i can only imagine

• Hey there Momma. Here at work again, doing a nice 12 hour shift. Victoria's sick again, she caught my cold from last week. I don't mind, I need the overtime. Like you remarked often, the economy plain sucks. All my money goes to bills and a small amount for entertainment. Oy vey. I'm considering getting a third job, but I've really been enjoying having most of my weekend to myself. Everything just costs so damn much, it's nerve wracking. Speaking of high prices, Cathy got a new car. She and Amy went to Tracy Honda and traded in her craptastic Ford Focus for an 08 Honda Accord. It's really pretty. God knows how much it costs though.
  
• Here's how my weekend went down. Friday I had to run some errands with Michelle and Dad in the morning. That evening I went to dinner at Mimi's Cafe with Noelle and Michelle. Then we went to Walmart. Not too eventful, but I was still having girl issues anyway.
  
• On Saturday I worked in San Fran, then picked up Michelle and Dad. I drove to the duck pond to show it to Dad and we walked around for a bit. Then we went back to my house to relax and watch Scrubs. Afterwards we hit up Hometown Buffet and back to my place to meet Cathy and get a ride in her new car. We dropped off Michelle and Dad, then picked up TJ and went out for a bit. We got Starbucks, drove down Palomares, visited with Naphtali and her mom, and then dropped by Barnes and Noble. Then I went home and watched Are We Done Yet? with Ice Cube and John C. McGinley. He plays Dr. Cox on Scrubs, it was a dorky family movie but seeing him in booty shorts was worth a laugh.
• Sunday I got up on time and went to church. Good sermon about not trying to be one way at church and another way in the outside world. Just be yourself and be a reflection of God always. Well try to live like Christ all the time, not just on Sundays. That's it. After church I went home and walked to the duck pond for some exercise, then did most of my housework. I took a nap, then hung out with Davina and Valeria. We drove around looking for this karaoke place on Mission in Hayward and finally found it, but they only open in the evenings. We ate dinner at Rigatoni's, then went to the duck pond (again.. lol) and had a nice little walk. Now I'm here at work.
  
• Life is thrilling, isn't it Momma? I would say you probably miss it, but you probably only miss us. I know it's gotta be a hundred times more exciting up there than down here on plain ol Earth. Ya know that song "I Can Only Imagine"? I wonder what you did when you saw Jesus. I bet you cried like a big baby and gave him a hug. That's what I'll probably do too. Or get all excited and jump up and down like a huge retard. I do that when I have too much sugar. You're up there nodding and smiling, saying "Yes Lisa I know". Okay that's all for now. :-)
  

anemia sucks

• Hey there Momma. I'm still having girl probs. It doesn't hurt as much today, but I've lost way too much blood. Been feeling woozy the last 3 days or so. Today especially. Yeah I took my iron pills, and yes I'm eating.. well trying to. There's not a whole lot to report, not much excitement going on this week. I've been dragging myself to work, and getting off an hour or so early (don't worry I should be using sick pay for it). Michelle and I took Dad to the chiropractor yesterday, and I'm almost done with my Criminal Minds book. I was reading it in the car. I haven't been to the gym all week, but I don't think I'm in much of a condition to go. I've gotta take Michelle somewhere today, I think it's the hospital to get something signed for your insurance and a medical supply place to get Dad a better cane. Tonight I'm going to dinner with Noelle, then probably going back home to rest. I need it. That's about it. Hopefully when I blog again on Sunday night/Monday morning I'll be back to my old self full of energy. Being anemic sucks. BLAHHHHH
  

giant unicorns in my uterus

• Hey momma. Life isn't exactly peachy right now. My body seems to hate me. Okay I still have that cold thing I mentioned last time. And now I have major woman problems. I mean major. Remember back in August when I was in the emergency room for 7 hours? Yeah it's back. I think there's a unicorn in my uterus trying to burst forth. Not a good feeling. My thighs are burning. I'm trying not to puke. I think I'm investing in some Tylenol Women's Menstrual Relief and a heating pad at Walmart today. I just want to crawl back into bed and go sleepy for a long time. A long, long time. After work today I'm going to breakfast with Leeanne at Carrows, then doing the grocery shopping with Michelle and Dad. That reminds me I need to make a list. Ugh. Sorry this blog is so short Momma, but I feel like crap on a stick.
  

oh ca-ca

• Well Momma I'm back from my weekend. I think I'm getting sick again. I was sick the week you died and that carried on through New Years. Like a month later.. surprise! Sick again. I feel like I've been hit by a truck and I think I have a fever. My immune system sucks booty, but I think maybe it's stress related or something. Ugh.
  
• Anyway, the weekend was fun. Friday night I went out with Noelle and Michelle. First we had dinner at Quinn's Lighthouse in Oakland. I had lasagna, salad, and shared some nachos and bread pudding. I guess I am a fatass, huh? Anyway.. then we went to Target and Barnes and Noble in Newark and Fremont. Then Noelle and I hung out at her house and watched Criminal Minds.
  
• Saturday I worked in San Fran, then went out to Lodi to hang with Kimmie. We had an awesome time, as usual. We watched like 3 behind the scenes documentaries about the Wizard Of Oz, Head Office (with my 80s man Judge Reinhold and a Rick Moranis cameo), The Amityville Horror (which I napped during), New Kids On The Block Hangin Tough Live (we did our own videos to this and I'm hoping my camera didn't delete them from the memory card, my camera's been really retarded lately and after I get my refund I'm buying a new one.. moving on), a Miami Vice TV movie from season 2, and some home movies of Kimmie in preschool. Oh yeah we had Papa Murphy's pizza for dinner, and some cheesy bread. I also drank like 3-4 mudslides and lots of Diet Cherry Chocolate Dr. Pepper. Tastes like a cherry tootsie roll. Sunday we got up at like noon and watched most of Sybil and had McDonalds for lunch (I had mcnuggets and a side salad), then went off on an adventure to Walgreens, Blockbuster and Starbucks. I got a skinny hazelnut latte. Yum. We came back and watched the rest of Sybil (freakin long movie good god), and had KFC for dinner (I had a chicken BLT salad). We watched a movie called Downtown with another 80s boyfriend Anthony Edwards then I headed on home to get ready for work.
  
• So yeah, I had fun this weekend. I was thinking about you a lot, as I always do. This one hot guy in the Sybil movie was singing that "Hushabye Don't You Cry" song to his kid, like you sang to us when we were little. Made me tear up a bit. Oh and when we arrived home the sun was setting, and the clouds were purple. It just made me think of you, since Kimmie mentioned how her cousin Mandy was probably up there riding her unicorn through those clouds.. haha. Okay talk to ya next time.
  

life is hard

• Good news Momma, Dad doesn't have cancer/tumors. He has emphysema and lots of scarring like we thought. Thank God. Okay emphysema isn't good, but we knew he had that before. His oxygen levels are great and I'm going to try to take him on walks when I can during the week.
  
• I'm really pooped, I didn't get much sleep today at all. Well I did, but it was in 2 hour increments. Got more teeth filled on Thursday, slept, then took Cathy's car to be worked on, then came home and made dinner and watched TV, then slept a bit more. Oh yeah, we were having issues since Cathy's car repairs are gonna be like $1000. I'm paying for it and Dad's paying me back. I really had to twist his arm though. Wish you were still here, you would have handled things right away like you always did. Cathy's been really upset lately, she asked me how I deal with all this crap that goes on in my life. Before I could answer her she was on the phone with Amy again. Anyway yeah, I just pray a lot, try to fill my time by helping out others and hanging out with friends. That's all you can do, ya know. It ain't easy. No one said life would be. Cathy and I did agree that you're probably somewhere in God's version of Hawaii (which is indeed heaven on earth) relaxing on the beach with Grandma and everyone. Drink a mai-tai for me. I wonder if they have booze in Heaven? Hmmm.
  
• This weekend should be fun. I'm going to dinner with Noelle and Michelle tonight at Quinn's Lighthouse. I think I told you about that place before, I went there last year with Brad and Victoria. After dinner we're probably doing a little shopping. Saturday I'm working then going to Lodi to hang out with Kimmie. I wish you would have gotten to meet her, she's really an awesome person. Okay I'm outta here for now.. not physically but I'm done with my blog. I almost wrote blob. Hahaha. I'm such a nerd, huh? Love ya!!
  

more worries

• Hey there momma. Not much going on here, my usual midweekly blog. The past few days have been okay, not a whole lot of excitement. I went to the gym both Monday and Tuesday morning, and I may hit the gym again today. Dad's got a doctor appointment this afternoon so I don't know how much sleep I'll be getting. I'm really nervous about it since the doctor's supposed to discuss the results of his CT scan last week. I'm hoping for the best. Even if it's not the best, we'll deal with it step by step. Dad doesn't deserve to get sick right after losing you, it's just not right. You didn't deserve to get sick and die either. *sigh* I know it's all part of God's plan and all, but he sure is testing us right now.
  
• I've been having bad dreams lately, mostly about what happened to you and bad stuff happening to Dad. It's all part of the psychological process I suppose, but it still sucks. God's forcing me to face my fears head on, both in my subconscious and in real life. It's part of maturing as a Christian and a human being, but man this is tough. But I still save face and play the funny person to everyone, can't let em know I'm hurting. Well I kinda am by writing this and they read it, but oh well. I express myself so much better in writing than talking about it. Cathy's the same way.
  
• Well I'm gonna get going now, say what's up to God and grandma and everyone for me. Send a prayer request for me for Dad, I know you're watching over us and maybe you can pull some weight on his CT results. If not, well God does what he does. Okay talk to ya later. :-)
  

stuck in the middle

• Hey there momma, back from my weekend. It was pretty fun. On Friday night I went with Davina to the Edwardian World's Faire in San Francisco. It was raining pretty hard and we had to run 6 blocks, getting soaked all the way. I had a fun time. There were hot dudes on stilts and kids doing acrobatics. I took a few pics, I need to load them on Myspace. Davina made me look like some early 20th century schoolmarm. Haha.
  
• On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then Cathy picked me up at Bayfair BART and we headed off the Jenny and Mikey's house for their son Chayse's birthday. It was cool, we saw Cliff and his mom so we had someone to talk to. Oh by the way, the alignment on Cathy's car is wonky again so she has to get it fixed, she's borrowing your van. I'm sure that's okay with you. Anyway after that we got Wendys and went home to watch TV. I was in bed before 10pm but I was exhausted.
  
• Sunday I took Dad and Michelle up to your gravesite in Sebastopol. They don't have your marker yet, but we put roses there and on Grandma's grave too. Michelle got emotional, but that's just how she is. Then we had lunch at Foster's Freeze and got coffee at Starbucks. It was funny since it rained on the way up there and again when we left, but while we were in Sebastopol, no rain at all. Thanks Mom. Later on I came home and did more straightening, then took a nice long nap, got up, made dinner, and went to work.
  
• I will hit the gym after work today. I usually don't go on Mondays but Tricia asked if I was going, and I ate way too much crap over the weekend. So I'll do that for 40 min or so and then go home and mop the floors. Oh my god my life is so exciting, huh?
  
• Well I do miss you as always. Michelle and Cathy have been bickering about money and crap, wish you were still here to yell at both of them. Now I'm the one stuck in the middle. "Tell Cathy blah blah blah.. " "Oh yeah.. well tell Michelle this!" (flips me the bird) Oh well Momma, such is life.
  

oh poopy

• Hey there Momma. TGIF. I'm so glad the weekend is here. The last few days have kept me pretty busy, but that's okay. Makes life interesting. Wednesday morning I went to Walmart, Kinko's, Luckys, Starbucks and Longs with Michelle and Dad. Usual errands and groceries, like we always do. By the time I got my car loaded with groceries and almost home I had to drop off some extra food at Uncle Jim's house. That guy can talk forever. Kept me there for like 30 minutes. Not his fault, I think the talking and wackiness factor has to be genetic. Anyway, I got in bed by like 1pm and got up at 9pm in time to do dishes, make dinner and watch Criminal Minds. It was the last new episode for a while. I don't know if you remember that a month before you passed the Writer's Guild went on strike. Well they are still on strike and there aren't any new episodes of most shows. If they reach an agreement soon we may get a few more this season. This even threatens the pilots for new shows in the fall. Craziness
• On Thursday morning I went to the gym with Tricia. This was her first time at Bally in San Leandro. I had a lot of fun and got more of a workout since I was showing her stuff and wanted to show off my muscular bod. Hahaha. After that I went to Fernando's house and we watched Balls of Fury with Grace and Joey too. I've noticed that Fernando has been the most supportive friend ever, both him and Grace. He's becoming almost like a guidance counselor. Helping me look at my finances, giving me self help and spiritual advice. God truly gave me a gift to have him as a friend. And no I'm not saying any of you others are not great friends, just right now he's standing out more than others. Oh yeah, he and Grace gave me a stuffed Alf doll. So awesome. Later on Thursday night TJ bought 3 pies and got a banana cream one just for me. I love pie. I know you'd love to hear about that one.
  
• I do feel good about myself because I went to the gym three days this week. I also feel like a fattie (yeah the normal fat rant coming.. ) since I've gained like 6 lbs for no reason. Okay the pie factor don't help, but in general I try to eat healty. Lots of veggies, barely any salt. But it's like ARRRGH. I want to live and not restrict myself. Diets make me miserable. Why does my body keep doing this? Oh poopy. That's my usual fat rant that I go on at least once a month. I know what you would say Mom. "At least you're trying, but you need to eat, are you getting enough meat?" I don't know why Mom but you always thought I didn't get enough protein. You also would probably interject with .. "It's cold outside for God's sake put on that heavy jacket I bought you last year." I remember you oh too well.
  
• This weekend will be pretty fun. Tonight is the Edwardian Festival thing in San Francisco. Davina is going to give me a bit of a makeover and we're going to see what interesting things can be found there. I'll take some pictures. Saturday morning I'm working then I'm going with Cathy to Antioch for Jenny's kid's bday party. Sunday we're going to the cemetary in Sebastopol (we meaning myself Michelle and Dad) to bring you flowers since your bday is on the 29th. So I'll have an interesting report on Sunday night. Talk to you later, say hi to Heath Ledger if you see him.. he's kinda hot.
  

grocery shopping today.. whoopee

• Hey there mama, long time no talky. Okay I talk to you all day long but I mean in my blog, silly. The last few days have been pretty fun. On Monday morning I went to breakfast at JD's in Castro Valley with Davina. I had an egg white omelette with avacado and tomatoes, so good. It came with pancakes and I got a bagel. I had to eat the bagel later that night though, I was too stuffed. After breakfast we went to Trader Joe's since Davina needed groceries and back to my place. I could have gone to the gym but I was pooped. We watched Night Shift with Michael Keaton, Henry Winkler and Shelly Long since Davina hadn't seen it. She slept through most of it.
  
• On Tuesday morning I hit the gym (yay!) and then hung out with Fernando and baby Joey for a few hours. Joey's getting so big and trying to talk. He loves oatmeal, grapes, chicken.. well let's say he has his daddy's appetite. Then I went home and went to bed.
  
• Nothing else too thrilling going on. This morning I'm taking Dad and Michelle grocery shopping and running various errands. I'm hoping to be in bed around noonish. We'll just see. Dad has his CT scan thing on Friday morning, so we're praying for good results. I still think about you everyday before I go to sleep, and dream about you too. For some reason in my dream yesterday you had a bunch of jewelry on and kept trying to make me put it on too. Interesting. Talk to ya soon. :)
  

average weekend

• Hey there momma. Back from my weekend. It was pretty cool, although I feel uber guilty about the food I ate. Let's see on Friday I didn't get in bed until about 11am due to all the errands I was running with Dad and Michelle. I got up at 4pm since I had a dinner reservation with Noelle and Michelle for Claimjumper there in Fremont at 6pm. It was some GOOD food, as usual. I got the pot roast, and we all split lots of garlic cheese bread. I had some kind of english toffee pudding for dessert. You know me, I can't pass up dessert. Then we perused Frys Electronics and Walmart there in Fremont. I was good and only got a white trash mini-action figure thing out of the machine at Frys and a soda at Walmart. Why am I telling you all this in great detail? I don't know. Well anyway, after that we went back to my house and played with Spencer and Alf for a bit, then I finished up My Dad, The Angel, and Me starring Judge Reinhold and Carol Kane, then went to bed.
  
• Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then came home and didn't do much the rest of the day. This was fine with me since I do need relaxation. I did some housework and did take a walk, though. I spent the rest of the evening watching movies like Downtown starring Anthony Edwards and Office Space because it was on Comedy Central. It was pretty fun.
  
• On Sunday morning I was a good girl and went to church. Davina and Shuki (Davina's momma) met me there. The sermon was about resisting the Devil's temptation which is everywhere. I took that to heart, lemme tell ya. After that, I went home and did a little more housework, then went for another walk down to the duck pond. Did I mention I hit the gym on Friday morning? So I've been exercising all weekend. Yay! The rest of my Sunday I spent napping and starting on my Criminal Minds book.. Jump Cut.. the first 20 pages have been good, so far.
  
• Ya know I had a dream about you last night? I had a baby and named it after you, and it was weird because you were right there holding it. Interesting. Well thanks for stopping by my subconscious, and feel free to do that anytime. :) Talk to ya soon momma.
  

thinking happy thoughts

• Hey there momma. Well another work week behind me. Not that I'm doing a lot of work while at work, but you know that already. Actually a while ago I was doing a lot of bible study, catching up for the weekend. I read the last three chapters of Genesis and the first 3 chapters of Mark. My bible study guide likes to switch it up between the Old and New Testaments.
  
• The last few days have been okay. Wednesday afternoon Dad had a follow-up with Dr. Athos, he was being kind of a jerk and seemed to have an attitude. The good thing that came out of it is that Dad's COPD is mild, and is O2 level is high. Thursday morning he went to have a chest x-ray, just as part of the follow up since he was in the hospital with pneumonia just a year ago. A few hours later we went to Dr. Robertson for a check-up and his assistant noticed something in his left lung. She talked to the radiologist who took his x-ray earlier and they said there was a mass there. We're thinking it's probably scar tissue since his lungs got pretty messed up from the serious pneumonia plus all that smoking. We're hoping it's not something else. He has to get blood work done this morning and will probably get a CT scan on Monday. I'm pretty sure this isn't serious and am praying really hard right now. The worst thing we need now is to lose Dad. I'm going to keep thinking positive thoughts. Things are just starting to get back to normal, we don't need anyone else getting sick.
  
• Other than that giant worry looming over me this weekend, I think I'll have a nice relaxing few days. Tonight I'm going out with Noelle and possibly Michelle to dinner at Claimjumper and maybe hanging out somewhere there in Fremont. Saturday morning I'm working in San Fran and then Cathy's dragging me to Jenny and Mikey's kid's 2nd birthday in Antioch. It should be interesting. Sunday I'm going to church and I'll probably go walking and do housework. So yeah Mom that's my update from down here, in case you missed anything. Talk to ya later!!
  

another ordinary day

• Hey there momma, what's up? Okay that was stupid. I know what's up, you're in heaven. Well anyway moving on from that awkward beginning.. life is doing pretty okay. Not a whole lot going on. Monday morning I took Spencer to the vet for shots and a check up. He's doing just great. He has to go for more shots on Feb 11th. Ironic since that's when Grandma died 17 years ago. Oh well. He really likes the Dr. Bridgeport though, he was kinda whiny in the car on the way there but was perfectly fine once we got in the waiting room. He was purring while she was examining him, it was cute. Monday night I came into work early and did almost a 12 hour shift. Victoria was sick.
  
• Tuesday morning after leaving work about 30 minutes early I hit the gym and did some cardio and some ab work. I know my abs are there somewhere under my belly fat. Haha. Anyway after that I picked up Michelle and Dad and we did our weekly grocery run. We actually are learning how to budget. Hallelujah it's a miracle, I know. I got a new bra and more Muppet underwear there at Walmart. I'm wearing Miss Piggy right now. Great huh? Dad just loved being in the women's underwear department for those 10 minutes. Haha. After Walmart we went to Luckys and didn't spend that much like we sometimes do. I got veggies, cereal, milk, ice cream, all that necessary stuff. Then I went home and went to bed. Tuesday night I got up, made some grilled chicken wraps for dinner, did some dishes, watched Scrubs and Coming Unglued starring Judge Reinhold, then took a nap before work. And yeah here I am.
  
• Cathy got an awesome tattoo on her calf with your face on it. It must have cost a lot of money. I'm pondering getting one, but um not that detailed. Looked painful. I think about you everyday, and miss you so much. Sometimes I wake up and wish it was all just a bad dream, ya know. I was like that when Grandma died too. This is going to sound odd but when Grandma died, good came out of it. We would have never become best friends with Fernando and Michael if she hadn't died and we hadn't have moved in across the street from them. Everything happens for a reason. So there was a reason God took you when he did. He didn't want you to suffer anymore of course, but there are other reasons we don't know about yet. That's okay, I trust in God and I know he's got a purpose for everything that happens.
  

finally laid to rest

Hey momma, me again. I had a pretty good weekend, considering the circumstances. Friday night I hung out with Noelle, Michelle, Jolene and Amanda. We went to the Great Mall in Milpitas. I was bad and had Burger King for dinner on the way down there. Then I had a cookie and a brownie mocha thing at the Nestle Toll House booth. I was BAD. We had a lot of fun walking around, though. I got a Bert & Ernie decal for my back window, either TJ or Noelle will help me put it on this week.

On Saturday was your burial in Sebastopol. In attendance were myself, Michelle, Dad, Cathy, Amy, Fernando, Grace, little Joey and of course Jerry led the service. Or is it Gerry? I've always spelled it with a J. Anyway, yeah we cried a lot. I was surprised that Fernando and Grace drove all the way up there. Guess I know who my true friends are. Not that the rest of you are not my true friends. Fernando just insisted on coming and he's one of my best friends ever. The service was beautiful, Jerry did a great job. I showed Fernando where Grandma Joe, Grandpa George, Uncle Walt, Aunt Betty, and our great grandparents are buried. He thought it was pretty neat. I don't know morbid it is that I took pics of everyone's plaque/marker thing. I know Kim and Elaine will probably want to see them. After the service we went for lunch at Subway. TJ got called into work, left early, sped all the way up there, and somehow found us there. He was too late for the service, but the effort that he made getting up there showed he really cares. You meant a lot to him, ya know. After lunch we drove back and I dropped off Dad, Michelle and Uncle Jim. Oh yeah, Uncle Jim was singing some songs from Macarthur Park about leaving a cake out in the rain. Really loud. While I was stuck in traffic. I can see the weirdness is hereditary. Haha. Later on in the afternoon I did a little housework, then Cathy and Amanda came over, so did Jeff. Cathy, Amanda and I played Uno while watching Scrubs, some Lifetime movie about a fat girl winning homecoming queen, and SNL. Cathy made me take like 3-4 shots of rum, so I was interesting. I know you don't approve of us getting plastered, and I'm sorry.

On Sunday morning I went to church. You always encouraged me to go and I'm glad that I went. The music was poppin and the message was great. Talking about how we need to do what God asks us to do. When he speaks, we need to listen and obey even if it doesn't make sense, even if we're afraid. Amen to that. Later on Davina came over and we walked to the duck pond, and around it for a while. Then we went to Rasputins and I got Holy Man (since you know how I love Jeff Goldblum) and Downtown starring Anthony Edwards. He's hot but his hair looked just like TJ's so it's hilarious. I haven't watched that one yet, I will on Tuesday or something. Then I took a nice long nap and went to work. Yay.




Here's all of us at the cemetery. That light shining down on us must have been you. :)


Uncle Jim serenading me with his coffee.

• Hey there momma. Well it's the end of another work week for me. It's been a pretty good one I would say. Let's see Wednesday I didn't get in bed until after noon, then got up around 7ish. Watched some TV, did housework, made food, went to work. After work on Thursday morning Michelle and I went walking to the duck pond over by my house. You would love it there, momma. Especially the mallards. I think one of these days I'll take Dad over there, he loves birds and stuff. After our walk I took Michelle on a few errands then home for sleep. Thursday evening I got up around 6, took a shower, and made a bombass dinner. Scrambled eggbeaters, 2 pieces of bacon (Luckys had a great promotion where they were giving away free food like eggs, bacon, lettuce, carrots if you spent a certain amount of $$. So yeah I got bacon, a head of lettuce and carrots.), sauteed onions, salsa, cheese and lettuce. All wrapped up in some tortillas. So freakin good. Then Davina called and we went to Bakers Square. She had dinner, I just had some apple cheesecake pie and an iced tea. Then we went to Target but I was good and didn't buy anything. We stopped by Rasputins but the close earlier now, major bummer. Also went to Starbucks and I got an iced sugarfree caramel latte. I asked for decaf but they forgot. I hate that. So I was kinda wired for a while. Then we came back to my place and I watched Whos The Boss while she checked her email. And now, I'm here at work. I'm doing more bible study, working on Genesis. Jacob and Esau, good stuff.
  
• I've been in a really great mood and I'd like to thank god for that. I'm truly blessed to have family and friends who care and are helping me through this. I'd also like to note that Michelle has helped SO MUCH lately with the arrangements for you, Mom. Lots of paperwork I don't like dealing with. I'm sure you're proud of her. Your burial is tomorrow afternoon. Jerry's coming up with his wife, Cathy, TJ and I think Amy are going in Cathy's car, and I'm driving Michelle, Dad and Uncle Jim (your bro, not Dad's bro). By the way Dad's brother has gangrene on his butt, have I mentioned that? I know you'd find that amusing. LMAO. Anywhoo, it'll be nice to have some closure you know, to know that you're laid to rest with grandma and grandpa, and Uncle Walt. Dad said he can't wait to be with you again. It wrenches my heart to hear that. I know someday he will be, but not anytime soon hopefully. I can't stand losing too many people at once, dude.
• Well gotta go. I've been watching 80s videos like Toto singing Rosanna. "Meet you all the way.. Rosanna yeah.. " Remember that one? Of course you do we used to listen to that in the car on KYUU back in the day. That and Lionel Richie, Steve Winwood, all the good stuff. Those were the days, when you used a lot of hairspray. And that jammin red/gold striped shirt and your designer jeans from JC Penney. And your white Reeboks. You were stylin. Sometime soon I wanna bombard your room (well you and Dad's) and find more older pics so I can scan them. That would be awesome. Okay well talk to ya later. Love ya.
  

i just keep on smiling

• Hey mom it's me again. The last few days have been pretty okay. Monday I didn't do a whole lot. Just made dinner, watched lots of TV, came to work. After work on Tuesday morning Michelle and I went walking to the duck pond near my house. Sorry I never got to show you where it is. After that we took Happy to the vet to get his nails clipped and pick up some more ointment for his back. I made an appointment for Spencer to get his other shots for next week. Tuesday afternoon my boss at KDFC called and asked if I could run the board for the symphony, and of course I said yes. You know how much I work, I'm insane. So I worked in San Francisco from 7-11pm, then came back to work here in Oakland. I gave Victoria a ride home and here I am now. We're having satellite problems today so it's a little interesting. After work this morning I'm going walking with Michelle again, then it's grocery day. We're dragging Dad with us to Walmart and Luckys as usual. It'll be fun. Speaking of fun my dentist keeps calling for me to make an appointment to get more fillings done. Ugh. It just never ends, as you know. That's why I don't have time for relationships. Working + helping out the family + stuff I have to get done just takes up my time. I never sit at home feeling lonely or sad because I don't have a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend someday since I want to settle down and have kids. All most guys want is sex. I don't want to have sex until I'm married or practically there. Therefore I tend to avoid relationships since I know what most guys are after. It's like I want a relationship (since I want kids hella bad), but most guys don't want to settle down. So confusing. When you were my age you had been married for 9 years. Back in your day people actually did this thing called dating, then married and had sex. Nowadays its like everyone's doing it in middle school, practically. Sex everywhere. It's absolutely awful.
  
• Well Mom I think about you day and night. I have a few friends who are concerned about me since I keep lots of my feelings bottled up inside. I've always been that way. You were that way too. Even on your worst day you always had a great smile and something funny to say. I've always done exactly the same thing. My friend Tricia said something to me at your viewing.. "Whenever I see you, you're always smiling no matter what." That was an awesome compliment, since I know you were always that way too, Mom. I'm going to try and keep living your legacy every single day for the rest of my life. :)
  

had a fantastic weekend

• Hey Mom, I'm back. I had a great weekend. I was thinking about you a lot, as I always seem to do. Friday I didn't get much sleep since I had to take Dad and Michelle to Social Security in the middle of the day. Friday night I went to El Torito with Noelle and Michelle, it was yummy. They charge for extra tortillas now, how horrible. You know I love my tortillas. Afterward we went to Walmart, dropped off Michelle and back to Noelle's to watch TV and stuff. I watched a few eps of Criminal Minds with one of my TV boyfriends Dr. Reid (yeah that skinny dorky guy), and kinda snoozed through some Law & Order: Criminal Intent and Chip And Dale Rescue Rangers. One of the guys on Law & Order looks like Brad from work. Haha.
• Saturday morning I worked at KDFC, then drove off to Lodi to hang with Kimmie. Oh by the way, we are having horrible weather. Three storms this last weekend. On the way to Kimmie's it was raining pretty hard and really windy. But I had Jesus and you watching my back and I got there okay. I drove like an old person, so that strategy helped. Altamont Pass was kinda scary though. Anyway, I did have fun at Kimmie's. We watched the Sesame Street Pilot and The Great Outdoors (starring Dan Aykroyd and John Candy), then I went to Carl's Jr to get our dinner. I had a burrito with rice and beans. Later we watched Superman, National Lampoon's Last Resort (with Corey Haim and Corey Feldman.. we only watched for like an hour since it made no sense whatsoever), Katherine (starring Henry Winkler and Sissy Spacek and looked like an ABC Movie Of The Week from 1981 or something), an episode of Highway To Heaven (say hey to Michael Landon if you run into him), and three episodes of Punky Brewster.
  
• On Sunday we got up around 1pm and I went to Quizno's for our lunch. I had a turkey ranch swiss sandwich and a salad. Then we continued our movie marathon with Superman II. We played The Game Of Life while watching this one. I was an accountant, got married with a son. Interesting. Then I started drawing bad illustrations of various 80s icons that only Kimmie and I would understand. My favorite was Michael Landon trying to be a drug dealer, and the Greatest American Hero. Kimmie's sister and niece came over for a bit since Kimmie had to print something out for them. I bet they thought we were insane. Later I picked up A&W for dinner (I had a chicken sandwich and chili), and we watched Fast Times At Ridgemont High. Judge Reinhold is so dorky and cute. Then I drove back to San Lorenzo and got some food, and here I am.
  
• I still really miss you mom. Dad is still really upset that you're gone. You were his rock, you know. Now all he has is us three girls. He'll get through this. I will too. Love ya.
  

dear momma #1

• Hey mom, it's me. Just thought I'd write a blog here to let you know how things are going. Life is getting somewhat back to normal. I'm back at work, on Myspace 24-7 and talking to friends online. My friends are helping me so much with getting through this. I wake up everyday refreshed lately, happy to have another day. I guess that's a good thing huh? Then I feel guilty, since I'm here, and you're not. Not physically at least.
  
• The rest of the family's trying to cope. Dad's trying to be strong, but lately he's been so depressed. Very understandable, you two were married for 43 years. Now he just has us girls. It's been so hard to see him sit and cry thinking about you. Michelle is so great, she's taking so much responsibility. You know she's always tried to take charge and now it's a good thing. She's trying to fill your shoes in her own way and look after Dad and the household. Cathy is handling it the best way she can. She enjoys her solitude it seems. I love Cathy oh so much.
  
• It was weird at your viewing, seeing you laying there. I swear you looked like you were asleep, taking a nap. We kept carrying on for hours, talking, crying, laughing, hugging. And you just laid there. If only you could hear what some people were talking about, especially certain aunts going on about bodily functions. But I kept looking over at you from time to time, and you were still there.. dead. The finality just sucks sometimes you know.
  
• I only hope that I never ever forget you. I know some folks have lost loved ones, and memories fade. I don't want the memories to fade. The other night we were playing selections from Broadway musicals on KDFC, and all I could think about was you watching West Side Story and Picnic. I just ate a few Christmas cookies, and I remembered how we used to make cut-out Christmas cookies and decorate them, and I'd sneak little pieces of dough. I don't want these memories and pieces of you to slip away. I also remember your fudge you used to make. Oh man that was good. And carrot salad with the pineapple and raisins.. mmmmm. I'm hungry now. Oh yeah and in high school when you used to pack our lunches in the brown paper bags and make little illustrations and cartoons on them. That was awesome. I can write a novel of just the memories of you in my head. Like chaperoning my 4th grade field trip to Pier 39 in San Francisco, and I was the only girl in our group. Mark and Orazio bought that whoopie cushion, and you bought Antonio some little chocolate bottles with the liquor inside for his mom. Oh yeah by the way, Ms. Vollov, Mrs. Gamoso and her son Diony, Miss Pappalardo and Mrs. Siple all came to the viewing. Interesting to see all those teachers at once. They all seemed to mix up Michelle and Cathy but definitely remembered me. Haha. Guess I'm pretty hard to forget. Oh yeah, did I mention I actually wore a skirt? Yeah shocking but true. Even Terry was impressed.
  
• Well enough for today I guess. I have plenty of memories to share in my next blog to ya and I hope to never forget them. Your burial was supposed to be this weekend, but the forecast predicts lots of rain and wind and crap, so it's postponed until the 12th. I've decided to visit Kimmie this weekend instead and have some fun. I love you so much and I hope you're having a blast up there with Grandma, Jesus, and everyone else. Did you say hi to John Ritter yet? You always liked him. Until next blog (and I talk out loud to you all day long, it seems).. I love ya!!

Lisa

P.S. Kim had baby Joshua the day after Xmas, he looks really cute. And no Caden didn't come to the viewing, Terry didn't want her covering everyone in stickers, including you. Ya never know, 3 year olds are a trip.

catching you all up to date...

As you all have noticed I haven't blogged in weeks. Well, in case you aren't reading this on my Myspace page, my mom passed away on December 21st. Complications from kidney failure that triggered heart failure. Oh and yeah she had terminal cancer on top of it so the doctors didn't want to treat her kidney failure and give her dialysis. What really matters right now is that she's not suffering anymore. No more medication, no more doctors lacking bedside manner. Where she is, she can walk again. She can eat what she wants. She's with her parents and brother. So I'm happy for my mom, but I'm so sad at the same time. I'm so selfish, and I just wish she was back here with me. Leaving me voicemails that I wish I would have saved, making faces at my camera, telling dirty jokes to TJ, just random things we take for granted. I'm so blessed that God gave me an awesome mom for 27 years. She taught me so much about life and how to live it to the fullest. Now I just hope my mom's looking down on me from heaven and that she's proud of me.

My Christmas was okay, I survived it. It was pretty emotional since Mom had bought several presents for us months before she died. My dad did a lot of crying. I got lots of things that I wanted. The one thing I did want wasn't there, and that was my mom. I did have fun with the rest of my family and friends though. They made life so much more bearable. Oh yeah did I mention I had like a week and a half off from work because of everything that happened? First time I had Christmas off in like 10 years. Not the circumstances I wanted, but still it was cool in a way. I'll post pics of stuff that I got later on in this monster blog.

>Mom's viewing was last Saturday and it was weird. Weird just seeing her laying there, looking like she was sleeping. Lots of people came, like over a hundred. I spent lots of time introducing people to other people. Folks from work came, many close friends, old school teachers who worked with mom, and plenty of relatives. It was awkward introducing friends to my 3rd, 4th/5th, and 6th grade teachers. Also awkward being hugged/kissed by many friends and relatives that I usually don't get cozy with. I have a few eccentric family members, but I wouldn't trade em for the world. Who else wants to hear about vomiting and other bodily functions during a viewing? Makes life interesting, I'll tell ya. Some of you may think it's odd for me to blog about something as personal as my mom's viewing. If you've ever had someone close to you die, then maybe you can relate to it. Maybe you can't. Someday you will. Believe me.

Life is getting back to normal, my blogs will probably become a lot more ordinary and boring. I think I'll start addressing my blogs to my mom herself, as a weird form of therapy I guess. This may weird some of you out, and I'm sorry. I need to express myself somehow. Oh yes here are the pics I promised.


This is 80stastic Kimmie outside of Longs. LOL


Brad is interesting.


Cathy, Dad and Spencer on Christmas.


A nice big weiner and cheese that Mom had picked out for me from Hickory Farms months before she passed. Thanks Mom! *pointing to heaven*


Tea from Starbucks that Mom had picked out and someone's *cough Cathy cough* Jack Daniels.


This cup was supposed to be for my mom. Now I use it.


Sandi sent these flowers.. thank you girl they are beautiful.


Peppermint scented candle I got.. it smells PURTY..


Michelle gave me this t-shirt.


Part of my tree, I think Santa and the kitties are cute.


Yummy!


Best show ever, dude.


Another one of the best shows.. well crime shows.


These presents were for my mom. Now they're just in a bag in the back of my closet.

I realized that I forgot to take pics of some stuff, so I may post most Xmas stuff I got later on. My bad.. especially Noelle.. oopsies.

Oh yes and I can't express how much all of your kind words and thoughts have helped me the last few weeks. Whether here on Myspace, or texting me, calling me (I'm sorry Dusty dear I need to call you back I'm a weiner), hanging out, or coming to Mom's viewing. Just showing you care is the best thing to do. And you all do it well. I have the best support network imaginable. I love all you guys oh so much.

sometimes im up, sometimes i'm down

• Mom's still in ICU, hanging on as hard as she can. We're all praying and hangin tough, since that's the only thing left to do. Why this has to happen around Christmas, I don't understand. My future Christmases are all going to be hard, but I'm going to get through it. I have the best friends and family in the world, I swear. I love all you guys so much.
  
• I'm feeling so much better today then I was yesterday. Yesterday stunk. All I wanted to do was sleep, and that I did. Like 10 hours on Tuesday, and about 10 hours on Monday too. I did actually wake up at 3:30pm so I had time to get ready and see my mom at the hospital for about 30 minutes, then went to a work dinner at Applebees in Alameda. That was fun and kept my mind off things. I'm apparently the resident network control comedian so folks expected me to fire off wisecracks right and left, and I did just that. I'll try to post pics and maybe a video tomorrow. I know my boss and Victoria also took pics and I'll get em from them in the next day or so.
  
• This morning I'm planning to hit the gym and visit my momma, then go home, start some laundry and hit the hay. Not too thrilling, but I do need the sleep.
  

please keep praying....

Well I'm sitting here at work, feeling pretty down again. Mom's back in the hospital. Her blood pressure was way low yesterday morning so Michelle called 911. She's in ICU, she has a serious bladder infection that has screwed up her kidneys royally. She's also having seizures, I think it's due to the brain tumor since I don't know if she got any steroids yesterday. It sucks. So I need all of your prayers for a miracle, okay? I need positive thoughts from everyone.

On a happier note, my weekend was okay.. well at least Friday and Saturday were. I hit the gym on Friday morning. Friday afternoon we tried to get mom into radiation but their machine wasn't working and my mom was uber upset so we left. Friday night Noelle and I ate dinner at Mimis, walked around Newpark Mall, went to Borders in Union City, then back to her place to watch the latest episode of Criminal Minds. It was pretty fun. Saturday I worked in San Fran in the morning, then spent the rest of the day relaxing at home. Mikey and Davina were both supposed to come over, but Mikey had to help his dad with something. Davina was going to come over later and help wrap presents, but I went to bed at like 9:30 so I texted her not to worry about it. I watched My Girl 2 (with Tj's Dad, he was on a 1 1/2 hr beer break apparently.. lol), Parenthood, and Legend Of Billie Jean. I also put together a video of some of my favorite moments with friends.. I'll post that in a second. I did drink two rum + diet cokes and a rum + eggnog. So I enjoyed myself. So my weekend was great, then it sucked.

Here's the video I made.. it's um interesting..

I was bored

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Here's a bonus video someone made of Jeff Goldblum to Justin Timberlake's "Sexyback".. it cheered me up a lot.

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• Well I'm very thankful that another weekend is upon us. I really need it. I'm not as weary and blah as I was yesterday, or the day before. That's a good thing. This morning I'm hoping to hit the gym again, and squeeze in about 6 hours of sleep before mom has her radiation treatment. This evening I'm planning on kickin it with Noelle. We're gonna go to dinner at Mimi's, and then take it from there. I have Saturday afternoon/night off and I want to spend it relaxing. I have plenty of movies to watch, and I need to veg out. Sunday morning I'm going to church then have to take my parents' van to be smogged. Fun stuff, huh?
  
• This whole ongoing battle with my mom's health has really put things into perspective. We take everything for granted. The breaths we take, the sunrise in the morning. Clouds in the sky, iced peppermint mochas at Starbucks. A hot 80s dance jam, and kittycats wrestling. I'm learning to be thankful for everything God has blessed me with. Every single thing in this world, God created. Okay some smartypants folks might say "Well some barista at Starbucks made your peppermint mocha". Yes but God created the barista in his/her mother's womb, God made the cow that produced the milk, yadda yadda. So I am so thankful everyday when I wake up and see these beautiful things around me.
  
• Of course a phat shout out to my friends again, you guys are great at cheering me up. TJ doesn't have a Myspace but I wanna thank him for unclogging the kitchen sink and setting up my Christmas tree. He's a great roommate, and a great competitor in farting contests. Sandi and Kimmie leave me awesome encouragement, and Noelle lost her dad to cancer about 13 years ago so she has an idea what I'm going through. She is an awesome friend. Cathy wants to steal Spencer from me and keeps stuffing him down her shirts. Weirdo. I feel bad for Cathy since she still lives with my folks and can't escape the constant stress from having two ailing parents and a difficult older sister. Okay well Michelle is a bit psycho, but she's providing great care for my mom and dad right now, and I'd rather have her there than some weird in-home nurse person. I am fortunate enough to live away from home, so I can escape to my place for stressfree sleepy and relaxation time. Okay, that's enough for today. Everyone have a great and safe weekend, be thankful and merry.
  

spreading the cheer

• Well I'm feeling a little better today. I was a little down in the dumps yesterday morning, and even skipped the gym. I had like no motivation. Depression makes me exhausted. This morning I am forcing myself to go work out. Later on Mom has a kidney dr. appt, then I can go sleep at least 5 hours. Then I get to do grocery shopping with Michelle. I hope to get home by 9pm, a new episode of Criminal Minds is on. Starting on Friday, mom has radiation treatment 10 minutes a day, 5 days a week for at least 2 weeks. Excluding Christmas day, I think. Anyway, yeah my schedule is a bit nuts. I don't mind it though, my family means the world to me. No rest for the weary, so they say.
  
• Again, let me just thank you all for being the most supportive network of friends anyone could ask for. When I'm down, you all pick me up. God does too of course, he's the one who brought you all to me. I hope that everyone else has the best holiday ever, and I mean it. Just because my Christmas season is crappy, doesn't mean that I have to spread the crap. It's time to spread the cheer, folks. Speaking of spreading the cheer I've drank so many iced peppermint mochas and eggnog lattes in the last month that I've drank enough cheer for the city of San Leandro as a whole. Okay digressing.. everyone go out there and enjoy your holiday season..that's an order. Mmmmmkay???
  

Another 80stastic weekend

• Well my weekend was pretty cool. Friday morning I took Mom, Dad and Michelle to the doctor, then I got my tire patched at WheelWorks. I went home and had a hard time sleeping, maybe slept 3 or so hours. Then I had to wake up and pick up a presciption for my mom at Longs, and by the time I got home there was no point in going back to bed. So I took a shower, ate dinner, watched Mac & Me with Cathy and TJ, then went to Noelle's. At her house I watched lots of Criminal Minds and fell asleep on her bed, as usual. Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, visited my mom for a bit, then went off to Lodi. Kimmie and I had loads of fun. We had Taco Bell for dinner, and watched the New Kids' Step By Step video, The Babysitter starring a scary William Shatner, Vibes, High School USA, and Mac & Me. By that time it was almost 1am and I was pooped. Oh yeah we played Monopoly and got totally bored, and ended up quitting after about 2 hours. On Sunday, we got up early and did some shopping. First we went to Longs but there wasn't much there. Picked up Amy's Xmas gift though. So we went to lunch at Lyons across the street and her mom joined us. She gave me a bag full of gifts which I totally didn't expect. I'll describe what she and what Kimmie gave me in a bit. So after lunch we went to Kmart and Big Lots. We took some interesting video blogs all day long. I mean really interesting. Almost all of my Xmas shopping is done, and that's a relief. When we got back to her place we watched Ghostbusters and Vice Versa while playing The 80's Game. I won 2 out of 3 games, it was awesome. Oh yeah, before our shopping excursion we watched like 3 episodes of Growing Pains. Haha.
  
• Oh yeah.. just to let you know Kimmie spoiled me big time. I got a Greatest American Hero t-shirt, Greatest American Hero season one, Mommie Dearest the book (inside was some bank receipt from 1979.. bonus!!), the novelization of Flowers In The Attic, Flowers In The Attic the movie, The Legend Of Billie Jean, Harry And The Hendersons, My Girl/My Girl 2, Freaky Friday (the original with Jodie Foster), Mannequin, and last month she had given me Muppet ornaments and a retrotastic angel for my tree. Her momma gave me an overnight bag (for when I come and visit), a Guess purse (haha), coffee, Kimmie's senior pic in a nice frame, and a nice coffee mug with a box of tea. I swear I didn't expect this much stuff, dude. WOWEEEE.
  
• All in all I had a great weekend and I'm very blessed to have friends like I do. I still had random periods where I couldn't get my mom and her situation out of my head. It sucked. It's like my emotions are a yo-yo. One day I'm great, next day I'm not even wanting to get out of bed. I guess it's just part of the process of what I'm going through. God only knows what's going through my mom's head. Hopefully she's hanging tight with Jesus. I sure am. He's my main man, he's gonna help me through this one. Again, thank you all for the encouragement lately, especially you Sandi. I didn't get a chance to thank you for the comment you left on my last blog, it really touched me. Oh P.S. people, I need addresses, I'll be sending out cards this week. Love you guys!!
  

just another crappy day

• Today is just another crappy day. Some days I'm feeling good, other days I just feel like poo. I'm still trying to think positive, but it's really hard to do so. Why this has to happen over the holidays, I don't know. It's also rainy and cold outside, making my mood even more gloomy. I slept 8 hours today, actually almost 9. I was supposed to get up at 8pm and my alarm went off, but I turned it off and just crawled back in bed for like 45 more minutes. It's like I'd rather sleep my depression away, and maybe if I wake up later it'll all be a bad dream. I honestly don't think I'm getting a tree this year. My first Christmas in 27 years with no tree. I have like no time first of all, and second just hearing Christmas music makes me sad/angry. A tree would make me feel 10 times worse.
  
• Also, I think I have a slow leak on my rear drivers side tire. I kinda hit the curb hard at the Wendys drive thru last Saturday night, and ever since then I've had to fill up that tire three times. So yeah after Mom's doctor appt this morning I'm gonna head over to WheelWorks to get it checked out. It's raining and I'm driving to Lodi on Saturday, so I'd like to get this fixed ASAP.
  
• God sure is throwing me for a loop, huh? I really don't like what's going on right now, obviously, but it's all out of my hands. All I can do is pray. A lot. I am so looking forward to this weekend, a nice getaway from all the crap. Thank you all for your love and support. You guys are the best!!
  

blah blah blah

• I'm having another one of those blah melancholy days. I woke up earlier this evening depressed about my mom's situation and the holidays and such. Then I wrapped a few presents and felt a little better. Then I just finished about 30 min of bible study and did some praying, and I feel a slightly more spiritually lifted. I guess I just put myself in my mom's shoes, and it makes me sad. I should be thankful for what I have, the great friends who are helping me, I have two jobs, a nice car, things like that. I just care about my mom so much that it kills me to see her suffering like this. But everything happens for a reason, even if I don't understand it now. Still really makes me bummed.
  
• The last few days have been pretty good, all in all. I didn't get to bed until like 11am on Monday since I ended up getting overtime here at work, since Brad was late. Then I had to take my parents' van to the dealership and get a ride back. Yesterday I had breakfast with Leeanne, then we hung out at my place where she snoozed while I watched 80s movies. Davina came over and did my eyebrows. I have the most awesome friends, dude. I did get 9 hours of sleep today off and on, and yesterday too. Today I'll probably sleep about 6 hours.. gotta retrieve the van from the dealership this morning and I'm determined to get to the freakin gym. This evening is grocery shopping at Walmart and Luckys. Oh the fun.
  

Pretty awesome weekend

I had a pretty darn good weekend, folks. I think I deserved it. Friday morning I had to run some errands for my mom, picking up extra food and such. Eventually I got to bed at like 10am that day. That evening Cathy, Alisha and Fernando came over. I had like 3 rum + diet wild cherry pepsis. We played Scene It and CatchPhrase, and took some interesting pics. I took an entertaining video but Myspace didn't like me yesterday so I've got to try and upload it again later today. I worked Saturday morning, and spent Saturday afternoon running my parents and Michelle to Longs, Target, Starbucks and Jack In The Box. It was a little stressful since no one told me what the heck we were buying at each place, and so on. Then I came home in the evening and watched movies with Cathy and TJ. We all went to bed at like 10pm, and I was bushed anyway. On Sunday morning Davina and I decided to try out a different church in Alameda, the Bay Farm Community Church. To tell you the truth I found it pretty boring. It was nice, and I could tell the pastor was trying to use a little effort. The congregation and the band seemed kind of asleep. I love Faith Fellowship in San Leandro where I usually go. Now they know how to get the party started. I won't be able to go next week though, I'll be in Lodi with Kimmie. Oh well. Oh yeah after church we went shopping there on Park Street and ate lunch at La Pinata. So freakin good. I ate half of a chicken super burrito, and I'm eating the other half right now. I also hit up a thift store, and found tons of 80s magazines. I picked up 3, and I'll scan some of the best pics soon.. that would make one fascinating blog. Afterwards I visited my momma at home and went to Noelle's. We watched the end of the Raiders game, then some boring crap her mom was interested in, ate some pepperoni pizza, and watched three episodes of Criminal Minds she had Tivo'd. I think she watched some Family Matters after that but I was snoozing on her bed. Then I came here to work. The End.

Oh yeah, I did go to the gym on Friday morning. I would go today but I'm really tired, and I need to drop my parents' van off at the dealership to get fixed so it can pass the smog test. Then I get to go home and do a little housework. I should be in bed by like 10am, hopefully. Planning on hitting the gym Tuesday and maybe Wednesday this week. Rest of the week I'm booked.

Oh and yes my mom is hanging in there. She's at home watching lots of movies and being cranky. I think it's her meds making her irritable. Oh well.

Fernando with Spencer and Alf on my couch.


Fernando, Cathy and I chillin


Best Friends Forever!!!!

Mom's home now

• I'm feeling a lot better today than I've felt in a while. Mom's back home, where she belongs. Yes she's still sick, but at least she's with family and not in the dreaded hospital. She had the most annoying roommate ever, too. Now at least she can get some sleep. She also has plenty of doctor appointments and such next week, and I'm taking her to all of them. We're gonna try our hardest to beat this thing, man.
  
• I had fun on Thursday night/Friday morning, because I brought my kitty Spencer to work with me. That really brightened my day, and everyone else's here. He is such a cutie. Leeanne and I went to breakfast yesterday, so she got to meet him too.
  
• I hope to get to the gym today, I did go on Monday, which was good. Next week I'll try going on Monday and Tuesday since I'm pretty busy after that. I'm eating generally healthy lately, but I've eaten strawberry frozen yogurt most of this week as dessert at home. Dessert is my weakness, man. Thank god I don't have any cheesecake or oreos laying around. Haha.
  

blah

• Well today is another day. Nothing too thrilling to report, I guess. Today's one of those ho-hum kind of days. I was feeling good for a day or two, then whammo I'm sad again. All part of the process, I know. I've been getting an okay amount of sleep lately, but I still feel really exhausted. I'm also having my infamous woman issues, so that may be another reason for exhaustion since I'm anemic. Oh well.
  
• I did go to the gym on Monday morning, so I have to pat myself on the back for that one. Probably won't get back to the gym until Friday, I'm pretty booked all week. Later this morning is groceries with Michelle and my Dad, and we're stopping at the hospital to make sure Mom gets her breakfast. Yesterday it took them forever to get my mom fed. Geez. I'm bringing Spencer to work with me this evening (not now, but tomorrow, whatever it is), everyone wants to meet him. He is the cutest spunkiest kitten ever. God has truly blessed me with this kitty.
  
• I'd like to thank you all again for your kind words and prayers during the difficult time for my family. It really means a lot to me, every bit of it. I'm so glad that I have a great support system to lean on. You all know if you need help, you can count on me. Thanks again. :)
  

keep on praying, guys

• Well I survived another weekend. Not a monumental weekend, but it turned out okay. Friday I worked in San Fran, then visited Mom, then watched movies and ate pizza with Cathy, Amy and TJ. I needed that break. On Saturday I worked in San Fran again, visited Mom, came home and did some housework, visited Mom again, then came home and watched more movies with Cathy and TJ. Both nights I had a few rum + pepsis. Yes I know drinking is bad, but it helped me forget about things for a while. I also slept 11 hours on Saturday night/Sunday morning. I needed that sleep. Sunday morning I went to church, and it felt so good. I cried a little, and I did a lot of self reflection, praying, and praising God. I have so many things to be thankful for, even when things aren't going so well. God is letting my mom's illnesses happen for a reason, it's all part of the big picture, the big story. It won't make any sense now, but someday it will. I'd also like to thank my friends again for helping me with prayers. You all know who you are.
  
• Mom is still in fantastic spirits. She had been having problems eating on her own the past few weeks because of her hands shaking, but we had thought it was because of her "mini-strokes" and "parkinson's disease". Since she's been on the steroids this week, she is barely shaking, and she was able to eat lunch today all by herself. I consider that a small miracle. Also, she doesn't need oxygen anymore, at least right now. She is breathing perfectly fine. We still don't officially have the biopsy results back yet, so we don't know the whole game plan on chemotherapy, steroids and radiation. I will keep you guys posted.
  
• I'm still bummed, but I'm doing much better emotionally than I was doing last week. I am thinking positive, because when you think positive thoughts, good things happen. My mom is thinking positive too. She wants to get out of there so she can go Christmas shopping, if that tells you anything. I'm hoping they will let us do her treatments as an outpatient. I don't care about losing sleep, I'll take her to every single appointment. So everyone, keep praying for my mom and my family, if you can. Let the holy spirit touch her and heal this awful cancer in her body. In Jesus' name. Amen. Thank you all again for your prayers.
  

Please continue your prayers, I love you guys

• Well, I think I need to get things out in the open now. A few of you really know what's going on. My mom is still sick in the hospital. It's not just a foot infection. She has brain cancer, and there's a spot or two in her lungs. This isn't officially confirmed until her biopsies, but the doctors are pretty sure. She started on steroids today to reduce the swelling so she can get a biopsy done. She'll be using steroids and getting radiation treatment, a lot of radiation treatment. Her kidneys are holding up okay for now, they're giving her a double dose of her regular kidney medicine to make sure things are working. At the moment all any of us can do is pray and ride out the storm. This just seems so unfair because my mom doesn't deserve any of this. Name an illness and she's had it in some form, it seems that way. I know that everything happens for a reason, and God has it in his plan for this to happen. Still, it seems way too unfair. Especially around the holidays.
  
• Mom seems to be holding up okay. She was really positive when I came to visit her earlier. She was so happy to see me, as if it had been years, not just 3 days. I've been so busy working and trying to get in sleep that I haven't had much time to see her. Since starting on the steriods she seems a bit more coherrent, and a lot happier then she was when I last saw her on Monday.
  
• Today was Thanksgiving and it's the second year in a row I spent it at a hospital. This time last year Dad was in ICU on a respirator with a really really bad case of pneumonia. This year it's Mom's turn, and it's a lot more serious. Miracles can happen, maybe Mom can get better. And maybe she won't, I'm just so happy to spend as much time as I can with her and remember the happy times we've had over the past 27 years.
  
• A few of you have called with Thanksgiving well wishes, and I either didn't answer the phone or cut the call short. I wasn't meaning to be rude, and I love you. Right now I'm just getting the strength to blog about this and I didn't feel like being a weinee and crying over the phone. I also didn't want to put a damper on anyone else's Thanksgiving with bad news. I love you all, and I have the best most supportive friends ever. No matter what happens, I have a great bunch of people to help me through this. And Jesus Christ of course. Please pray for me, and my family at this really rough time, and have an extra leftover piece of pumpkin pie, just for me. If you don't like pumpkin, eat apple pie. Even ice cream, I'm not picky. I love desserts. See, that made me feel a little better.
  

I am thankful

• I'm pretty upset right now. On Monday morning my mom was complaining of chest and stomach pain and we took her to San Leandro Hospital. She's still there right now. They are doing all kinds of tests, and even more tomorrow. I don't know all the details, but it doesn't look too good. I don't want to get into it. Right now I don't really feel like talking to anyone. I just wish I could go home and curl into a ball and sleep. For a long, long time. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. That's why I'm not online on AIM right now. I'll get the usual "How are ya?" and I'll have to lie and go "Oh I'm fine" when I'm really not. I haven't been able to eat much all day, well maybe part of a Lean Cuisine sesame chicken dinner. I feel nauseated, upset, worried, angry, and depressed. Christmas music makes me cry. I just want to close my eyes and forget about all this crap for a while. I have a deep faith in God and I know that he's only throwin what I can handle to me right now. I may not think I can get through this now, but I will. I don't know how, but I will. Yes tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I am thankful, for having the best family and friends a person could ever wish for. I'm thankful for having great parents, even if I won't have them here with me forever. I'm thankful for Jesus dying on the cross for me and for all of us. If you aren't religious, then sorry. Big wow. See how much I care. Anyway, that's my anger popping out again. All I can say is, thank you all for being the best pals ever, and please pray to whatever God you pray to today, for my mother. Thanks.
  

Crazy work week ahead

• Back to work. Yay. Here I am, working 12 hours again. Victoria should be back tomorrow, so today is the last OT day. Which is good since I'm working like 23 hours in San Fran this week on top of the 44 hours here. Oh yeah baby, can't wait for those paychecks. I need the dough.
  
• My weekend was pretty fun. Friday night I took Michelle shopping at Kohls over at Bayfair and then to Southland Mall. We had fun, I got a few cute t-shirts. And a strawberry cheesequake at Dairy Queen. Sorry, couldn't help it. Saturday I did my San Fran gig and met Davina there in the city. We did lots of shopping, browsing, and eating. We had pizza at Blondie's then a few hours later we went to the Cheesecake Factory and split some chicken marinara with pasta, and split a brownie cheesecake thing. Hey, least we split it man. Then we went back to the east bay, picked up Michelle and went to Stoneridge Mall for a little more shopping. I picked up a copy of Nine Months for like $5.. hey it has Jeff Goldblum what can I say? Today was a kick back day. We were supposed to go to church. I was tired, Michelle had cramps. So I slept in and ate pancakes. Then I watched a lot of Trick My Truck on CMT with TJ. Now I'm at work. I'm a bad girl. Why do I like goodies? Why does my body hold on to every pound I eat? GRRRR. I know positively that I won't make it to the gym this week, maybe on Saturday. I'm working almost 70 hrs. Sleep is a little important I think. I'll try not to go overboard on Thanksgiving but I'm working 13 hours that day, visiting both my family and Noelle's, and sleeping in between. Good luck to me.
  

yay holiday time

Here I am on a Thursday evening, blogging a little earlier than usual. I'm here at work doing another 12 hour shift, making some extra dough. It seems like I was worried about hours and money, etc. Then Victoria went on vacation and I caught extra hours here this week and a little next week. KDFC gave me TONS of hours in the next week or so, especially since they're upgrading stuff on Monday night and they need a board op over the Thanksgiving holiday. Least I don't have to worry about going broke while buying Xmas presents. Speaking of that, I'm all done buying my sisters' presents, got one of my dad's gifts, one for Fernando's kid, and another special friend who's into insanely bad 80s movies will be happy this holiday season as well. I love giving gifts, some say I'm a little too generous. Oh well. I even got my kitten a gift already. I think I need to load Xmas music onto my Zune player. I'll try to do that over the weekend. Yay!!

I haven't worked out since Tuesday morning, and that sucks. I will be going walking tomorrow morning, I'm hoping. If Michelle wimps out I'll hit the gym instead. Gotta burn off some of these holiday yummies. Oh yes, and my new official holiday drink of choice is a decaf iced egg nog latte from Starbucks. Oh man I had one today, it was so awesome. Second choice is a decaf iced peppermint mocha. MMMMMMMM

This weekend should be nice and laid back. At least I'm hoping. I've been working so much this week, and I know I'm working even more next week as well. I need time to chill out, watch some HBO, do something lazy. Oh here are a few videos. First up is another installment of my insane sleepover at Kimmie's last weekend. Um yeah WARNING.. explicit language!!!


kimmie and i crazy

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And here's the world's cutest kitten.. SPENCER.. who hates cameras..
Spencer hates papparazzi

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top this!

I'm starting to feel like a fatass again. I've been like really bloated over the last few days. I know I've eaten a lot of crap lately, but I shouldn't be this big. I'm sure once Aunt Flo comes to visit and leaves, I'll feel so much better.

Nothing too eventful going on the last few days. Today I'm working killer hours. 3 hours in San Fran followed by 12 hours here. Yes I'm insane. As Dusti Rhodes told me earlier, "Lisa, you're an animal!"

I did work out on Tuesday morning. I probably won't get back to the gym until Friday. Today I'm going to bed at like 11:30am and I gotta get up by 6, since I have to be back here at 7pm. Well maybe I can squeeze in the gym on Thursday morning before I do the grocery run. Sounds like a good idea. In other exciting news, I just ate an apple. It was tasty. Oh yeah, here's one of several videos Kimmie and I shot on Saturday night, I'll be posting more as I have time.


Top that!

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my mullet will deflect the bullets!!

• My weekend was jammin. It was, for real. Friday I didn't get much sleep until later in the day. I took my dad and Michelle to his doctor in the morning, and it took forever for the stupid doctor to see him. Meanwhile I took Amy to drop off her car to get her alarm installed, and gave her a ride from there. I ended up hauling my sister and dad in the back of my car. It was interesting and I got free coffee out of it. Then Amy and I went to Fresh Choice for lunch. Then I went home and pretty much slept the rest of the day. I woke up at 10 pm and watched Zeus and Roxanne, then went back to sleep. Thrilling, yes I know.
  
• On Saturday I worked my parttime gig in San Fran first. I actually had work to do, it went by fast. Then I hightailed it to Lodi and got there before 4pm. Kimmie and I had a blast. Let me try to remember what movies/TV shows we watched. La Bamba, Ruthless People, Police Academy 4, like 3 episodes of Highway to Heaven (over both days), Summer School, Teen Witch, Hangin Tough Live (hahaha), Night Shift, Superman IV, and Mommie Dearest. Man it was 80s tastic. We were bad and got IHOP for dinner on Saturday, and drank way too many winecoolers. We taped several weird segments, I'll try to get them posted in the next day or so. Kimmie's mom came over on Sunday, and we had a FEAST. Turkey, mashed potatoes, squash, deviled eggs, crescent rolls, pumpkin pie, apple pie, cherry pie. Oh and lemon cheesecake bars and pumpkin bread. I am so stuffed. And fat.
  
• This week will be busy, lemme tell ya now. I'm working an extra shift at KDFC on Tuesday evening, and overtime on Tues-Thurs nights.. like 12 hour shifts. It will be one long week, but lots of money will be made. I need it to buy xmas gifts and get my bills paid. I'll be exhausted, but it will be worth it.
  

I've been lazy

• Ok you know what I'm going to say. Yay it's the weekend again. Well, yes indeed it is. I should be having a fun one. Today I won't be getting much sleep. Gotta take Dad to the doctor to get some jury duty thing signed this morning. In the early afternoon Amy and I are hanging out while she's getting her car tuned up. God knows when I'm going to bed. Saturday I'll be working in the city, then going straight to Lodi to kick it with Kimmie for the rest of the weekend. 80s movie marathon here we come! I bought some wine coolers, so we might drink a few and get buzzed.
  
• The last few days have been okay. Haven't made it to the gym since Tuesday, but oh well. Wednesday morning was grocery day, and yesterday I was just plain tired. I won't have time this weekend either. Next week I'll be working A LOT. (thank god, I need the money) I will try to squeeze in the gym on Tuesday morning, and Friday probably.
  
• Spencer is still a giant ball of energy. Yesterday he grabbed my nose and got a claw stuck in my nostril. It hurt. A lot. I tried to get angry at him but he yawned and began purring. A 9 week old orange tabby with a cute little pink nose is hard to be angry at. Oh well.
  
• Well of course I'll give you a lovely update of my weekend early on Monday morning while I'm here at work. I'm sure I'll have a blast.
  

Fun times..

Well here I am again, the middle of another week. Things are going great with Spencer. He's a little ball of energy. Only gets frustrating when I'm trying to sleep, and he's attacking my feet. But he's so cute, so what can I do? I was a good girl and went to the gym yesterday. I would go today but we've got groceries to buy, and mom might have to go to the doctor. Fun stuff. Other than that, nothing highly thrilling going on. Before ya know it it'll be Thanksgiving, and I have tons to be thankful for. God has blessed me so much. I have a great family and awesome friends. I've had some interesting trials over the past year, but that's only made me a stronger person. Now I'm taking the time to post some videos.. first is my dad at the mall a few weeks ago.. pretty random..

Dad rambling in the mall

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Here's me dancing at Fernando's house yesterday morning.. haha
Me shakin my booty

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And Fernando dancing like a retard..
Fernando dancin ghetto

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i got a new kitty!

• Dude, I am like SOOOO tired right now. I had a pretty cool weekend though. Awesome one. Let me warn you I am exhausted so if this blog is somewhat incoherent, my bad. On Friday night I went to Rasputins with Michelle and picked up Family Force 5's album.. "Business In The Front.. Party In The Back". They're rockin, and they're Christian, and yeah it's jammin. Then I went home and relaxed, and went to bed. On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, then went to Petsmart since they were having an adoption fair. The animal rescue group had a kitty who looked EXACTLY like Turbo as a kitten on their website. I filled out an adoption application for him online, and now I don't need it whatsoever. Why? Well if you haven't noticed by my default, I did find an orange 8 week old kitten whom I named Spencer. Noelle and I went hunting at the Oakland SPCA after I finished at Petsmart, and I fell in love with my Spencer (who they called Sebastian??) instantly. I adopted him, and stopped off at Noelle's house to show her mom, then my parents' house to show them and Michelle. He is the cutest kitty ever. Alf is starting to get used to him. He hisses at the poor baby, but that's about it. They both slept on my bed yesterday morning, a few feet apart from each other. I'll post that pic on Myspace soon, it's cute since Alf is huge and Spencer is a tiny thing.
  
• Oh and yesterday (Sunday), I went to a rockin concert in Modesto at Calvary Temple. Mercy Me played with Monk & Neagle and Aaron Shust, and it was off da hook. These are Christian rock bands, if you didn't know. Oh man I had so much fun. We were hoping to meet Mercy Me after the show but they had a plane to catch. I did meet Aaron Shust and get his autograph. I look like a total idiot in the picture.. actually I look frightened. I was probably talking as Sandi took it. I do that a lot. That pic'll be up on Myspace later today, I think. I got to work an hour late, but boy it was worth it dude.
  
• Hmm what else is goin on? Not too much. Today dad has to have a blood/urine test so Michelle and I are taking him to the lab right after I get off work, then probably Starbucks of course. Later I'm going home and doing plenty of housework. Eventually I'll be in bed. I'll probably go walking or go to the gym on Tuesday, though. I need that exercise.
  

same ol same ol

• Well another work week is over. Nothing too thrilling going on. I have a new coworker being trained for weekends, his name is Eric and he looks like Tim Meadows from SNL. He's cool. I've called two different people inquiring about kittens they are adopting out. Called this lady on Monday and she never called me back. Called a guy on Wednesday, he told me to call back the following day after 5pm. I did and no one picked up, so I left a message. Still haven't heard back. Oh well, God's saving the best kittycat for me I guess. I mean Alf is a nice kitty, but he's not mine. Although he has adopted me and sleeps on my bed everyday.
  
• I should have a fairly cool weekend. Tonight I'll probably chill out at home, or maybe I'll call Amy I haven't hung out with her in ages. I'm working in San Fran on Saturday morning, and I may do more kitten hunting with Noelle later in the afternoon. Sunday afternoon I'm going to Modesto. Sandi and I are attending a Mercy Me concert. It should be awesome. I work later on that night, but oh well.
  
• Exercise wise.. I went to the gym yesterday morning, and I will try to stop by today as well. I'm working a little overtime so I don't get off until 8am, so I should have time to hit the gym before taking Dad to the doctor. Fun stuff. I know some of you don't care that I go to the gym.. but hey man at least I try to stay in shape, and I'd like to shed some pounds. The holidays are coming up and I can't resist treats, so I don't see that happening too soon. Hahaha.
  

No I didn't feel it

• Happy bday to my sister Michelle!! She's the big 3-0!! Okay it was technically yesterday and she probably won't like me bragging that she's entered a new decade, but oh well. Yesterday Noelle and I took her to Claimjumper in Fremont for yummy bday dinner. I still have tons of leftovers. On the way back, there was a 5.6 magnitude earthquake on the southern Hayward fault centered in San Jose. We were on the freeway, probably in Hayward and didn't feel a thing. My parents sure felt it, so did Cathy. Everyone's okay. I didn't hear of any major damage or injuries on the news as of yet. No other real excitement lately. I did go to the gym yesterday morning, which is awesome. I'm not going to the gym today. We're doing our grocery run instead. Oh yay. Such is life.
  

lisa has new couches

• Well my weekend was pretty cool. Not like WHOOHOOO cool but not horrible. Let's see on Friday night I made a Jack in Da Crack run for my parents, and got myself some chicken pieces, fruit salad and an andes mint shake for dinner. Yum. I stayed home and watched lots of TV, had a few drinks and went to bed. On Saturday morning I worked in San Fran, and got back to San Lorenzo by 2pm. I got a nice surprise when I got home, since TJ's sister had given us a cat.. well it's still hers but he's living at our place now. He's a giant orange furball named Alf. He's nice but still kinda skittish, and hides in my room or TJ's. I then should have had time on that afternoon to go looking for kittens, but that just didn't work out. I picked up Michelle from some inservice she was doing for nursing, then had to take her home to help my parents. Then we finally got to the Oakland SPCA and saw only one possible kitten candidate. But some lady that was there first asked to see him, and I was mad. We left to go to the Hayward Animal Shelter, only to find out they are closed the last weekend of the month. GRRRRRRRR. I'm going kitten shopping again next weekend, but only me and Noelle. no one else. Period. I'm slightly mad at Michelle for inviting herself since I wasted an hour and a half of my time. I'm also mad at animal shelters for closing so freakin early. Oy. Okay so on Sunday I should have gone to church with Davina.. but my mom wanted to take Michelle birthday shopping (and dad too.. what fun), so I ended up taking them to Newpark Mall. The trip was kinda cool, I took some video footage of my dad being bored in front of the Hallmark store that I'll post soon. My mom had a hard time getting back into the van (she's disabled), but eventually we got her in... after straining my back. A few hours later TJ and I helped Noelle get her newly purchased futon home from Walmart and took her old loveseats. Now we have 3 couches.. yay! But yeah carrying those couches didn't help my back any. Any yeah that's about it. My weekend in a nutshell.
  

no more retarded phone

• Hooray another weekend is upon us. Mine should be pretty nice. I may be getting more furniture for the living room this evening. Noelle's giving us her old loveseats if we take her to Walmart to pick up a futon. Sweet deal. Saturday I'm working in the morning, then possible looking at kitties in the afternoon. Noelle and I also may visit the Ardenwood Corn Maze in Fremont. Sounds like fun. I need some fun and relaxation, I'm just pooped lately.
  
• Oh yeah I also got my new phone. It's a Blackberry 8700G. I don't know how to use it whatsoever, but I haven't read the manual. I'm going to be doing that after this blog. I also proudly made it to the gym yesterday morning, and I may go today too. Hooray. I wish I had more to talk about, but I don't. I'm tired, although I slept about 8 hours. Went to bed at 1pm yesterday, got up around 9pm. The two days before that I didn't get much sleep, well consistant sleep that wasn't broken into 2 hour intervals.
  

craptastic

• Today has been one craptastic day, lemme tell ya. Went to bed at like 10am on Tuesday, and got up at 1:30pm. I had to take my older sister Michelle to Kaiser Hospital in Oakland since she had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics she was given for a skin infection. It didn't look pretty. Well it took like 3 freakin hours there at the hospital. She had to go see a surgeon to look at her face, see if she needed a procedure done. Meanwhile I was running late for work in San Fran, and Michelle had the parking pass thing. I was actually going to leave, and Cathy was planning on coming to the hospital, to pick Michelle up. Well since I needed the parking thingy, I attempted to find Michelle, who didn't have her damn phone on. Inside the hospital itself all of the information desks were unmanned except for one in the main lobby, run by complete idiots. I asked them to page my sister, they asked how to pronounce our last name 3 times. Okay we're Polish, I gave them the benefit of the doubt. Instead of paging, the lady goes out to the lobby and yells her name. What the hell? Yeah she'll hear that throughout the hospital. Sure. I finally got a hold of Michelle about 3 hours after we had arrived, and we headed home. But traffic sucked. Then I dropped her off, and sped off to my place to change clothes (I had been wearing the same crap for like 24 hours) and grab food for work. I ended up coming to work 20 minutes late. Don't worry I called the afternoon jock and he was cool about it. Still sucked. Oh yes on the way to San Fran I realized an ink pen was leaking in my purse, and the zipper on my backpack broke.
  
• Oh yeah, and my phone is still retarded. It froze 4 times today, randomly. I missed A LOT of phone calls. My warranty expired back in July and I have insurance on the phone but I'd still have to pay $100 to replace it. I ended up buying a Blackberry 8700G, which was about $100 after the rebate. I know the new Sidekick LX is out, but I needed something cheaper but still functional. I think all PDAs and handhelds have issues of one kind or another. But I'd rather risk it with a Blackberry, I just do a lot of texting and like to check my email/myspace a lot. And my phone won't freeze randomly, hopefully.
  
• On a good note, I did hit the gym on Tuesday morning. I would go today but I'm exhausted. And the cable/internet guy is coming this morning too, thank god.
  

I had fun!

• Well here I am back at work for another week of excitement. My weekend was like totally rad, man. Friday morning I hung out with Fernando and baby Joey for a bit, ate Honeycomb cereal and took too many random pics of the cute little bugger. Joey, not Fernando.. haha. Friday night I hung out with Noelle. We ate lasagna and watched many episodes of Criminal Minds, it was fun. I fell asleep again, but her bed is way comfy. I can't help it. Oh yeah, after hanging with Noelle, I met up with Davina for a late night snack at 12:30am, and had some pumpkin cheesecake at Nation's. So good. On Saturday I went to my cousin's baby shower. It was fun seeing my cousin Kim, Aunt Brenda and Aunt Becky. I also saw old school pics of my mom and grandma in Kim's own baby book from back in the day. It was fun. Afterwards I dropped Michelle off at home and headed off to Lodi to hang with Kimmie for her bday celebration. We ate SO MUCH BAD FOOD!! And oh man we saw so many freakin movies. Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's Dead, The Exorcist, A Fine Mess, Supergirl.. and then Sunday evening we saw UHF, First Wives Club and an episode of Highway To Heaven. Before continuing the moviefest on Sunday we went to IHOP for breakfast that morning, then Mervyns, Walmart and Target. This was with both of us in costume, as Supergirl and a Ghostbuster. It was awesome. I'll have pics of this whole weekend up soon, I should get my cable/internet back this week. All in all, I'll give my weekend a 10 out of 10.
  

Me and my nerds..

Well the weekend is here once again. This week went by pretty darn fast, if I can say so myself. The last few days have been pretty normal, nothing too exciting. Wednesday I did the weekly Walmart/Luckys run for the family, didn't get in bed until noon. Thursday I went walking, then took the family to the bank, Target, Petsmart (to look at kitties but all they had were adults and I want a male kitten), and of course the Starbucks drive-thru. Starbucks is like crack, man.. and the Sovulewski clan is addicted. I swear I'm in that drive thru a minimum of 2-3 days a week. Oh freakin well, I get free iced mochas out of it, I'm not trippin. Got in bed by about 1pm, Kimmie called me at 4pm and woke me up (it's all good girl, not like no one else wakes my ass us anyway), and TJ found me sleeping in my Ghostbusters costume, thought it was hilarious. Oh yeah, by the way I'm going to be an Ghostbuster for Halloween, I changed my mind. And I slept in my costume yesterday. And I have my own proton pack. Life is awesome.

This weekend should be pretty interesting. Tonight I'm hangin with Noelle, I hear her momma is makin lasagna. I am so there. She Tivo'd this week's Criminal Minds and I hear it was a tearjerker, so we need to see it. On Saturday afternoon I'm going to my cousin Kim's baby shower then off to Kimmie's for my totally rad 80s weekend. Dressed like a Ghostbuster and Supergirl, scaring Lodi. We may have pictures done at Kmart. Oh god this will be off da hook. Oh yes and my cable should be back on sometime in the next 4-5 days, which means Food Network and internet at home once again. Hallelujah!!!!


And my favorite nerds..

Matthew Gray Gubler





And Egon Spengler.. LOL

randomness

• Life is pretty much back to normal now, no big drama to speak of.. for the most part. Took my mom to the doctor today. She had a mini-stroke last week, but she's okay for the most part. That wasn't her first small stroke either.. I just don't always talk about those things. So she has to have an MRI next week on her cardioid artery.. if there's a blockage they can do an angioplasty to get it out, to prevent future bigger strokes. And she has the beginning of Parkinson's disease, that's why her hands shake. She doesn't need medication for that yet. She has to go back to the doctor before Xmas and if she's still shaking a lot, he'll put her on meds. Seems like my poor momma just can't win. She's kicked cancer's ass, and lives with heart disease, kidney failure and diabetes. She won't let this kick her ass either, believe me. I haven't really talked about my parents' ailments as of late, but I don't like worrying people and I've already had enough drama the past week myself. For now all we can do is pray.
  
• In other less depressing news, I finally went walking again this morning. First time in a week and it felt good. I should go again this morning too, before we do grocery shopping. I'm also getting enough sleep, surprisingly enough. Got almost 9 hours today. I had two dreams, one sad and one just odd. Dreamt that the vet called me and told me Turbo was ready to come home. And there he was alive and happy to see me. So bittersweet. The other dream was that I was at some party, and toasting a muffin. Some white guy with a fro and a porn stache started talking to me and telling me he was the drummer from Toto. (70s/80s progressive rock band.. FYI). Now that was random.
  

kinda back to normal

Life is starting to get back to normal, I'm back on my feet. My weekend was pretty cool. Busy, but cool. Okay let's see on Friday morning I ran errands with Michelle and didn't get in bed until like 5pm. Then I went to dinner with Noelle at Mimi's. Then she checked out my new place, and we went to her place and watched Criminal Minds for like 2-3 hours. I was like 3/4 of the way asleep through most of it and it was interesting. I remember Mandy Patinkin and some small boy. The last ep with Reid and Morgan in high-def was hot though. Whoo baby. Okay I know I was invited to go somewhere else but first of all my phone is retarded and I'm learning that I'm not getting half of my texts and voicemails. I think I will give T-Mobile a call since this could affect my work. So I apologize to anyone I haven't called back lately, my phone is really wonky. Okay I'm digressing once again.
On Saturday I worked at KDFC, then hung out with Fernando for a bit when I got back from San Lorenzo. He had gotten bit by a squirrel earlier, helping out a disabled person who had one trapped in his house. Only Fernando would get bit by a squirrel, dude. He went to Kaiser later and got a shot, so he's okay. Anywhoo, after that I went home and took a nappy. Then I watched about 30 min of The Tall Guy with Cathy and went out with Davina, Valeria and Anna to the mission in San Francisco. The Mission neighborhood though, like 16th and Mission, Valencia.. blah blah for those that don't live in the Bay Area. Anywhoo, we had fun and ate at this place called Fritz that had killer french fries and some recording of a lady talking in japanese and english in the bathroom. I farted in there while the lady was blabbering in japanese then she abruptly said "Thank You" in English. Perfect timing. We had fun though.
On Sunday I worked on my demo with Tricia. It sounds great. For the first time cutting a demo, she kicks ass. If any of y'all wanna hear it, I'll email you an mp3. She also kicks ass for getting up EARLY and buying me STARBUCKS... and giving me a GO GIRL. She deserves five stars and a gold medal, seriously. Tricia you are the bomb. Okay so after that I took Michelle to get a baby shower present for my cousin Kim, not to be confused with one of my best pals Kimmie. If Kimmie were pregnant, that would be interesting. Least right now. Anyway afterwards I went home and took a nice long nap. I had a dream about Turby that I was petting him, then I was in the hallway and Shemar Moore (Criminal Minds, Young and the Restless) came out of my room. So it was a sad then very happy dream. Then I woke up on the floor. One heckuva dream. Oh yes, on Friday morning Leeanne and I went to breakfast at Carrows. I can't forget giving Leeanne props for hanging with me and watching me devour cinnamon french toast. I'd again like to thank ALL of my pals for being so supportive the last 5 days or so, you guys are so awesome!!!!!