mikey was staying at my place early Thursday morning since he had gotten out of a concert way late. I should have gone walking with Michelle at the Marina, but I opted for a nap and breakfast with Mikey at Dennys instead. Then I took Michelle grocery shopping at Pac N Save. There we saw Fernando my best plutonic male friend in the world, and he helped us pick strawberries. He works in the produce section, FYI. Then after buying groceries, I went back home, and was literally exhausted. I took a nap for like 2 hours, while Mikey was still there watching the Game Show Network. I gave him a ride to BART in the early afternoon, then went back to bed. Then Cathy came over around 5:30ish, and I hopped in the shower. When I got out and finished getting ready, Amy was there and Alisha arrived shortly after. I made some kosher weiners for Amy and I, and some salad. We watched that show about song lyrics on FOX with Wayne Brady, and channel surfed after that. Then Amy left, and I left for work a few hours later. So yeah my day was interesting. Today I'm planning on going to bed around 11am.. maybe. Can't remember when Dad's doctor appointment is, I hope it's early enough. Mom needs to go to the bank and Cathy needs ciggs. My life is oh so exciting.
  
• My weekend should be okay. I decided to not go to that party thing on Saturday night, since I need rest, and I don't know the people anyway. I was discussing this with Fernando and he agreed. But thanks anyway Elida, if you're reading this. Sunday afternoon I'll be at some event with Kimmie in Lodi, but I'll be home by the evening so I can get some rest and do housework.
  

Busy beaver

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• I did hit the gym yesterday morning. Tried a different exercise bike, but it hurt my butt a lot so I'll have to switch it up to something else next time I go. I'm going walking at the SL Marina with Michelle this morning instead of going to the gym. She needs to be encouraged to exercise, and I need more exercise period.
  
• Looks like my weekend may be kinda booked already. Saturday I may be going to a baptism party since a friend of mine is trying to set me up with some guy. Sunday I'll be going to some party thing in Lodi with Kimmie. On the plus side both parties will have free Mexican food, so I won't be hungry.
  

Yuck

• On the negative side, these hormone pills suck. I've only been on them three days and I feel pretty crappy. Nauseated in the mornings, headaches, bloating, etc. They say symptoms subside after a few months. I sure hope so. Oh and even more fatigue. At first I thought it was my schedule, then my anemia on top of it, now my medication. Ugh. I am one whiny baby.
  

I'

hooray

• I had a fantastic weekend. Before you ask, no I don't have any pics yet because I came to work straight from the concert. You'll get em in the next couple days. Friday night I ended up chillin at home, watching TV and going to bed early. Well I kind of went to bed early. Mikey M called me around midnight and I picked him up at BART, then he watched TV while I was passed out on my bed. Saturday I worked in San Fran, then went to Lodi with Noelle to visit my buddy ole pal Kimmie. The three of us and Cara went to lunch/dinner at Strings, a great italian place after we did some shopping at Target. Then Noelle and I got lost for about 30 minutes trying to find Kevin's house to drop off a present. Later we watched a NKOTB special and the Care Bears movie, and I also did a Starbucks run. It was a good time for all. On Sunday Noelle, Amy and I went to Projekt Revolution at the Shoreline Ampetheater in Mountain View. Great bands, lots of fun. I got sunburned a little bit, but oh well. I'm exhausted, but yes I had a great weekend.
  
• My doctor visit on Friday afternoon wasn't as traumatic as I thought it was going to be. I'm on birth control pills, just thought I'd let the world know that. Hope it helps somewhat.
  

boo

• Nothing too negative to report, except that I haven't been to the gym since last Thursday. I will be going Tues-Friday this week which is great. I feel bloated today, but god knows what my hormones are doing right now.
  

hooray for friday

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• Well the weekend is upon us once again. I do have great stuff to look forward to. I have a date tonight (pending), so I'm looking forward to that. Saturday I'm hangin in Lodi with Kimmie, her pal Cara, and probably Noelle. Sunday is Linkin Park and a ton of other bands, that should be fun too. I'm going with Amy and Noelle.
  
• I did hit the gym on Wednesday and Thursday morning, and I feel great. Well still tired even after getting sleep, but I think that's the anemia or whatever. Won't get back to the gym till Tuesday morning, but that's okay. This morning I need to run a few errands and squeeze in about 4-5 hrs of sleep until my Dr. appt from hell.
  

boo

• Yeah the doctor appointment this afternoon I am not looking forward to. Both the discomfort, the fear, and um yeah paying $130 up front. (though I get $104 back in a few weeks)
  
• Also just having genuine conflict, I was selfish and said things I didn't need to say.. well things I should have said a long time ago but held inside.. but could have picked a better moment to bring them up. Conflictee was pissed, but I think he/she takes things way too personally at times. The end.
  

happy to be me

Yay

• Well things are looking up for now. I'm not as pissed off as I was a few days ago. I got my Zune player all configured and such, and I'm adding tons of music every day. Still need to get back to the guy at the dealership about my XM radio, guess I'll call him later this morning. I also got 8 1/2 hrs of sleep on Tuesday, that did help greatly.
  
• Oh and I did go to the gym on Tuesday too, and I'm planning on going Wed-Fri too. I know I haven't lost much weight, but I have lost inches, that's for sure. No matter what the hardcore "I'm going to diet until I die" folks say, I think I'm doing good. I used to be a whole lot fatter last year.. look at some of my older pics. Also, I've come to the conclusion that I'll never be a size 2.. probably not a size 12 even. If I got down to a size 16 I'd pass out from shock. I am fat, yes.. but I am so big boned and muscular. I'm built like an NFL defensive tackle, just a lot shorter and with boobs. Yes I have a big tummy and a big booty, but my arms/legs are pretty muscular. And I have very broad shoulders. According to that BMI thing I'm like almost 100 lbs overweight. If I lose 30 lbs, that will be a miracle. This turned into another rant, didn't it? Haha.
  

Boo

• Nothing really bad to report at all. I have that doctor appt on Friday and I'm nervous. That's about it. Ugh.
  

:)

• Well, my weekend was okay. For the most part. I got a little rest. And I'm feeling better. I spent both Friday and Saturday evenings at home watching TV and chillin, so that did help. I still love my car, did I mention that?
• And yes I did go to the gym on Sunday afternoon. I'm hoping to go Tuesday-Friday mornings, if all goes well.
  

ugh

• Well my beloved iPod decided to crap out on me sometime between Monday evening and Saturday morning. Since I didn't go to the gym in the middle of the week, I didn't use it. It refused to turn on when I tried on Saturday, even after I tried resetting it, charging it, blah blah. Well when I purchased it in March of last year, I got a 3 year service plan from Best Buy. I took it there, and they said they'd have to send it to Apple and it would cost an arm and a leg. They advised me to refund my service plan (which I am) and take it to the Apple Store. Well the punks at the Apple Store told me they couldn't "fix the issue" and that I could get another one for $150. Okay, it's not like I dropped the thing out a window. I used it practically everyday. And it decided to stop working randomly. What's the point of having a freakin warranty? So yeah I bought a Zune (microsoft), and I'm hoping this will work out better for me. I can't live without music on BART or at the gym. I was using my ghetto CD player at the gym on Sunday, but it keeps skipping and then the batteries drained. *sigh* Oh yeah, Zune is compatible with iTunes and regular mp3s which is great, but since my ex had all his music in there, he kinda screwed up my iTunes in general. And it's being a bitch when I try to get rid of music. I'm gonna have to delete hella songs from my hard drive in the morning, the only way I'm gonna do this without eliminating the program altogether and doin it from scratch, one CD at a time. GRRRRRR
• I think at this point, I'm really stressed out. I know this is just one of those points in life where things aren't easy, but it's a doozy. Okay maybe I'm just one big baby. My parents are both disabled, my older sister pretty much has quit her job to take care of them. I'm their chauffeur. I recently had to buy a new car. Great car, but the financial stress sucks since I'll never be able to pay off my credit cards anytime soon. I just don't have the money. Then my iPod dies. And my phone still has issues, I honestly don't have the time or energy to talk to T-mobile again. I'm still trying to recitify the whole XM antenna thing, I need to get back to that manager at Toyota about it. I have a doctor appt this Friday with a "woman" doctor and I'm scared out of my mind. My ex keeps bugging me, wanting me to send him his skateboards, and he will pay me back. Uh huh. That fool owes me approx $435 just in gym payments. That's just the tip of the iceberg. I don't care of you read this, Manny. You know it's true. All this shit adds up. But ya know what? I'm going through all this for a reason, I know it. Only God knows why.. and this is making me a stronger person. I need a hug.
  

i am still alive

I'm back

• I'm back after a 3 day hiatus. I was doing a few fill-ins at KKIQ for the last few nights, and now I'm back here at Family Radio one more night until the weekend. I'm so glad it's the weekend, and I'm so exhausted. Okay let me give ya the report from the doctor, least the good part. I'm not diabetic, but I should probably watch my sugar anyway. I have good cholesterol. My blood pressure is still in the slightly high range, but no medication yet, just watch my caffeine and salt. My thyroid is fine. I lost 3 lbs since my last doctor visit. I'll give the bad news in a minute. Keep your pants on.
  
• For some reason this week, I've been in contact with friends I haven't seen in a while, some of them for like a decade or more. It's been awesome. Michael called on Tuesday (or was it Wed?), and we talked about my car. I know you're reading this, Michael. Hi!! Let's hit up La Pinata!! (waving enthusiastically). Fernando called on Wednesday, about my car. My new car is the talk of the town, folks. Okay I talk to Fern/Michael every so often and we do see each other, but still it was nice to hear from good friends. Also on Wednesday I heard from Reyes here on Myspace, a friend from elementary school that I haven't spoken to in about 17 years. I've known her since kindergarten. My friend Bethany from high school called on Thursday evening from Utah. Isn't that cool when you hear from folks you haven't talked to in forever? It makes me feel loved. I love all you guys. Group hug!!!
• Finally got my car insurance straightened out, and my new paperwork should be arriving soon. Also finally got justice from Hayward Toyota bout my broken XM antenna. I talked to their general manager on Wednesday afternoon, and I should be getting reimbursed once I get them a price quote. I've been SO busy and sick this week I haven't had time to get back to him on that. I will later today.
  

:(

• Okay on to the bummer test results from the doctor. I knew this was coming. Basically, I have anemia due to massive and very constant blood loss from my delightful so-called monthly visitor. I need to start taking iron supplements like 3 times a day. This also explains how exhausted I've been. (well besides my crazyass schedule) I also have to go see a gyno ASAP, I need to make that appointment later today as well. Thought I would share.
  
• And I have been sick like a dog. Not a happy dog wagging its tail, but a dog suffering from some cruel painful ailment. Last three days have been spent with a fever, and yesterday/today I've been hacking up lots of green stuff. And I sound like Peter Brady when his voice was changing. I should be picking up some antibiotics later today, so I'll be feeling better shortly.
  
• I feel guilty for missing the gym most of this week. I guess I'm afraid I'll keep putting it off and never go back.. maybe. But when you feel like keeling over and your chest hurts, it's probably not a good idea to do aerobic exercise, huh?